Motherhood Taught Me To Pray At All Times.

Pray at all times.



I didn’t how possible this was, until I had a baby.

After I delivered Ksena, I realized that even the mundane things that I had taken for granted in my life, needed to be prayed about.

I highly doubt that I had pleaded the heavens for a burp or bowel movement in a baby’s body like I did in those first few months. Then came sleep deficit, Oh! My life is a testimony that there is a God. If anyone had asked me if I could survive without a full night of sleep, I’d have said NO! But, God and my body proved me wrong. I survive, some days I thrive, others I glide through on autopilot and it’s okay.

I have petitioned the heavens for a full night of sleep, some seasons have been better than others. In a particular one, I realized that her sleep interruption was to wake me up to pray. Now, who would have thought? After I moved away from being slightly irritated that she still won’t sleep through the night, I begun to hear the Lord at the silent hour of the night.

This veteran sleeper, really fought this lesson. But I’ve reached the place where I allow the Lord to give me deeper insight in the midst of the inconvenience of life’s circumstances. Some days I wake up in a rotten mood, that I quickly take to the cross for exchange.


I’ve been anxious and scared the last couple of months but I’ve also experienced indescribable peace the past few months.

Life has its challenges, even as I write this, we are in a season where eating has not been our favourite activity. But it’s just that, a season, it will end (Dear Lord, I pray the end is nigh.) Some days I have balancing tears, others I thank God for the cup of yoghurt that she finished.

I’ve prayed, I’ve tasted and seen that the Lord is good. Nothing is too difficult for Him and He cares about all of my needs. What a mighty, gentle and awesome God we serve.


In the ups and the downs of life, I pray that you will find the Lord’s presence as inviting. He longs to love on you and encourage you. When you are weak, He is strong.  He has all that you need.




Don’t Touch The Feet


It means constant adapting, and thinking on your feet. I say this and we have not yet reached the stage of asking ‘Mum, why?’ Yo! Lord have mercy in advance and give me the age appropriate answers when the time comes.

A few days ago, Ksena got a dish cloth and came to clean my feet with the biggest grin she could master. In my shock I said that we don’t clean people’s feet. Then the Lord asked me, ”Oh, we don’t?” Before I could respond, it hit me that we are followers of a feet-cleaning, sin-cleansing Saviour.  We DO clean people’s feet.


I quickly told her that in fact we DO clean feet; poor girl must wonder if I make up these rules when I feel like it. I explained to her that Jesus cleaned his disciples’ feet and told her that a dish cloth is not the right cloth for the job, and redirected her to another one.

Servant leadership, it’s taught from a tender age. Before life and it’s prejudices come and make our hearts their home.

I’m challenged time and time again that the Bible is the perfect manual for raising children. Yes, there are other helpful books but the more I read the word of God, the more I realize that the examples are still so practical, timely and necessary.


I could use a pedicure but I will take my feet being gently wiped by miss K as the pampering for the day. Lord knows I need it.

More and more I understand why the Lord said that unless we are converted and become like the little children we will not enter into the Kingdom of heaven. There is something so precious about the heart’s of these little ones.



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I Stood Him Up

I absolutely love, love stories <3

The intensity of the journey intrigues me. Everything from when the two were strangers, to how they became acquaintances, then friends, close friends and finally lovers, is special.


One of the aspects of my marriage that I really enjoy is going on dates with hubby. I savor these times together. We talk, love, laugh, dream…There is no doubt that we enjoy ourselves. Over the years, I have also learned to enjoy our silent dates. They have been some of the best quiet times I’ve had. I’m not intimidated by the silence anymore (this has taken some time), I relish the opportunity to be together.

Writing this makes me want to go on a date, it has me all giddy on the inside :)

One of the things that my husband, Peter,  has taught me is that dates should be fun. To my knowledge, I’ve never stood him up. Dates are always looked forward to; even the ones that have meant sacrificing my sleep or time.


Two weeks ago, the Lord invited me to spend time with Him at 3am. It sounded quite exciting at the time. But, I stood Him up. To be more precise, I slept. At 3am, I woke up and decided to continue sleeping. I was not intentional about meeting. Sleep is not a bad thing, but there is a time for everything. There is a soul refreshment that sleep can not give. Only time spent with the King can give you that.

I was so convicted. I blew off an opportunity to spend time with the Lord. He had prepared for me, to speak to me, love on me, but I came up with excuses and opted to sleep. I heard the call, and responded, ”But God…”. I made a list of excuses.

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The following morning I woke up, knowing that I had messed up. I had missed out. Yes, I was more physically rested, but my inner {wo}man, {s}he needed to drink from the fount that never goes dry. To fellowship with the Lord, see things through His perspective. To be with the Lord, hear Him, walk with Him, talk to Him, love on Him and be loved by Him.

Time with God is life changing. My heart breaks as I think about all the times that I have stood Him up and opted to engage the world instead. For the times that I have chosen the things and pleasures of this world at His expense. My heart breaks.

This is my prayer. This year and beyond, I want to get closer to God, there is such an urgency in my heart. I want to know His heart. I pray that in the third hour, and every other hour, this need will overpower my desire to sleep. That the longing of my soul will order my body to get up and commune with the Lord.

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I need to go a little closer and be pulled a little deeper. His love is so much sweeter than anything I’ve tasted. I want to, no, I need to know His heart. I need to be closer, more than I need anything else in this world. I need to be closer.

Can you hear the Lord calling you to go closer? Are you standing Him up?




Unless You Go With Me, I Will Not Go

We’ve been in a different environment for the last couple of days. Miss K has been taking it very well. There are so many things to do and places to explore. It’s quite exciting for her.

As she has been curious to go to new places, she has made it clear that unless  one of her parents is taking her, she is not going. She usually comes to takes our hands to lead us in the direction, if we refuse to go, she changes her course.


Just watching her the last couple of days has challenged me and my walk with God. It has made me ask myself how much I value the Lord’s companionship, leadership and grace.

Do I venture into an unknown territory alone, or do I wait for the One who is able to do exceedingly, abundantly more than I could ever think or imagine, to lead and guide me?

Does the Lord’s opinion matter to me? Does He have the final word?

I’m thinking deeply about these questions and asking the Lord to search every area of my life and show me if there is any that I have not completely surrendered to His leadership. That He may lead me in the way everlasting.







Sounds Of Revival

I absolutely love a good worship session. After a long day, Sounds of Revival, William McDowell’s new album is exactly what I needed to hear. The Lord was preparing my heart to hear His word loud and clear. I love how God works. He is ALL that we need. In seasons of plenty and enough, we need Him. Our desire for Him should not be based on our emotions and circumstances. Rather, it should be based on love. A steadfast love that never ceases.

The film is available for 24 hours on his website http://www.williammcdowellmusic.com/




Thoughts on Motherhood: The One Where I Chose To Enjoy

One, motherhood is hard. Two, motherhood is glorious. Three, motherhood is very hard. ~ Lisa-Jo Baker

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I have been reading ‘Surprised By Motherhood’ by Lisa-Jo Baker over the last couple of days and it has been a series of virtual hugs. I have nodded along, shed a few tears here and there, and had countless  ‘Wow! I am not alone’ moments. I will share more of my musings on that later. You can read more of Lisa’s encouraging posts here.

Last week, I got to interact with an inspirational lady, who radiates grace as she deals with children of all ages. Her name is Miranda. Her advice on motherhood was golden. ”I am a mother of an Eighteen and Twenty year old. When they were little, I purposed to enjoy every season with all it brings, from when they are infants to toddlers, preschoolers and when they eventually hit puberty. I chose not to complain about them and it turns out that the stages have not been so bad. We have enjoyed them.”

She told me this in the midst of a wonder week, nightS of interrupted sleep that resulted in crankiness. After we had this conversation, I resolved to not let the challenges steal my joy. They are all passing moments. Children grow, seasons change but love remains.

Last night when Ksena woke up and wanted her ball. I was much more gracious as I explained that it was time to sleep.

Ecclesiastes 3:12,13,22 NLT

12 So I concluded there is nothing better than to be happy and enjoy ourselves as long as we can. 13 And people should eat and drink and enjoy the fruits of their labor, for these are gifts from God.22 So I saw that there is nothing better for people than to be happy in their work. That is our lot in life. And no one can bring us back to see what happens after we die.

Being a mother is my second full time job. After being a wife. I am going to enjoy every season of motherhood. Even the ones that leave me in awe of how my sanity remains intact, I will enjoy, I will be happy and enjoy the fruit of my labour. Sometimes, it’s hard, but it’s glorious. In the midst of the chaos, you hear the Lord speak peace over you and in your weakness, He is strong.


Dear Mama, who is oh-so-overwhelmed, sleep deprived, drowning in laundry, dealing with diaper blowouts, tackling mountain-size tantrums, enjoy the season. Before you know it, it’ll be over. Every season has it’s challenges, but, our God remains the same.




I Hear The Sound Of Rain Coming

I pray that the Lord will bless William McDowell and his ministry. His music has carried me through some of the darkest seasons and it has remained timeless. It is always an invitation to worship, to let the Lord’s Spirit minister to me.

Today was no different.

A friend sent me the link to this song this morning. What followed was tears and hope. As I listened and worshipped, something shifted within me. I was encouraged. Rain is coming my friends.

“Rain only matters to those who have seed in the ground. If you don’t have seed in the ground, rain is a nuisance; but if you’ve been planting somethings, if you’ve been praying somethings, when the rain comes you expect a harvest.

This is for everybody who has been sowing seed in a dry season and you keep saying, ‘I wonder where my harvest is?’. The harvest is connected to the rain.

I hear the sound of rain coming.

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Heaven is open, receive!” William McDowell




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It’s Time To Adopt

Greetings from the K household.

I hope that your year is off to a great start.

I introduced you to Sheep a couple of weeks ago, well, we have a new addition to our family, Toto, a little dolly. We are yet to give her a ‘proper’ name, but Toto seems to work for now.


A few weeks ago, we noticed that Ksena wanted a little dolly to play with, teach her what she has learnt. Love her and nurture her. When she saw Toto, it was love at first sight. She was carried and cuddled all around. I really like that she is able to choose her own toys now. Once Toto got home, she was shown all around. She has been fed and cleaned and introduced to the others.

It got me thinking, that is the way we are supposed to be. As we grow in the different aspects of our lives we should find other people to teach. God has not loved on us so that we can remain selfish, it is so that we can love on others too. You are loved to love.


Titus 2:3-7 NLT

Similarly, teach the older women to live in a way that honors God. They must not slander others or be heavy drinkers.[a] Instead, they should teach others what is good. These older women must train the younger women to love their husbands and their children, to live wisely and be pure, to work in their homes,[b] to do good, and to be submissive to their husbands. Then they will not bring shame on the word of God.

In the same way, encourage the young men to live wisely. And you yourself must be an example to them by doing good works of every kind. Let everything you do reflect the integrity and seriousness of your teaching.

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There is always something we can learn from each other. Whether you are the one teaching or the one being taught, keep an open mind and learn.

It is time to adopt; time to love.

Happy adopting, nurturing, teaching, loving and growing.




Nothing Like The Presence

This song has really blessed me the last couple of weeks. It has a special place in my heart. This evening has been no different. As I listened to it, I felt such a heaviness; a need to share it; to encourage someone.

