At the beginning of the year, I was so clear about my mini ‘theme’ for the year. It was based on this song:-
I had such a conviction that God wanted to take me on an adventure, then I got comfortable. Or rather, absorbed in my own life – struggling to find the balance between all the roles that I play. I must say that these things were all noble but I began to live in active disobedience in the name of wanting to see the big-picture. Whatever that means really. Seeing as I wouldn’t be able to achieve the ‘big picture’ in a day. Desiring to see the big picture before I move revealed the real status of my heart. I had trust issues, serious ones at that.
He has never failed me. I may have perceived circumstances in a negative manner while still in the process but at the end, God showed me His hand and heart in it all. Yes, there were trying times but he didn’t let me sink. Yes, I have ‘unanswered’ prayers that have sometimes made me wonder if He still cares even about the small big things in my life; the ones that seem small to the world but seem humongous to me. I know that He cares for me.
About my adventure, a few weeks ago I resolved to just do it. The truth is that there is only one God in this relationship, AND, if I can trust Him with some aspects of my life I should be able to trust Him with the whole of it, and follow His directives in every aspect.
This portion of scripture keeps me going.
Matthew 14:25-31 (NIV)
25 Shortly before dawn Jesus went out to them, walking on the lake. 26 When the disciples saw him walking on the lake, they were terrified. “It’s a ghost,” they said, and cried out in fear.
27 But Jesus immediately said to them: “Take courage! It is I. Don’t be afraid.”
28 “Lord, if it’s you,” Peter replied, “tell me to come to you on the water.”
29 “Come,” he said.
Then Peter got down out of the boat, walked on the water and came toward Jesus. 30 But when he saw the wind, he was afraid and, beginning to sink, cried out, “Lord, save me!”
31 Immediately Jesus reached out his hand and caught him. “You of little faith,” he said,“why did you doubt?”
My take outs are:-
1) The adventure is personal.
It’s not a group venture. If it was, the rest of the disciples would have been walking with Peter. It is Peter who desired to take the adventure to walk on water.
2) Obey Immediately
Peter responded to the invitation immediately. He could have said that He would try on their way back, but he heeded the call immediately.
3) Keep your eyes on Jesus
The wind will blow that’s for sure. The waves will rise but He is Lord over them all. Once you take your eyes of Him you begin to sink. Not because you couldn’t make it but because you doubted.
4) We live by Faith
We live by faith and not by sight. 2 Corinthians 5:7
If we wait to see the bigger picture we will miss out on living the life that God has set aside for us.
Here I am with renewed resolve to walk upon the waters where feet may fail.