If you need a little encouragement, this song is for you. You are not forgotten.

I pray that the Lord will minister to you. That you will know that You are NOT alone. I pray that you will experience His love, compassion, grace, comfort and peace in a very vivid manner.

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As you seek His face, know that He is there in that place.

Indeed there is nothing like the presence of the Lord.




Taking My Courtship Seriously, In 2016 And Beyond

I’m soo glad that I was not born in the Old Testament times. It is great to read about the Lord’s servants, might and power. They were exciting and exhilarating times to live in but I’d have missed out on walking with the Holy Spirit daily. It is such a delight, honour and privilege to have the Holy Spirit by my side. His presence has made ordinary tasks extra ordinary.


My car is a little sanctuary, where I love talking to God, singing, crying and sometimes just sitting in silence. Ksena has learned to adapt and she sings along to the worship songs :). I believe that God interprets her praise, many times it is in a language, foreign to me.

Earlier this week as we drove to run an errand, I begun talking to the Lord, asking Him what He desired from me this coming year. What followed was a life-changing reality check.

He said that He desires for me to take my courtship with Him, the bridegroom, seriously.

(There was silence…a long silence)

The Church, His Bride, has made a joke out of the courtship. She is courting Him but lusting over the world and the things of this world. She is saying that she loves Him yet she has made him second to worldly idols.

I was silent for a few moments then I begun repenting for my sins. I allowed the Holy Spirit to reveal to me the ways that I have grieved Him. I am so thankful for grace, without it, I would not exist.


Bibi2be is all about preparing the bride of Christ for her Groom. Reminding her that He should be her only desire.

This is not just a mere ‘new year resolution’, no, it is a wake up call to live our lives devoted to Christ. It is a reminder to keep our eyes, hearts and beings fixed on Jesus.

I pray that you will walk even closer with God this year. May you court Him with your all.


Thank you for taking this journey with me. I hope that my life and it’s experiences have brought you closer to I AM.



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Rising Above Labels

Miss K has started talking and it is quite interesting to watch. Wonder weeks are amazing. They test your limits, especially at night, and then one day you wake up with a new milestone. This past wonder week had her giving us stories in the middle of the night. It is almost as though she woke up and her tongue was loosed.

It is a learning process for us all, we are trying to figure out her new vocabulary. As we’ve listened to her talk we have realized that when we talk there is what we say, what she hears and what she says.

Reading books has become more interactive. She is able to recognize the illustrated items and name them. We are enjoying this stage.

Last week I introduced you to our beloved Sheep.


Sheep really enjoyed Christmas. Ksena made sure that Sheep was not left behind at meal times. It turns out, her finger food is also a favourite (:

She has a sticker of a Monkey in her room that really makes her happy. So, every morning after she says hi to Sheep, ‘Mankee’ is greeted ecstatically. About two weeks ago, she saw a black and white Monkey hanging in a shop at the mall and she was so excited. Everyone who cared to listen was told that she could see a ‘Mankee’ . She is such a precious soul, this one.

When we got home that day, Sheep who is now called ‘Eep’ by the way, got a new name. You guessed right, ‘Mankee’. We had to explain to her that Monkey and Sheep are both black and white but they are different animals. Monkeys swing on trees and like bananas, while Sheep walk on land and like to graze. A few days later, she finally got it. Eep and Mankee are happily coexisting now, as two separate entities.



As I reflected on this, God really ministered to me. It is human nature for people to assign labels to people. For various reasons, it is possible to believe good and bad labels and question yourself and existence. I know that I have fallen in to this trap one too many times. I have felt inadequate because I couldn’t swing on trees yet I was created to make wool for people to keep warm.

In retrospect, I realize that it was such folly. But I’m wiser now. Wise enough to know who I am in God. Wise enough to be content being a sheep and strive to be the best sheep I can ever be.

I don’t know how your year has been, what good and bad labels you have believed. As you take stock of the year and plan for the next one, I encourage you to ask God to show you who you are, who He says you are. Accept yourself as you are; own your calling; let God love on you as you are and rise up to be everything that He created you to be. He loves you, He sees you and He hears you.


Leave envy behind and forge ahead to fullness of life.






The Reason For The Season

Hello :)

Christmas is here :) As we celebrate and make merry it is important not to forget to stand in awe of God and adore Him.

My friend challenged me to write a gratitude list for 2015 and thank God for what He has done before I give Him a list of what I think He should do. Thanksgiving keeps you humble. We may not be where we want to be, but we are definitely not where we used to be.

I pray that Christmas will be a special reminder that God sent Jesus to come live on earth and die for you.

As Mary believed God would do what He said He would do, may you believe that He will accomplish that which He has said He will.

As you eat and make merry, remember to take a few moments and stand in awe of God. Give praise, glory and honour to Him. This is not just an ordinary birthday, it is significant, because Christ was born we have eternal life, hope, peace and light.

May the Lord’s light diminish every darkness in your life. May His peace grace and light overshadow  all the chaos, difficulty and darkness in your life.

Wishing you a Merry Christmas and a Blessed 2016.








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Sheep In The Beach City

A couple of months ago, Ksena spotted sheep in the supermarket aisle. It was love at first sight. She talked to them and wanted her daddy to buy her one. When hubby called me and told me that Ksena wants a sheep, I was shocked, I couldn’t understand why she wanted a sheep out of all stuffed animals in the store.

A couple of days later, I got to meet the sheep. Immediately we got to that aisle, Ksena started squealing with joy. She was in sheep-land. The excitement increased when she realized that she was going to go home with one.


If I was choosing a toy for Ksena, Sheep would not have been on my top five list. I guess the reason that she is so fond of sheep is that she chose him herself. Every time we pass by that aisle, she still wants to rescue the other sheep. I could teach her a thing or two about farming using these stuffed sheep.

Two days ago, as I watched Miss K interacted with Sheep, the Holy Spirit reminded me of this verse.


The same way that Ksena chose Sheep to be hers is the way that God chose us to be His, fully aware of how we looked on the inside and outside. What other people think or don’t think about us is a non issue for Him.

She is very protective over Sheep. When she realizes that Sheep is not in her bed, she directs you to search for him. This reminds me of how God would leave the ninety-nine sheep to search for the one that is lost.

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I am learning to see Sheep through miss K’s eyes, and to promptly give him cuddles when I am instructed to. In retrospect, I’m glad she didn’t choose a goat.

Matthew 25:32-33 NLT

All the nations will be gathered in his presence, and he will separate the people as a shepherd separates the sheep from the goats.  He will place the sheep at his right hand and the goats at his left.

Sheep over goats any day (:

More on ‘The adventures of Sheep’ next week.





He is Still God of The Impossible

Christmas is here. I was thinking about the year that has been, I got quite discouraged reflecting on the things that I have been trusting God for that have not yet come to pass. Thankfully, God doesn’t close shop in December. He does not take a ‘Christmas break’; there is no ‘out of office’ reply to my prayers. No ‘Red Sea’ is too difficult for Him to part. He is still in the business of making a way where there seems to be no way.

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Even as it is easy to get distracted by the presents, it is important to remember that the presence of Jesus makes ALL the difference. He IS the reason for the season

Do you feel like the year did not live up to your expectations?

Have you given up on God?

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Do you feel like He has left you?

Keep trusting God, He is faithful. He is still in the business of changing hearts and performing miracles. He is present in every situation. 

Isaiah 43:2c-3a NKJV

When you pass through the waters, I will be with you;

And through the rivers, they shall not overflow you.

When you walk through the fire, you shall not be burned,

Nor shall the flame scorch you.

For I am the Lord your God,

The Holy One of Israel, your Savior;

This song is on heavy rotation in my house, it’s been encouraging me to keep believing even though I can’t see His hand clearly that I can always trust His heart. Indeed, He will never leave me nor forsake me.

May you be encouraged as well. May this Christmas leave you different, having encountered the Lord in a new way.



P.S If you would like me to stand with you in prayer, please send me an email via ess@bibi2be.com


Pearls Of Wisdom From Grandmas

I recently had the privilege of spending an evening with a group of twenty-four Grandmas. They are aged between fifty and ninety years old. A golden group of ladies.

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I met these golden ladies a year ago at a hotel close by. Every December, they come for a conference, to spend more time in the word of God. They read God’s word, discuss it, pray, stand in awe of God’s creation and sing. Most of this is done in their vernacular.

They are sweet and caring. Each and every one of them asked me in a very worried tone, why Ksena was not dressed in a sweater yet it was past 6pm. They themselves were dressed in fully knit sweaters, buttoned up to the top, such precious souls, these ones. I am convinced that if one of them had carrying her knitting kit, miss K would have had a set of a sweater, balaclava, mittens and booties in under an hour.


It was difficult for them to understand that Ksena loves the breeze; that the heat gives her soft skin a problem. So up until we left hours later, they were still at it, asking why the baby was not wearing a sweater. I could easily have gotten irritated, but I realized that is what Grandmas do. They love on you in the way that they know how to.

You know what else these Grandmas do? They live for Jesus wholeheartedly!! They have an eternal perspective as they walk this life. At their age, they have realized that after all is said and done, after careers, marriages and families have come and gone, God is all that they have. God is their all.

I remember them praying that the Lord would teach them to number their days, that He would remind them to live for Him each and every day. Their understanding of eternity is not vague, it is their reality.


As we were there, we got to worship with them. It was amazing (: . Living so far away from my home of origin, has made me appreciate worship in my vernacular even more. It was nice to see Ksena sing along. Truly God ordains praise from the mouths of children and infants, Matthew 21:16.

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Last year, they came by road and the journey took over 12 hours , but this year they were able to fly. Boy, were they ecstatic. They started praising God thousands of feet above sea level. They didn’t care who was around them, God deserved the praise, right there. They had never thought that they would get on plane. Also, God’s creation looked amazing from an aerial point of view.

I left challenged! Reminded that the end of the world is fast approaching. Christ is coming back for His bride and she HAS to be ready. The bride has been distracted and pacified by the things of this world, but Christ desires for her to be holy, just as He is holy.

Are you living with an eternal perspective?


Have you forgotten the old people around you?

How can you love on these people this Christmas?

The prayer of the day:

Dear Lord,

Thank you for this apt reminder, that you are coming back for your bride. Sometimes, I get distracted and pacified by the things of this world, as I result, I do not pursue you as I ought to. Lord,  I ask that you will forgive me and lead me in the way everlasting. 

There are many times that I have forgotten that I am supposed to take care of the old people. Lord, please help me love on them in a way that brings all praise, glory and honor to your name.

In Jesus name I pray and believe,


Psalms 71:18-19 NIV

Even when I am old and gray,
    do not forsake me, my God,
till I declare your power to the next generation,
    your mighty acts to all who are to come.

Your righteousness, God, reaches to the heavens,
    you who have done great things.
    Who is like you, God?

Have a blessed week.


P.S If you would like me to stand with you in prayer, please send me an email via ess@bibi2be.com


My Heart, Your Home

I’ve been quite eager to redecorate my house over the last couple of days. I spend quite a bit of time on Pinterest looking for inspiration. I’ve found some amazing ideas. The down side is that, some involve things that violate my tenancy agreement. Permanent changes are difficult to make in a rented house, so I am sort of back to the drawing board, looking for nice things that I can put up and easily remove when I need to move.


A few nights ago, as I was looking at different ideas, this song begun to play in my head:

As I thought about the words, I stopped in my tracks. I begun to think about my tenancy agreement with God. The Holy Spirit asked me if He is allowed to make permanent changes, break down walls and build new ones. Uproot and destroy what doesn’t need to be there and plant new things.


I was quiet for a few minutes. It hit me that in different seasons, I kept readjusting the terms of the tenancy agreement to suit  my selfish ambition.

I remember a couple of years back, my mum had her house refurbished. It involved knocking down walls and building things from scratch. The contractor took longer than we had anticipated, it was inconveniencing to say the least, but it was worth the wait.

Similarly, the process of heart refurbishment is painful, messy and noisy but the results are breathtakingly beautiful.


Do you act like you belong to yourself?

Is the Holy Spirit free to make permanent changes in your life?

This is the prayer for the week:

Dear God,

Thank you for this timely reminder. Please forgive me for behaving like I belong to myself. There are so many times that I have refused your Spirit to work within me because I thought I knew better. Please forgive me of the sin of pride. I declare today that my body is the temple of the Holy Spirit. I surrender myself to your Lordship; make permanent changes in my heart according to your will. I know that I can trust your plan for me. Your love for me is constant. When I am afraid and in doubt please comfort me with your great unfailing love. In Jesus name I pray and believe, Amen

Have a lovely week.



P.S if you would like me to stand with you in prayer, send me an email via ess@bibi2be.com


Are You Running On Fumes?

When the fuel light goes off in the car, I know that I need to make my way to the closest fuel station, because I only have about fifty kilometers left. Well, that is if I am driving with my air conditioner off.


Earlier this week, I hadn’t slept well due to Miss K going through a serious sleep regression coupled with teething. When we woke up, she was cranky and did not want her feet to touch the floor, she wanted to be carried everywhere. She refused to have her breakfast. When she was not being carried, she was giving my shadow a run for it’s money, trying keeping up with me. At one point, I just wanted some quiet to use the bathroom. When I realized that I was going to have an audience, I prayed and asked God to help me because my patience was running low.

THEN, the Holy Spirit promptly reminded me ‘ Love is patient before it kind. It is patient before it is other things.’


I felt so reprimanded, in love.

I was reminded that it is crucial for me to be patient. If I feel low on patience {love} I should run to the nearest fuel station for a refill. Read: I should hide away for a few minutes and spend time with God. I know how cranky and mean I can be when I am impatient and honestly, no one deserves to be on the receiving end of that.

Are you feeling low on patience?

Are you irritable, mean and cranky.

Are you driving on E?

Perhaps it is time you too got a boost. All these things that are keeping you busy and draining you can wait a few minutes. Sneak away for a few minutes, read your bible, pray and worship. Let God fill your cup, then you will have more to pour into the lives of those around you. Afterwards you will feel refreshed, rejuvenated and wait for it, patient (:

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For mamas with toddlers, the struggle is real but so is HIS grace, peace, love and mercy.When you feel your patience is running low, report to God’s throne with immediate effect. There you will receive mercy and find grace to help you in your time of need, Hebrews 4:16.

This song just played as I wrote this post. It reminded me how close God is to us. If we would only run to Him, He will answer.

God bless you.


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Mummy Blues And The Deep Blue Sea

Every so often, I am asked the question, ”How is motherhood treating you?” my answer is usually, ”I am enjoying it now more than ever.”


I have grown to love and enjoy motherhood more. My perspective has changed along the way. I have also changed physically and emotionally along the way.

I had a great pregnancy. I never threw up, my main side effect was, I was sleepy all the time. Eating made me tired. Whoever said that making human was easy, definitely lied.

The symptom that crept up on me along the way was depression. When I gave birth, it hit me HARD. You don’t realize how powerful hormones are until they are imbalanced and you are at their mercy. When no amount of pep talks are enough to get you into a good mood, you realize that there could be more to this than meets the eye.

I became what I feared most


Growing up, I used to get really bummed out when my dad said we couldn’t go somewhere because he was resting. I was too young to figure out what was going on, but in hindsight, I realize that the older I became, the more severe the depression became. When I could understand what was going on, I promised myself that I would not be a depressed parent, because I have seen and experienced what depression can do first hand.

I have struggled with the blues and front door syndrome in the past year or two. It hit me a couple of months ago that I had become what I feared most, a depressed withdrawn mama. Drowning in the deep blue sea of depression. I hid behind various labels ‘ front door syndrome’, ‘reserved’…but at the end of the day, whatever name I chose to give it, it was affecting my role in the home. It didn’t seem like a big deal until I noticed that my little girl was actually being affected by my reluctance to leave the house and do anything fun. She loves to leave the house and she relies on us to take her out. Her daddy loves to take her out, and she knows it.My heart breaks looking back at all our missed opportunities.

A couple of months ago, I started making active steps to not remain stuck in the deep blue sea. I asked my husband to pray with me and encourage me. I begun to ask God to rescue me.

I am definitely not where I used to be. Sometimes it takes me four hours to leave the house, but I celebrate the fact that I actually left. This is such progress, previously my husband would find me all dressed at the door and watched me change my mind after hours of psyching up.

This is my testimony:

He reached down from heaven and rescued me;
    he drew me out of deep waters.

He led me to a place of safety;
    he rescued me because he delights in me.

Psalm 18:16,19 NLT

I was drowning in the deep waters. In the depths of sadness and hopelessness; I believed several lies and cried many tears. But GOD, He rescued me. He has led me to a place of safety and loved on me. I am in AWE of who He is. He has filled me with hope and peace.

Though I am not where I need to be, I am definitely not where I used to be. I am enjoying making memories and seeing God’s redeeming love at work in my life and my home. We just came from baby swimming, it’s been amazing watching Ksena become more confident in the water. Today she was kicking under water, we have come a mighty long way. Her milestones are my milestones. They have shown me that when we step out of our comfort zone and let God lead us to waters unknown, we will see a side of Him and ourselves that we never knew. We will experience joy and peace from above. We will be everything that He created us to be.

If you are a mummy who would like someone to talk to, send me an email via ess@bibi2be.com.

Have a lovely day,




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Peace is Our Default Setting.

A  friend of mine recently reminded me a life changing truth that made me re-evaluate how I start my day.

To me the beginning of the day determines the rest of the day. So I have rules: I never wake up in any anxiety, of absolutely anything: Money, no money, clean or dirty, done or not done. Nothing can raise my blood pressure of anxiety level in the morning. It took me years to get to this point, I had to get sick to get it. If there is anything that raises your heartbeat, remove it, try, make an attempt, make an effort, eventually, you will get there

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once you reach it you will breath deeper, your cortisol level will balance out, you will loose weight, your blood pressure will level out, you will be able to look at things from the distance, you will be able to see more, you will be able to enjoy your life and you will become better person over all. There is always tomorrow to clean the dishes, and if there is not, then not a big deal when you leave them dirty, but if the tomorrow is not there to make up for lost time with you or your loved once, the loss is greater.

As I read this, the Holy Spirit revealed to me that chaos is not my default setting, peace is. I need to learn how to value it above all else. There are things that increase anxiety in my life, and in turn disrupt my peace. But I need to realize that peace is valuable, peace is Jesus’ gift to me. It is my little piece of heaven on earth.


Worry and anxiety do not produce good fruit. Peace is crucial for my overall well-being. How I  start my day has an impact on the rest of the day.

I have decided to take some time every morning and be still, not think about anything that causes me to worry, remind myself what peace feels like. And strive to maintain that state of being. In this moment, I remind myself and every situation that disrupts my peace by causing me to worry, that He is God.

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This means that, there is nothing too difficult for Him. He knit me in my mother’s womb, He knows all about me and loves me the same.

I refuse to let external forces disrupt my peace. Sometimes I fail at this, but I have a new found resolve to let the peace of God reign in my heart and mind. So, every time that I feel anxious I will remind myself that God longs for me to experience His peace that surpasses all understanding instead.


What is it that causes you to feel out of balance?

Do you value peace over chaos?

This is my prayer for you:

May God our Father and the Lord Jesus Christ give you his grace and peace. 2 Corinthians 1:2



P.S I f you would like me to stand with you in prayer, send me an email via ess@bibi2be.com


Life Lessons From A Lactating Mother

The most profound life lessons come from the simplest of things. If you let the Holy Spirit whisper to you, He gives you fresh insight on ordinary things.

A couple of days ago, I hang out with a friend of mine who was nursing her little baby. It was interesting to watch, as it seems like it was a lifetime ago when Miss K was nursing so frequently. As I reflected on my day, the Holy Spirit whispered these nuggets of wisdom to me.

*Peace is Paramount 


The fastest way to sabotage your milk supply is to start stressing about things. Stress and milk production do not go hand in hand.

In the same way, the fastest way to sabotage yourself is to give in to stress. Once you let worry and anxiety take centre stage, you begin to feel out of balance. You function best in a state of peace. Peace is your inheritance.

John 14:27 NLT

I am leaving you with a gift – peace of mind and heart. And the peace I give is a gift the world cannot give. So don’t be troubled or afraid.

*Consistency is key


To keep your supply up, you need the demand and nutrition need to be consistent. When you lack consistency, issues come up, such as too little supply of milk or  mastitis if the boob is not emptied regularly.

In the same way, if you don’t consistently spend time with God you will not be able to bear fruit that lasts, John 15. You must consistently remain connected to the vine to be able to bear this fruit.

Do your quiet time regularly. Do not rely on yesterday’s mercies for today. His mercies are new every morning. Great is His faithfulness.

*There will be challenges


Under supply and over supply are both challenges in their own rights. Over supply can seem like a blessing, but, it can be very stressful when your baby chokes all the time or rarely gets the hind milk.

The thing about life is that, no one is immune to challenges, how we face them and react is what makes the difference. These challenges can work for us or against us.

*It is just for a season


Know when to call it quits. Like many things in life, lactation must come to an end. As much as I enjoy breastfeeding, I can’t do it till Miss K is a teenager. I need to know when the season is coming to an end and prepare her and myself accordingly.

As you go through this season in life, purpose to learn from it and enjoy it. To the lactating mothers, happy breastfeeding (:



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Love That Heals The Pain Within

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We are living in a time where the world is deficient of hope. Every where you turn, all you see and hear are sad stories. There are seldom any good stories. The ones that are there, seem like a drop in the ocean. In the recent past, several people have told me that they get depressed from watching the news. It may seem like a small thing that they shouldn’t take too personally, but, the news is subconsciously replayed in their minds hours and days after the bulletin.

Though we don’t see it, people are crying and dying on the inside. While physical pain has been considered the main cause of death, cases of emotional pain induced deaths are on the rise.
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A crushed spirit is difficult to bear.

Depression and suicide are things that I don’t like to write about very often, mainly because, they are very close to home. As I have processed them over the last couple of years, I have realized that what people need is love and hope. Yes, counseling, medication and conversations are important but they are not enough. A personal experience of love is necessary.


16 I pray that from his glorious, unlimited resources he will empower you with inner strength through his Spirit. 17 Then Christ will make his home in your hearts as you trust in him. Your roots will grow down into God’s love and keep you strong. 18 And may you have the power to understand, as all God’s people should, how wide, how long, how high, and how deep his love is. 19 May you experience the love of Christ, though it is too great to understand fully. Then you will be made complete with all the fullness of life and power that comes from God. [Ephesians 3:16-19]

I wrote this poem, after many years of not writing, to try and paint a picture of emotional pain. The pain that eats people alive from within.

There’s a pain,
That echoes in the chambers of my heart.
There’s a pain,
That nobody else seems to understand.
There’s a pain,
That makes me long to be free;
There’s a pain,
That holds me back from living out my destiny.

There’s a pain,
That has whispered many lies that have become my truth.
There’s a pain,
That leaves me with only despair and depression to choose.
There’s a pain,
That robs me of my desire to live.
There’s a pain,
That drives me out options and I’ve just got to leave.

There’s a pain,
That engulfs me though I don’t show it.
There’s a pain,
That has shown me just how good I am at masking.
There’s a pain,
That churns within my soul.
There’s a pain,
That won’t give at all.

There’s a pain,
That I can’t just snap out of;
There’s a pain,
That’s not like a bad mood that I can get rid off.
There’s a pain,
That is real.
There’s a pain,
That I long to heal.

There’s a pain,
That hurts too much.
There’s a pain,
That won’t let me speak, so I remain hush.

Where’s this pain?
It is everywhere!
It starts in the heart,
Then it latches on every part that can hurt.

Do not be fooled any longer by the smile,
My heart and being are filled with so much bile.
For a very long while, I have tried to be strong,
But now I need to end it all, though I know it is wrong.

Every time you think of me, cherish our memories;
Please accept my a million ‘ I’m  Sorrys ‘.
There’s a pain,
I have tried to stay strong and hopeful, but in vain.

In memory of those who I’ve loved and have conceded defeat to this pain. Indeed,
There’s a pain,
That often fails to meet the eye.

For those who are dealing with this pain, my earnest prayer is that the Lord will send His comforting angels to minister to you. That you will know that you are not alone or too far gone. That the Holy Spirit will speak truth into every situation and crevice of your heart. And that this truth will dispel all the lies that you have believed. I pray that God will infuse you with hope, peace, joy and inner strength. May you personally experience the might and vastness of God’s unfailing love. In Jesus name we pray and believe, Amen.

For those who have loved and lost, I pray that the God of all comfort will love on you. May you experience His peace and grace. May He strengthen you and help you to face tomorrow without your loved one. May He steady your feet and be your ever present help in times of need. In Jesus name we pray and believe, Amen.



P.S as always, if you would like me to stand with you in prayer, send me an email via ess@bibi2be.com


Prayer Corner: Being Known By God

“To be loved but not known is comforting but superficial. To be known and not loved is our greatest fear. But to be fully known and truly loved is, well, a lot like being loved by God. It is what we need more than anything. It liberates us from pretense, humbles us out of our self-righteousness, and fortifies us for any difficulty life can throw at us.” – Timothy Keller

I have been so humbled the last couple of days reading about and experiencing God’s love for me.


This verse stopped me in my tracks. It gave me a new confidence in my faith. I know God, but more importantly, He knows me. I have purposed to remind myself this everyday.

I know God and He knows me.

God knows you.

May you realize that you are cared for, personally known and deeply loved by God.

This is my prayer for you this week:

When I think of the wisdom and scope of God’s plan, I fall to my knees and pray to the Father, the Creator of everything in heaven and on earth. I pray that from his glorious, unlimited resources he will give you mighty inner strength through his Holy Spirit. And I pray that Christ will be more and more at home in your hearts as you trust in him. May your roots go down deep into the soil of God’s marvelous love. And May you have the power to understand, as all God’s people should, how wide, how long, how high, show deep his love really is. May you experience the love of Christ, though it is great that you will never fully understand it. Then you will be filled with the fullness of life and power that comes from God.

Now glory be to God! By his mighty power at work within us, He is able to accomplish infinitely more than we would ever dare to ask or hope. May he be given glory in the church and in Christ Jesus forever and ever through endless ages. Amen (Ephesians 3:14 -21 NLT)



P.S if you would like me to stand with you in prayer, please send me an email via ess@bibi2be.com

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Lil Missy Is Watching

It’s been a while since I last watched Big Brother Africa.  What I remember though is, very little fails to catch Biggie’s attention.

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Miss K reminds me of Big Brother sometimes. She is constantly watching what we do and listening to what we say. She is so keen to see how we do certain things. You don’t realize just how much she is taking in until you see her in action. Yesterday, she cooked for me an imaginary meal in a real pot. God forbid I refused to eat it, she would have let me know in no uncertain terms that it is rude to decline a meal made with love.

She is learning how to repeat and mimic in real-time.  When you show her a video of herself, she does what she sees. Play dates are more interesting now, because she picks up so much from the other babies.

It’s a blessing to see her grow. I am reminded that she learns more from what she sees me do rather than what I say.

Titus 2-7-8

There are always people watching us. My prayer is that our deeds will complement out teachings.





Motherhood is wonderful, but it is also hard work. It’s the logistics more than anything. You discover you have reserves of energy you didn’t know you had. – Deborah Mailman

Before I became a mother, I thought I knew myself, my strengths and weaknesses. That all changed last year, when I discovered reservoirs of strength that I knew nothing about. I was stretched beyond my previously known limits, but by God’s grace, I survived.


I thought it gets easier as the babies  grow older, but I have quickly realized that each season has its challenges. The current season’s challenges may be different from the last’s but they are challenges in their own right.

Here are a few tips that help me maintain my sanity as I raise our daughter, Ksena.

  • Wake up before your baby

It helps to get a head start into the day. For a long time, I used to wake up when Miss K woke up, but, I realized I was a bit of a grump. I would boot as she was all cheery, and my mood, or lack thereof, would not match up to her energy. She is a morning person and I am a warm-up-into-the-day person.

A friend told me that I should try wake up before her and the results have been amazing. When she wakes up, I am ready for her, emotionally and physically. My energy levels match hers.

  • Dress up nicely

Being a stay at home mum is not an excuse to look drab.

How you look affects how you feel. When I feel bleugh, I know that a quick outfit change can spruce up my mood.

Being a stay at home mum is a job too. So dress up nicely; wear a little make up for yourself, if it makes you happy.  Your body may have changed, but it is still yours, so love it or at least learn to love it as you plan to change it.

  • Reflect in the silence

Reflect on the previous day, what did do you do? how did you feel? what didn’t you manage to do? Plan for the day and write down your plan to keep yourself accountable.

  • Feed your body

Have a good breakfast without interruptions. This is the equivalent of going on date by yourself (: .Taste the flavors and chew slowly; I learned the hard way that sometimes these are luxuries, especially when you are newborn hazing. Choose foods that will keep you full longer; make healthier food choices, swap the sugar for some honey, increase your water intake.

  • Get inspired

Read the Bible, let God speak to you and encourage your heart. Pray and listen to uplifting music. From there you will be able to speak into your family’s life and encourage other people. You can only give what you have.

  • Purpose to enjoy

Decide to enjoy the day. Do things that you love with your little one. Be present, persistent and intentional. Teach them something new.

Above all, remember to live, laugh and love.

Happy Parenting!




Are You Preparing Your Child For Eternity?

A couple of months ago, I read a post online that revolutionized my parenting.

The post posed a basic question:

‘Are you preparing your child for eternity?’

The reality is that, though we would all love our children to live until they are grey, some children pass away at a tender age. The length of their days is not ours to dictate.

Though we would like to guide our children till they are grey, our longevity is not in our hands. God has determined the length of our days. Oh, that we would learn to number our days.

Death is inevitable. It is a matter of ‘when’.

Sometimes we get so sucked up by life on this earth that we forget it is just but a corridor and not the destination. Though it’s length may differ from individual to individual, it will surely come to an end. How we live here, determines what happens on the other side.

A crucial part of our job description as parents is to prepare our children for eternity. However, it is difficult to teach what we do not know and believe.

Do you believe that Christ is coming back?

Does this belief influence your daily life?

Do your children see this influence?

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This has been such a conviction for me. I discussed these thoughts with a friend of mine recently and she told me that though she knew her mum to be a staunch Christian in theory, she never once received an invitation to know this God personally. She never even saw her mum read her bible. This salvation was never shared; it was like a badge to be displayed but not to be touched. You had to believe that God is good because she said so. As my friend has grown older, she has struggled to relate with the Holy Spirit because He seems so foreign.

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Below are a few tips that I have gathered the last couple of months to help one prepare their children for eternity.

  • Show your children that it is important to prepare for eternity

If you believe that preparation for eternity is crucial, invite your children see you prepare. Let them see you doing your quiet time so that they can become familiar with the concept.

  • Teach them about God and eternity

Study the Word of God with them. Introduce family devotion time. Pray with them and give them an opportunity to pray.

As you teach them, allow them to question; it’s not about believing because you said so! Allow them to experience the Holy Spirit. He is able to open up their hearts and minds to heavenly treasures and realities.

Spend time in the Word and ask the Holy Spirit to teach and equip you to be a prepared witness at all times.

  • Create a suitable environment for them to pursue God

It’s about planting a seed and letting God, our gardener, tend to it. For the seed to grow, we can introduce things that promote a better environment.

Listen to music that edifies the spirit. Create a prayer chart, where you write the things you are trusting God for, and the breakthroughs when they happen. Have a weekly bible verse for each family member to memorize, so that you encourage hiding God’s word in your heart. Show them how to apply the verses that they memorize to their everyday lives.

In conclusion,

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There is something about child-like faith that we need to leverage on. Teach them when they are young, before the things and pleasures of this world define their stand. So that their stand in this world will be defined by their preparation for eternity.

If your child is a little older, give them an opportunity to receive salvation. Evangelize to them.

I will be sharing tips over the next couple of weeks, of how I’m teaching my toddler about God and eternity. I believe that this is the best time to start because she learns both actively and passively.



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Introducing: The Prayer Corner

Good morning (:

For the last couple of days there has been a fire burning within me to pray more. I read this quote and it resonated with me:

Growing up is moving from a time of prayer to a life of prayer.

A life of prayer is my desire. As a result, hubby and I decided that we will come up with a prayer roster for the week to help us pray for much more than ourselves.

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We found ourselves singing this song at the same time (:

John 14:12 NLT

12 “I tell you the truth, anyone who believes in me will do the same works I have done, and even greater works, because I am going to be with the Father. 13 You can ask for anything in my name, and I will do it, so that the Son can bring glory to the Father. 14 Yes, ask me for anything in my name, and I will do it!

God longs for us to do even greater things. I have realized that I get caught up in myself. My selfish prayers take the day.


Every Monday, I will be writing a post to encourage us to pray more. Please share your prayer requests, we will trust God for breakthrough together and we can share the testimonies later. I strongly believe that God longs to do a new thing within and through us, if we’d just let Him.

One testimony that has really encouraged me the last couple of days is from a dear friend. A few weeks ago, I gave her a little book about the Holy Spirit; as I always do before I  send out books, I prayed that the Lord would use it as a seed. True to God’s word, He did. She sent me a message and told me that as she read it she has begun to experience the Holy Spirit more and she is now speaking in tongues. I was and still am in AWE of the King of Kings.

We serve an amazing God. He longs to do greater things in us and through us.

If you are in Kenya, and you are looking for Christian books, I have a collection of different genres for sale, send me an email on ess@bibi2be.com

To share your prayer requests, please free to write in the comments section or send me an email on ess@bibi2be.com and we can stand together in prayer.

God bless you,

Have a blessed week ahead.



Jesus Take The Wheel

There are few things more irritating than driving a car with improperly aligned wheels. From your tires looking like the sole of a shoe that is walked on unevenly; to the vehicle pulling to the side as if is a magnet attracting it, to steering wheel vibrations. What used to be a smooth ride now feels like turbulence on the ground. The most irritating part has to be the steering wheel being off center when you are driving straight. What used to be a ten to two hold is now a twelve to five hold on a straight road.

improper wheel alignment

The best thing to do when one suspects improper wheel alignment is to visit their mechanic.

Wikipedia defines wheel alignment as a part of standard automobile maintenance that consists of adjusting the angles of the wheels so that they are set to the car maker’s specification. The purpose of these adjustments is to reduce tire wear, and to ensure that vehicle travel is straight and true (without “pulling” to one side). It is also referred to as breaking or tracking.

Jesus take the wheel

The phrase, ‘Jesus take the wheel’ has become quite common. Often we say it without fully considering the implications of the statement. The truth is that sometimes we are improperly aligned and we need the breaking or tracking.

Most times we would rather Jesus drives the wheel even if we are pulling to the side and literally having the shakes as we cruise down life’s lanes; rather than, let Him break us so that we may be properly aligned.

If you give Jesus the wheel you might as well submit to His will.

Wheel balancing ensures that we are set to our makers specifications.

Have you given Jesus the wheel?

Have you accepted His will as your will?

Have you allowed Him to break you so that you may be properly aligned to His will?

Improper alignment leads to problems down the road: we get weary because we are toiling in the flesh and not moving by grace, we tend to fall into sin. Finally, life’s worries shake us and we struggle to stay on course.

Jesus longs to take us from strength to strength, in order for Him to do that we need to trust His will. My prayer is that when we ask Him to take the wheel, we will give Him full reign, and watch Him lead us to greater heights.



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Being With God In A Deliberate Way


SOME people WANT it to happen, some WISH it could happen, OTHERS MAKE it happen.

My walk with God over the years has taught me that closeness with God does not just happen. It is a deliberate decision to follow Him and seek Him. This decision is made daily. When I don’t make the decision daily, I feel as though He has moved, yet it is quite the opposite. I am the one who has moved.

A couple of months ago I shared about God being the first thing on our minds and last thing on our minds at the tail end of the day. My husband models to me what it means to be deliberate about spending time with God. After he read the post, he changed how he does his quiet time, so that in the evening before he sleeps he finishes up on his daily readings.  His discipline as he seeks the Lord is admirable. Seeking God is a crucial part of his day and he is very intentional about it.


My walk with God is not limited to the time that I sit and read my bible. God longs for me to invite Him into every aspect of my life, the grande and mundane. My prayer the last couple of days has been that as I am a wife to Mr K, a mum to Miss K, that His presence would be so tangible; that I would hear Him and experience Him. I am cognizant of the fact that they are my first ministry. I need Him to live the way that I was created to.

A couple of days ago I asked the Lord to speak to me as I cooked. My kitchen literally transformed in to a sanctuary. From pots and pans to unrestricted worship. God’s presence was tangible. It lifted me and encouraged me. God loved on me in a special way. Days later I was still telling my husband that I felt God’s love as if it was tangible. Not because of any material thing He had done, but because HE IS GOD. He is my father and I am His daughter. I am still smiling from the inside as I reflect on this encounter. In my folly, there are times I have reduced God’s love to the sensation after I experience God’s hand. Yet, God’s love for me was overflowing before I was born, and He made a public declaration at calvary.

This song was the declaration of my heart in my kitchen turned sanctuary.

As I worshiped, my daughter looked intently and sung along. I desire to teach her that God is in her heart and He is not restricted to a building once a week. Above all, my prayer is that she will experience God, that He will speak His love and promises to her heart. That she may know Him in a personal and intimate way. After all we were created to worship Him. The more we get to know Him, we can worship Him more accurately.

Have you been intentional about inviting God into your work and home space?

In Him, we live , move and have our being Acts 17:28a. We were created to live in His presence, there is no life apart from Him.



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Prayer Of The Day

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Dear God,

We thank you for this day.

Please forgive us for the times that we have not worshiped you as we ought to. For the times that we have made selfish ambition mini gods in our lives. We ask that you will fill us with a desire to worship you for who you are. A desire to sit in your presence and let you make us more like you.

Lord, you know the heavy burdens and worries that we carry. This morning we lay them down at your feet this morning and ask that you would exchange them with your burden that is light and your yoke that is easy. There are situations in our lives that desperately need a touch from you, Father we ask that you would show yourself strong in them. Move in a mighty way Father, deliver us, fight on our behalf, walk with us and carry us. 

Forgive us for the lies that we have believed. Remind us of your truth Father, give us a hunger for your Word that cannot be quenched by anything else. A desire for you that cannot be satisfied by anything or anyone else. We want you, we need you, we won’t settle for less, for anything else.

 Speak to us this day. Make us aware of your presence. Help us to see from your lens and give you all the praise, honor and glory.

In Jesus name we pray and believe,




P.S If you would like me to stand with you in prayer, please send me an email on ess@bibi2be.com


The Suzuki Swift Through A Different Lens

I love how God makes ordinary things extraordinary. You can look at something mundane through your ordinary eyes but when He allows you to catch a glimpse through His lens, you get a new perspective. It is like you are seeing it for the very first time.

Two days ago, I was looking at a Suzuki Swift, nothing out of the ordinary, I look at one everyday.


Then the Lord begun to ask me if I am swift to obey Him. Yup, we moved from a car name to matters of the heart; just like that.

A couple of months ago, I used to make excuses before obeying. I had a list of cons to discourage me from writing a list of pros.  I used to manage to discourage myself from walking in obedience. Common sense would have the final say; selfish ambition or should I say, self preservation would be at work.

Nowadays, I obey as I go. Most times it is uncomfortable and my flesh screams ‘DON’T DO IT! THINK ABOUT ME!!’ but I do it anyway. Sometimes it hurts; it means sacrificial giving, but I still do it. Like Abraham, I make the uneasy trip up the mountain to make my sacrifice. The voices in my head are loudest at this time, but I silence them with the promises of God. I repeat ‘He will never leave me, He will provide for all of my needs’ until the voices in my head and every fibre within me, starts to praise the name of the Lord. We move from fear to faith.

I have come to learn that my flesh is so limited. I cannot use my limited mind to try to decipher a divine command. I will never fully understand the Lord and His ways.


Are you swift to obey God?

Do you make excuses to try and negotiate your way out or do you keep walking as you raise your concerns?

May you believe God and obey; may your faith be credited to you as righteousness. Romans 4:3

Finally, the new Suzuki Swift Sport is quite the cutie BUT it ain’t got nothing on Swift obedience (:



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Keeping Anxiety At Bay

Our bodies are pretty amazing. They have coping mechanisms for overwhelming emotions that we feel. It is possible to be so engrossed in the day to day activities of life that we forget to question the little but significant changes in our bodies. For instance: increased appetite, insomnia, nausea, increased drowsiness, cravings for fine foods etc.


From time to time, I find myself dealing with a bout of anxiety. I tend to put two and two together a few days later. The subtle symptoms are the munchies. When I seem to be inhaling all the food I find lying around I know there is something more to it. The truth is, food never cured anxiety. Whether full or hungry, anxiety sucks.

A couple of years ago, I used to get horrible panic attacks. That is when I knew just how horrible and uncontrollable an anxiety attack can feel.

Over the last couple of months, i’ve figured out ways to keep anxiety at bay.

*Identify your coping mechanisms

Reflect on the last time that you felt anxious. How did you cope with the situation? What were you more vulnerable to do? Once you know your anxiety coping mechanisms, you will be able to deal with it before it blows up.

*Know your triggers

Write down what causes you to feel anxious and try to avoid situations that promote anxiety.

If you can’t avoid these situations, create a back up plan. My back up plan is to seek help.

*Seek help

It is one thing to feel anxious and another to stay anxious. The earlier you identify anxiety, the sooner you are able to deal with it.

I acknowledge that I do not have all the answers and when I feel anxious I seek help from above, because that is where my help comes from.Psalm 121:1

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I learned earlier on that even though I do not feel like praying, I should pray. As I speak God’s truth into my situation and being, my feelings will catch up. So over and over, I repeat God’s promises as I keep reminding myself that God is enough for me. He is bigger than any situation and nothing is too difficult for Him.


For everyone who is going through a bout of anxiety, I pray that the Lord will calm your heart and take the anxiety away. Nothing is too difficult for Him. In Him we find perfect peace; peace that surpasses all understanding.




Divine Networking : It’s Not Who You Know, It’s Who Knows You

I absolutely love how God works. When He wants to teach you something, he repeats it until it rings in your head and resonates with your spirit.

One day last week, I woke up with the impression that as humans sometimes we spend too much time focusing on networking and making connections to propel us further. Sometimes we value our human connections more than our divine connection with God, yet this is the most important connection. What we need to do instead is focus on living in purpose and let Him unveil us to the world in His time.

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Hubby shared this excerpt with me yesterday.

You may wonder how Saul knew about David. The answer is, one of his attendants went to him and said:

‘I have seen a son of Jesse of Bethlehem who knows how to play the harp. He is a brave man and a warrior. He speaks well and is a fine-looking man. And the Lord is with him.’ 

Then Saul sent messengers to Jesse and said, ‘ Send me your son David, who is with the sheep’ 1 Sam 16:18-19

My point is, David did not approach Saul: people came to him. Do you ever wonder if others will ever discover your gift? The way of the world is to advertise, so people become familiar with a name. In Hollywood they say, ‘ It doesn’t matter what people say about you as long as they spell your name correctly.’ But if you feel you need a high profile, remember, Jesus said, ‘Whoever exalts himself will be humbled, and, whoever humbles himself will be exalted’ Matt. 23:12. Do you really want to be exalted if God does not wish it? Surely not! If you want success at any cost, you are not Christ’s disciple.

What, then, was the secret of David’s success? I think we should note two things,

The first is, as we have seen, 
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The other reason for David’s success was that the anointing of God was on him. I must tell you that whoever you are, however talented, your gift is useless to him without the anointing of the Holy Spirit. Perhaps God is keeping you in the background because you have a spiritual problem. If so you need to see that he will not use you until, like David, you totally resign yourself to his sovereign will. (Kendall, A Man After God’s Own Heart, 2001, pp. 42-43)

God’s timing is perfect. He knows all things and works in the background for our good.


I have been reminded again to do what God needs me to do and let Him work out the details. To pursue a deeper and stronger connection with Him and let Him use His networks to unveil me to the world.

Have you been let down by people who said they could help you?

Are you all networked out?

Have you resigned yourself to God’s sovereign will or are you a bossy shotgun / passenger that keeps giving directions?

Perhaps you don’t need to meet new people per se but meet God in a deeper way daily and let Him open doors for you.

It is about the right person, at the right place, at the right time who sets things in motion. Only God can prompt someone to do that.



Kendall, R. (2001). The Danger Of Feeling Good. In A Man After God’s Own Heart (pp. 42-43). Fearn, Ross-shire: Christian Focus Publications.

Take A Step Back And See How Far You’ve Come

I took a video of Miss K a couple of days ago that left me balancing tears. It hit me just how far we’ve come. From prolonged labour that led to a C-section, to spending extra days in hospital trying to lower Bilirubin levels; to very long nights of colic, to dealing with a high need baby; to the squint caused by light seeping through the phototherapy eye mask, to a bad case of heat rash; to not quite recovering from sleep regression, to solid food challenges. It was quite the ride but God was constant.

God is Constant

Yesterday I remembered how a couple of years ago I was in and out of Doctor’s offices trying to get a proper diagnosis for all the pain I was feeling. It was perhaps one of the most stressful seasons of my life. I flashed back to the time when I had recurring Ovarian cysts that were extremely painful. A few months down the line I had to have a Cancer marker test done. Tense, scared and anxious do not even begin to describe my state then. I was terrified, I had so many questions. The results were negative, which was a relief but there was still no explanation for the recurrent cysts, bitter- sweet. Then, it was hard for me to believe that I could live cyst free. Here I am, a couple of years later, living cyst free. Praise be to God.


I am constantly thinking about how far I have to go that I forget to appreciate how far I’ve come. My mind tends to run head of itself, which is not healthy. It gets worse especially when I feel as though I have been stagnating, which is not true. Though I feel like I have been at the same place for too long, in Him I am still moving, living and having my being – Acts 17:28.

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What has made you feel like you are stagnating?

Today, take a step back and marvel at how far you’ve come. Give God thanks for the seasons that have passed and put your trust in Him for those to come. He is faithful.



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Never Lose Your Sense Of Wonder

One of the humbling things about motherhood is getting to see the world from a fresh perspective; through a babies eyes. It is possible to think that you know it all, because you have been alive much longer, but, a baby’s perspective has a way of shedding new light on the simple mundane things.

Miss K wants to take in every moment, savor it and then draw a conclusion. She is constantly awed by new things, she points up and says ‘this’ or ‘that’. Some new things are scary, like her father’s motorbike, and some are extremely exciting like the bouncing castle she played on this past weekend.


She enjoys the feeling of the sand on her little toes; watching Palm tree branches sway to the tempo of the breeze; watching the waves ebb and flow; playing with the shadows caused by sun in the afternoon.


Social media and gadgets have not stolen her sense of wonder from the present moment.

Do you often get cross eyed from catching up with your news feed that you fail to notice the beautiful music playing in the background?


The magic and miracles lie in the simple moments. Have you been feeling like God isn’t moving? Like the miracles, signs and wonders are a thing of the past? Have you gotten so used God’s blessings that you don’t even recognize them as things to be thankful for anymore?


Pause and enjoy the moment, savor the tastes , enjoy the sounds, colors and textures.


Above all, stand in awe of the One who made it all. He is the one who deserves all the glory and the praise.




God Is Enough!

I watched a really sentimental movie this past weekend, ‘Catching Faith’. I recommend it for everyone. There are many lessons to be learned. It touches on family struggles, raising teenagers, grief, insecurity, integrity, gossip, malice, societal expectations, vulnerability, courage and strength.

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Here is a synopsis of the movie:

John and Alexa Taylor appear to have the perfect life – they’re the envy of all the parents in town. Their son Beau is the high school football star and their daughter Ravyn is a straight-A student. But when Beau is caught drinking alcohol, his place on the team and his bright future are on the line. With the football season at stake and the judgmental community turning their backs on them, every member of the Taylor family is at a crossroads. Now, they must find the strength from one another, and the spiritual courage from within, to prove that faith and family is the only score that really matters

You can read more: here

The one thing that stood out for me and I will probably remember for a long time is, at the end of the movie, the mother gave her daughter a locket with the words ‘GOD IS ENOUGH’ inside.

This mum had struggled with identity crisis, she had tried to keep up a facade and failed. She thought that the fickle things of life could satisfy her but they didn’t. Her conclusion of the matter was:

God is enough

This is such a beautiful summary of life. This is what I hope to keep teaching Miss K through my life and my words, God is enough! Circumstances may change overnight but God, He remains the same. And, in Him, we are satisfied.

God is enough in all seasons.

Each season of life has it’s own challenges. Yes, some seasons are more difficult than others, but we should strive to enjoy the journey. We have all that we need for living a godly life.

2 Peter 1:3 NLT

By his divine power, God has given us everything we need for living a godly life. We have received all of this by coming to know him, the one who called us to himself by means of his marvelous glory and excellence.

I don’t know what you are going through, what life has thrown at you, but my prayer is that you will realize that God is enough for you. May He be the wind beneath your wings that strengthens you to reach higher heights. May His peace guard your heart and mind in Christ Jesus.





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Let God Write Your Story

Always remember that you are absolutely unique. Just like everyone else. – Margaret Mead

This is a powerful quote. Unfortunately, too often, we get stuck trying to be like someone else rather than being unique. Which is sad. God knew what He was doing when He made us all different. In fact, we do ourselves a great disservice when we choose to copy and envy others rather than let Him work in and through us. Greatness is reserved for us in Him. Fortunately, the Lord has a superior definition of greatness that is not limited to material wealth and possessions.


Comparison rarely bears good fruit. If anything, it steals the joy within, or puffs up the ego therein. There will always be someone doing better than you are and another who wishes they could be in your shoes. C’est la vie.

Christmas is around the corner; over the last couple of days, God has been asking me to stop putting Him in a box and allow Him to write my story. He desires for me to put all my eggs in His basket and trust His timing and heart.


Here are ways that we can allow God to write our stories the remainder of this year:

  • Experience God’s love for you


The only way to experience God’s love is to interact with Him more. Read your bible and pray everyday. Let God teach you Himself. Create an atmosphere of worship. Make your quiet time with Him exciting, change the venue, change your study guide or bible, play some music in the background.

Don’t be satisfied with what you already know. Pursue Him daily and let Him take you to take you from glory to glory. Watch Him transform your life from the inside out.

  • Let God’s Joy be your strength

joyjoyWe all grow weary and discouraged. Sometimes life hands us very difficult circumstances that tend to knock the air out of our lungs. During those moments, it is not uncommon to feel like giving up.

God desires to refresh and rejuvenate us. To give us a joy that cannot be taken away from us, a joy that is not dependent on circumstances. This joy strengthens us. It makes all the difference.

  • Believe in God’s promises


The world feeds us so many lies right, left and center. After you hear the same thing over and over again it is possible to doubt God’s promises that you barely remember.

The only way to reclaim that part of your heart is to write down God’s promises. Repeat them to yourself daily until they become your default truth. You can find a list of some of God’s promises here.

  • Speak life in every situation


For so long we have been prophets of doom that negativity has become our norm. We are great at predicting and reiterating negative events.

This is your year! Speak life into the remainder of this year. How it begun does not have to be how it ends. Claim your blessings.

Do a little challenge, abstain from speaking negatively for one day and then see if you can last one week. Once we change the way that we speak, we will change the way that we live.

  • Allow Jesus to take the wheel


Finally, allow Jesus to take the wheel and take you to heights you thought  impossible. Whatever is impossible with man, is possible with God.




Lessons From My Daughter (Pt 7)

Miss K is one year old, God is amazing!! It’s been a beautiful journey, we stand in awe of God.

She is always teaching us life changing lessons. This weeks are no different.

  • Learn Something New Everyday

Pretty lady is very vocal. She likes to talk and imitate what we are saying. In fact, she literally picks up a new word every day. A few days ago it was ‘this’ then, she even was able to use it together with another word. She said ‘this, lala’, as she pointed at me. We still have a long way to go in teaching her when and how the words are used, but for now, we are just amused and entertained by this milestone. We are celebrating the baby steps.

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I’ve been challenged to learn something new everyday even if it is one new word. So if you see some big words in the posts to come, know that my little girl influenced me (:

  •  Empathy

Miss K is a mushy little girl. She walks up to us and climbs our laps to give us hugs. Totally heart melting. A couple of days, my mummy was bereaved. She received the news when we were all together and she broke down. A few seconds later, Miss K broke down too. When they both finished crying, they were better A problem shared is a problem half solved. If a little on is able to empathize, how much more is the Lord of Lords.


God’s heart breaks when my heart breaks. He feels my pain. He understands my struggles, He sympathizes and empathizes with me. Our God is great.

  • Jesus Must Be Seen

Ksena has a little nickname, ‘smiling/happy baby’. Her joy is evident. When people ask why she is so happy, we always say that it is the joy of the Lord. He is the one who gives joy. We cannot take credit for it.

Is God’s joy being seen in my life? I somehow feel like that should be a rhetoric question, BUT, on the real, sometimes I don’t think it is. This needs to change. My joy should not be dependent on circumstances but on God. And His joy should be my strength.


I need to work on this one.

Have a lovely day,

Smiles and hearty laughs from the pretty lady,



Pain Precedes Joy : Day 30

And just like that, a month has gone by. I have managed to blog everyday for one month. Some days have been more difficult than others, I have cried tears but I have overcome.


It reminds me a lot of this day one year ago. I was overdue and so ready for my baby to vacate my body. It was time. Baby and I were both cognizant of this fact. My blood pressure was escalating as the hours went by and she had already pooped in the womb. After a failed induction and membrane rupture, I was six centimeters dilated for seven excruciating hours. Labour pains were progressing but my cervix had reached its end; Cervical Dsytocia. I was discouraged and scared. It was supposed to be simpler, straightforward.

I ended up in the theatre. When the baby was placed in my arms, it didn’t matter, what method God had used to bring her out. She was worth every ounce of pain I felt. God’s timing was perfect. She was my perfect gift from the Most High.

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It is the same way with life. God places a good and perfect gift within you but it seems to linger on longer than you expected. It is possible for your attitude towards the gift, the giver and yourself to jeopardize how you finish. Don’t let fear make you want to keep it in longer than your ‘womb’ should host it. His grace is sufficient for the season to come. He will help and strengthen you. His power will be made perfect in your weakness.

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Whatever the Lord has placed within you will come to pass. Though your estimated due date has passed, the end is close.  The season of labour may seem like it is not yielding anything, but God will come to your rescue and He will help you to deliver your ‘baby’. Your joy is coming. Hang in there. It will be worth all the pain and sleepless nights. Surrender it all to Him and trust that He will carry you through and strengthen you.

Prayer of the day:

Dear God,

I thank you for this day and for the gift that you have placed within me. I feel as though the pain has tarried for too long and I am getting weary. Father by your power, please encourage and strengthen me. Help me to keep my eyes on you and may your plan, that is good, prevail. Prepare and equip for this next season that you may be seen in and through me.

You know the desires and anxieties of my heart, I ask Oh Lord, that while on others thou art calling, do not pass me by.

In Jesus name I pray and believe,


The song of the day:

Thank you for taking this journey with me. I’m humbled that the Lord chose to use me for the glory of His name.

God bless and keep you,


P.S I would love to hear your testimonies of what God has done in and for you this month. Please send me an email on ess@bibi2be.com


Keep Walking : Day 29

There has got to be more to life than just working to pay bills and survive.

This life is only a drop in the ocean of eternity, yet sometimes we get so sucked in and forget it is a mere corridor. We need to keep walking to our destination and arrive there in good shape.


This world is literally not our home. We are just passers-by. We are aliens and strangers, not permanent residents.

Over the last couple of days, hubby has been encouraging me to do what I was created to do. To remember that I was created for eternity, so I shouldn’t sacrifice my life after earth for a few worldly pleasures.

Have you gotten sucked up by the world and it’s worries and forgotten that you were created for eternity?


The prayer of the day:

Dear God,

Thank you for the gift of life. There are many times that  I have gotten side tracked by the pleasures and worries of this world that I have forgotten to invest my time in the eternal.

Help me to have my final destination in mind at all times. Holy Spirit please remind me to store my treasures where they cannot be stolen or eaten by moths.

In Jesus name I pray and believe,


The song of the day:



P.S if you would like me to stand with you in prayer, send me an email on ess@bibi2be.com

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My Ride Or Die : Day 28

**Due to circumstances beyond my control, I was not able to write this post yesterday.**

It’s been almost a month of writing daily, wow, it’s been such an exhilarating journey. I am in awe.

My prayer has been that September will not leave me the same. Even though I don’t feel like big things are happening, it will leave a lasting mark in my life. This would best be seen by the people that I interact with most. Yesterday in conversation with hubby, he said, that as I have written everyday this month and purposed to hear God daily, it has changed my walk with God. He has literally become my everything; my ride or die. My faith in Him has grown.

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Indeed, this month has revolutionized my walk with God. It’s not because things have been easy, in fact  the contrary has been true many times, I will do a behind the scenes post soon. It is because I have realized that God is my everything. I have no where else I can turn. In seasons of plenty and seasons of just enough, His love for me remains constant and by His grace, my trust in Him will remain constant.

It is a thing that I remind myself daily, only He can satisfy.

I have stopped sweating the small stuff. What used to worry me doesn’t anymore. For months on end, I have desired to do my masters, in retrospect, I can see the season just wasn’t right. I have eased up on it, I am waiting for His perfect time. Does it mean, it is no longer a desire? not at all. It just means that I have stopped obsessing over my ideal timeline and I am letting Him work things out.

I have found perfect peace regarding the same.

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My mind is stayed on Him. When it moves, I redirect it back. I will do so until this becomes it’s default destination.

Is God your ride or die?

What desires do you need to surrender to Him?

What has your mind been staying on?

The prayer of the day:

Dear God,

I thank you for second chances. Thank you that you accept me as I am, and take me back even when I have walked away from your pleasant offers too many times to count. Lord, this morning I surrender my heart’s desires to you and I trust in your perfect love for me. Though anxiety has been my bread I choose to trust in you and partake of this perfect peace.

I trust in you Lord. Keep me in perfect peace. I choose you and your plans for me; I know that they are good. You are my everything.

In Jesus name I pray and believe,


The song of the day:

Keep your mind on Him and He will keep you in perfect peace.




We Were Made To Love : Day 27

For the past week or so I have just been so overwhelmed by God’s love for me. It has been the resounding theme everywhere that I have turned. From the books that I’ve read to conversations I’ve had to the worship service I attended on Friday night.

I am convinced the heavens have been trying to get my attention. To point me back to this love that is perfect, whole and satisfying.

As I type this I am just in AWE of God. His love is all that we need.

Honestly, many times I do not walk as one who knows the fullness and magnitude of His love. I’ve been challenged this past couple of days to repeat, ‘I am loved by God’ to myself until I believe it and I am consumed and satisfied by this love.


The reality is that no one and nothing can separate us from this love.

Romans 8:38-39 NKJV

38 For I am persuaded that neither death nor life, nor angels nor principalities nor powers, nor things present nor things to come, 39 nor height nor depth, nor any other created thing, shall be able to separate us from the love of God which is in Christ Jesus our Lord.

A song that I am currently listening to on repeat is:

I am loved; you are loved; we are loved.

We were made to love Him, to praise Him. 

Do you believe that you are loved?

If you struggle to believe, try repeat it to yourself until you believe it completely.

What is stopping you from loving on Him?

The prayer of the day:

Dear God,

Thank you for this love. This beautiful, satisfying, captivating love. There are many times that I have been ignorant of your love for me. Circumstances have made me doubt this love from time to time. But, today I accept your love for me. May I experience the fullness of this love.

I was made to love you. May my life display my love for You. I belong to you. It is your breath in my lungs and I pour out my praise to you only. You are worthy of my praise.

I am loved by you God. What an honor it is. 

In Jesus name I pray and believe,


The song of the day:

May we be children of God who  understand, accept and believe the love of God.



P.S if you would like me to stand with you in prayers, send me an email on ess@bibi2be.com


Get Off The Throne. Let God Be God : Day 26

There have been many times that I have told God when and how to do answer my prayers. It has failed terribly because I am just a mere woman and He is God. I do not have the capacity to fully understand His thoughts and ways.


Naaman the leper also had expectations as to how God should use prophet Elisha to heal him in 2 kings 5.

Then Naaman went with his horses and chariot, and he stood at the door of Elisha’s house. 10 And Elisha sent a messenger to him, saying, “Go and wash in the Jordan seven times, and your flesh shall be restored to you, and you shall be clean.” 11 But Naaman became furious, and went away and said, “Indeed, I said to myself, ‘He will surely come out to me, and stand and call on the name of the Lord his God, and wave his hand over the place, and heal the leprosy.’ 12 Are not the Abanah[a] and the Pharpar, the rivers of Damascus, better than all the waters of Israel? Could I not wash in them and be clean?” So he turned and went away in a rage. 13 And his servants came near and spoke to him, and said, “My father, if the prophet had told you to do something great, would you not have done it? How much more then, when he says to you, ‘Wash, and be clean’?” 14 So he went down and dipped seven times in the Jordan, according to the saying of the man of God; and his flesh was restored like the flesh of a little child, and he was clean.

The truth is, God does not always move as I expect. Sometimes He asks me to do ‘strange’ things but I constantly have to remind myself that mine is to ask and wait to receive as He dispenses and pleases.

I am learning that I need to get off the throne and let God be God. Let Him come through as He pleases and obey Him in all things, even when His instructions don’t seem ‘dignified’.

Have you been giving God instructions and suggestions?

Have your expectations been obstructing your obedience?

The prayer of the day:

Dear God,

I am humbled to know you. There is no one like you. You are the one that I will forever worship. Please forgive me for the times that I have given you instructions yet you are God.

In you I live, move and have my being. I surrender my life before you. I know that your plans are best. You know the desires of my heart, I ask that you will move as you please. I accept your decision and choose to be obedient in the big and small things.

In Jesus name I pray and believe,


The song of the day:

May our pride and expectations not stand in the way of our obedience and blessings. He is God.



P.S if you would like me to stand with you in prayer, send me an email on ess@bibi2be.com

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What’s In Your Hand? Use It – Day 25

For a long time, I used to think greatness in my life would begin when I had something else or a different set of circumstances.

Then the Lord asked me, ”What is it that you have in your hand?” Now, when the Lord asks you a question, you better think before you answer, or rather think as you answer. But you see, I am not the first person that He has asked this question He asked Moses what was in his hand.


Exodus 4

Then Moses answered and said, “But suppose they will not believe me or listen to my voice; suppose they say, ‘The Lord has not appeared to you.’”

So the Lord said to him, “What is that in your hand?”

He said, “A rod.”

And He said, “Cast it on the ground.” So he cast it on the ground, and it became a serpent; and Moses fled from it. Then the Lord said to Moses, “Reach out your hand and take it by the tail” (and he reached out his hand and caught it, and it became a rod in his hand), “that they may believe that the Lord God of their fathers, the God of Abraham, the God of Isaac, and the God of Jacob, has appeared to you.”

God went on to use this rod to do amazing things. Moses thought he needed extraordinary skills and things for people to believe him, but God needed him to see that He was extraordinary enough. When God is with you a mere thing that you could even dismiss becomes extraordinary.

I just love this!! It is God who qualifies, God who edifies and God who aggrandizes.


When Elisha met the poor widow in 2 Kings 4 who needed to offset her debt so that her sons would not be taken as slaves, he asked her what she had in her house. Her response was “Nothing at all, except a flask of olive oil,”. He told her to borrow as many empty jars as she could from her friends and neighbors. Then he instructed her to go in to her house with her sons, shut the door and pour oil into the jars and set them aside as they filled. Her small flask of oil filled all the jars until there weren’t anymore, then the oil stopped flowing. He told her to sell the oil to offset her debt and then she would remain with enough to sustain her and her family.

Now, let me ask you, what is in your hand?

It may look meagre but God is able to multiply it and increase it’s value for His glory.

Don’t sit bemoaning that life is not fair for another day, tell the Lord “this is what I have in my hand” and allow him to use it, pour you out and multiply it. May it be used to bless many souls, change many lives and leave a legacy.


The prayer of the day:

Dear God,

I thank you that indeed you have good plans for me. You have equipped me with everything that I need for life and godliness. Please forgive me for the times that I have complained and doubted because I have been unable to see the bigger picture. Lord, today I present what I have in my hands to you. I acknowledge that there are many times that I have looked down upon it but I know that you are able to use it and increase it. Here I am Lord, pour me out, for the glory of your name.

In Jesus name I pray and believe,


The song of the day:



P.S if you would like me to stand with you in prayer, send me an email on ess@bibi2be.com


Living In Purpose : Day 24


There is something so amazing and breathtaking about people who are living their lives audaciously in purpose. Indeed, living in purpose sets your world on fire.

It is one thing to know your purpose, and another to walk in it.

Several months ago, when I felt God saying that I should leave my job, I was confused. My main question was, leave and go where? Eventually, I left and there begun my season of waiting. One of the most uncomfortable seasons EVER. In hindsight I can say that it was necessary. It was lonely, confusing, boring, awkward, defining, but so necessary.

It could have been much shorter had I stopped fighting God. I invested my energy everywhere except where God needed it to be. I got lost in the busyness but all He wanted was for me to enjoy the stillness. Because, that is where I would hear him.

That in-between season, broke me but gave me space to figure out what I was born to do. Slowly but surely it is falling into place. I am learning to make a conscious decision every day to follow Him and heed the call over my life.

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I read this story in 1 Kings 19 two days ago and it really resonated with me.

19 So Elijah went and found Elisha son of Shaphat plowing a field. There were twelve teams of oxen in the field, and Elisha was plowing with the twelfth team. Elijah went over to him and threw his cloak across his shoulders and then walked away. 20 Elisha left the oxen standing there, ran after Elijah, and said to him, “First let me go and kiss my father and mother good-bye, and then I will go with you!”

Elijah replied, “Go on back, but think about what I have done to you.”

21 So Elisha returned to his oxen and slaughtered them. He used the wood from the plow to build a fire to roast their flesh. He passed around the meat to the townspeople, and they all ate. Then he went with Elijah as his assistant.

Elisha knew what God had called him to do but wanted to go back and say good bye to his family. It may not have been a bad thing, but what if they convinced him otherwise?

For him to follow God wholeheartedly he needed to quit his job, and make God the main thing. His mission did not allow him to have a side hustle.

What is it that God has called you to do?

What has your excuse been? What is holding you back?

What do you need to burn or sacrifice in order to follow God wholeheartedly?

There is a price to pay, but beauty and fulfillment await you on the other side.

The prayer of the day:

Dear God,

I thank you for the seasons of life. Now I can see that the awkward in-between season was necessary. Please forgive me for the times that I have held back from following you wholly because of fear and societal expectations. 

Remind me the call over my life that I may walk in it. I know and believe that you are able to sustain me. May I find satisfaction, joy and blessings in you. May lives be changed and challenged because I have chosen to follow you and to live for you.

In Jesus name I pray and believe,


The Song of the day:



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Are You Persistent Or Have You Given Up? – Day 23

Miss K is full of stories and everyone must pay attention to her.

Two days ago, at the height of the teething drama, she started calling out to her daddy. “Dada!….Dada!…Dadaaaa! Dadaaaaaa!” When he would answer she would tell him her request “Oggat” meaning yoghurt and he would explain to her that it was dinner time. So she needed to eat her dinner first, then she could have yoghurt later. She went on and on for about 45 mins,  At first, it was cute and we laughed it off, after some time we had to listen and try to understand her sudden desire for yoghurt. She knew that she was on a liquids only diet. So she refused her food but enjoyed her yoghurt later. (Disclaimer: She doesn’t always get what she wants when she wants it. This was a one off.)


This story reminded me of the persistent widow in Luke 18 (NLT)

One day Jesus told his disciples a story to show that they should always pray and never give up. “There was a judge in a certain city,” he said, “who neither feared God nor cared about people. A widow of that city came to him repeatedly, saying, ‘Give me justice in this dispute with my enemy.’ The judge ignored her for a while, but finally he said to himself, ‘I don’t fear God or care about people, but this woman is driving me crazy. I’m going to see that she gets justice, because she is wearing me out with her constant requests!’”

Then the Lord said, “Learn a lesson from this unjust judge. Even he rendered a just decision in the end. So don’t you think God will surely give justice to his chosen people who cry out to him day and night? Will he keep putting them off? I tell you, he will grant justice to them quickly! But when the Son of Man[a] returns, how many will he find on the earth who have faith?”

I was challenged by Miss K and the widow to be more persistent when I pray. Honestly, I have reached a place that I have sort of given up on some of the desires of my heart. There are those that had become like a song on my lips because of how many times I would repeat them to God. When He didn’t answer, I swiftly moved on. Yet persistence pays off.

I will write down my desires and pray about them often. You never know, the end of these thirty days may yield results.

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What have you given up on God on?

Do you believe that God is able to grant you your request?

How can you be more persistent in your prayer?

The prayer of the day:

Dear God,

Thank you for this apt reminder. Forgive me for the times that I have given up on you and made false claims about your power. Today I commit the desires of my heart to you, I know that nothing is too difficult for you. You are God and your timing is best.

In Jesus name I pray and believe,


The song of the day:



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Dare To Look Past the Pain : Day 22

Miss K has been teething for the last couple of days. We thought it was just one tooth coming out, it turns out they were three. Yes three, all at once. You can imagine the discomfort. Teething pains are quite something. One night she woke up 5 times. I was even confused. The following morning, one broke through.


As I reflected on the troubled nights, God revealed to me that it is important to look past the pain. Sometimes I focus so much on the pain and get lost in bemoaning. However, something good will come out of the pain. Sometimes, the pain is necessary for the blessing to break through.

Today, I am encouraged, that the season of discomfort will soon come to an end. It will bear fruit and God is able to use the pain to do exceedingly abundantly much more than I could ever think, ask or imagine.

What teething pains are you experiencing?

What is causing your faith to falter?

Be encouraged dear friend, be encouraged.


The prayer of the day:

Dear God,

I thank you for seasons of pain. Though they threaten to break me, You cultivate perseverance in me. I am learning that the pain has a purpose. There are times when I want to give up, but please strengthen me and encourage me. May I live to see the revelation of the pain. May lives be changed because of this pain.

In Jesus name I pray and believe,


The song of the day:



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Show Me The Way I Should Go : Day 21

There are so many days that I wake up and go about my morning on autopilot. I warm up into the day.

Today morning was no different, I was woken up by Miss K, saying ‘eethat’ ‘dadaaa’, which is her version of sweetheart and daddy. I picked her up, we prayed and went about our day. After breakfast, I settled down; when I opened my bible this is the first verse I read.

Jeremiah 42

I was reminded that I need to be more prayerful everyday for direction on where I should go and what I should do. Autopilot may seem to work but I may miss out on the assignment and blessings the Lord has prepared for me.

My desire this week is to seek God even before I do the mundane and trivial things.

The prayer of the day:

Dear God,

I humble myself before you and acknowledge that I do not know everything. Just because something worked yesterday, does not mean that it will work today.

This week I pray that you will show me what to do and where to go. Order my steps, deposit in my heart the words that you need me to speak. May my heart be sensitive to your Spirit.

I long to make you smile. May my life song sing to you, for the praise and glory of your name.

In Jesus name I pray,


The song of the day:



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Have You Become Too Casual With God : Day 20

Today is my birthday (:

The last couple of days, the thing that has been on my heart is that I will not become casual with God. It is easy to become casual with Him and lose my sense of fear and awe. Take His blessings for granted, yet it is He who chooses how and whom to bless. Indeed He gives and takes away.

Then I read this excerpt that put what I’ve been wanting to say in words:

“My heartfelt concern is that there is too much shallowness today with regard to God’s holiness. Our relationship to God has become too casual. In the modern mind, God has become almost human, so affable and ordinary that we don’t understand His holy indignation against sin. If we burst into His presence with lives unattended by repentance, confession, and cleansing by the Spirit and the Word of God, we are vulnerable to His holy indignation. It is only by His grace that we breathe each breath, is it not? He has every reason to take our lives, because the wages of our sin is death. We have lost our sense of that fear, and too many people approach God with a casual familiarity that borders on blasphemy.

Much that is done in the name of worship today clearly does not genuinely regard God as holy, and thus it falls woefully short. A lot of catchy songs are being sung, poignant feelings are being felt, congenial thoughts are being thought, and pleasurable emotions are being cultivated. But too often these things are merely self-indulgent exercises masquerading as worship without any serious acknowledgement of the holiness of God. That kind of worship bears no relationship to the worship we see in the Bible. It may be more psychological that theological, more fleshly that spiritual….If the people today who claim to have seen God really saw Him, they wouldn’t be lining up to get on the latest Christian talk show; they’d be lying prostrate on the ground, grieving over their sin.”

John MacArthur, Worship: The Ultimate Priority (Chicago: Moody Publishers, 2012) pp. 114,115.

How do you approach God?

Have you become casual with Him?

Even though we are sinful, He longs to spend time with us. We need to


The prayer of the day:

Dear God,

Thank you for the gift of life. I am so humbled that you sent your Son Jesus Christ to die for me at Calvary. Please forgive me for the times that I have sauntered into your presence in a casual manner, and taken your grace and friendship for granted. Forgetting that you are GOD. The most High. And, I should stand in awe of you, walk in fear and understanding as I approach you.

This new year, I long to walk with you Oh Lord in the manner that you desire. Allow your Spirit to quicken my heart and lead me in your way. I desire to approach you in a manner that pleases you. That I may know true closeness to you and experience you.

I stand in awe of you. You are the Lord of Lords.

In Jesus name I pray and believe,


The Song of the Day:

He is God. May we approach Him as we ought to. He is not a mere man.



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Have You Given Up? Linger On A Little Longer : Day 19

Have you given up on God?

Sometimes I feel so exasperated, having prayed about certain things for so long yet I haven’t received a response. Or should I say, a favorable response. Over the years, I have become more cautious as I make requests of God. More recently, I have learned to pray ‘safe’ prayers. You know, those that I don’t peg too much hope on. Folly.

Yet, God has convicted my heart, asking me if I really trust Him. And, if I don’t trust Him, who do I trust? The thing about my relationship with God, is that I know that there is no one else I can trust. So, even as I give up, I end up back at square one; trusting Him.


I love the story about the lady with the issue of blood. She pressed in, past the crowd. She knew where the power lay and believed that if she just touched the hem of His garment she would be healed. Her touching the hem of His garment did not go without Him noticing.

43 A woman in the crowd had suffered for twelve years with constant bleeding,[a] and she could find no cure. 44 Coming up behind Jesus, she touched the fringe of his robe. Immediately, the bleeding stopped.

45 “Who touched me?” Jesus asked.

Everyone denied it, and Peter said, “Master, this whole crowd is pressing up against you.”

46 But Jesus said, “Someone deliberately touched me, for I felt healing power go out from me.” 47 When the woman realized that she could not stay hidden, she began to tremble and fell to her knees in front of him. The whole crowd heard her explain why she had touched him and that she had been immediately healed. 48 “Daughter,” he said to her,“your faith has made you well. Go in peace.” Luke 8

What is the cry of your heart?

What are you battling with?

What do you need God to do?

Have you given up on pressing in to touch the hem of his garment?


Press in. He is God. Refuse to leave without a touch from Him, let Him know that you are desperate for Him, that you need Him; that you are nothing without Him.

He is God.

The prayer of the day:

Dear God,

I acknowledge that you are God, regardless of any battle I face, regardless of any situation in my life. You see my heart, you know how weary it is, but with the little energy I have, I choose to pursue you. I need a touch from you, no one, nothing else will do. It is You that I want, you that I need, You that I desire.

I declare that there is no other name but Jesus that has power, freedom and victory. Here I am, calling on your name Jesus. Saying that while on others you are waiting do not pass me by. Set me free from anything that holds me captive, heal me from every hurt and disease that courses through my body, show yourself strong in my life. Encourage me, let your light shine as you lift me from the dark hole that I have slipped in to. Speak to me, love on me, satisfy me.

Jesus, I need you. Only You can set me free. Only You can satisfy me.

In Jesus name I pray and believe,


My heart is at peace now. May the Lord pursue you and touch you in a very personal way.

The song of the day:

I love this song.

Indeed there is no other name but Jesus.



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Are You Satisfied Or Just Pacified? : Day 18

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I absolutely love this quote.

There is indeed a God-shaped void in every person. The truth is that only God can satisfactorily fill it. Efforts to fill it with other things will eventually prove futile. They may seem to fit, by filling parts of it, and making you fill less empty, but, they cannot do what God can do.

This is a pearl of wisdom that I have to keep reminding myself. Happiness is elusive, it comes and goes. When all is said and done, God remains. Contentment and satisfaction are found in Him. He is truly ALL THAT I NEED.

One of my favourite verses is:

Psalm 16:2 NIV

I say to the Lord, “You are my Lord;
    apart from you I have no good thing.”

The truth is that only God can satisfy that God shaped void within my heart. He is the source of all good things. I can never have too much of Him. He is more than enough for me. In order to find Him, I must search for Him wholeheartedly.


Have you been pacified by the things of this world?

Are you really satisfied and content?

What is the real desire of your heart?

The prayer of the day:

Dear God,

Thank you for this timely reminder. Indeed, you knit me in my mother’s womb for Your purposes and glory. Many are the times that I have gotten sidetracked and pacified by the things of this world. I have cheated myself that I am whole, yet the God shaped void within is still longing to be filled.

Only you can satisfy me. Help me to search for you with all that I am. Teach me and speak to me. Draw me closer than I have ever been. Reveal Yourself to me that all these other things may fade in your presence. 

I long for you. My heart beats for You. Satisfy me Lord. Satisfy me.

In Jesus name I pray and believe,


The Song of the day:

May we be weaned off the pacifiers of this world and allow Him to satisfy us.