Through The Eyes Of A Child

Every night I remind myself that we are one day closer to our little one sleeping through the night. After a month away from home, I feel as though we are back at scratch regarding sleep training, and it is okay. My experience with Ksena toughened me up a little, though, don’t ask me how tough I feel after a few consecutive days of waking up every couple of hours. I feel fatigued, irritable and groggy.

When Ky stirs in her sleep she calls out for one of us to go for her. Most times its Mummy because I am the source of milk :), but if Daddy gave her a bottle last, then she will call out for him. Night weaning is at the top of my to-do-list, I am looking forward to sleeping like a school-going toddler. All those who talk about sleeping like a baby must mean a new-born, I love how they can sleep through anything.

One day you wake up and your children are all grown. You can’t exactly say they grew on a particular date at an exact time, but every day that passes they become a little less of who they’ve been and more of an older version of themselves. I find myself staring at the girls often, taking in all the subtle yet distinct changes that emerge each day.

One of my reflections a few days ago was, “Who am I calling out to?” We tend to call out to the person who helps us in our time of need. Our brains archive their contact information and retrieve it in crisis. I know that I call out to God – most times- the question is, is there anyone or anything else that I have pegged my hope upon? Is there anywhere else that I look for my help to come from? I love how in the simple and mundane things of life, you can still see and hear God speaking.

I am slowing down and giving more cuddles because I know that they are just for a short time. Learning to say ‘Yes!’ to play more often. This TED Talk was such a refreshing reminder, it is a little repetitive but so true. When I allow myself to experience life as a child, I see and hear new things; while I am there, I trust God as a child does, there is something refreshing and renewing about child-like faith.







Rushing Wind

After an hour of chaos – screams, squeals, and cries- silence fills the air. It almost feels foreign, sometimes I count down to bed time, and then when they are both in bed, I miss them. I know, I too shock myself. My feet lead me to their room to watch over them and pray for them, there is something so therapeutic about watching sleeping babies lay.

When I held Ky in my arms, my being slowed down and enjoyed the rhythm of her chest heaving and I started singing a song out of the blue.


Like a rushing wind
Jesus breathe within
Lord have Your way
Lord have Your way in me

Like a mighty storm
Stir within my soul
Lord have Your way
Lord have Your way in me

(Hillsong -I Surrender)

Since we got back home a few weeks ago, the girls love to slow down where we are and fall asleep, there in the stillness, they find peace and are able to enter rest. A few days ago I realized that proximity brings safety. The verse, “Draw near to me and I will draw near to you.” made a lot of sense.

As we draw closer to the Lord, we feed off His peace, His tempo becomes our tempo and His Spirit edifies our Spirits. Our hearts and beings can only truly find rest in Him.

Sometimes I don’t have the right words to say, but I know that all that He requires of me is to just come.

Life Lessons From A Lactating Mother

The most profound life lessons come from the simplest of things. If you let the Holy Spirit whisper to you, He gives you fresh insight on ordinary things.

A couple of days ago, I hang out with a friend of mine who was nursing her little baby. It was interesting to watch, as it seems like it was a lifetime ago when Miss K was nursing so frequently. As I reflected on my day, the Holy Spirit whispered these nuggets of wisdom to me.

*Peace is Paramount 


The fastest way to sabotage your milk supply is to start stressing about things. Stress and milk production do not go hand in hand.

In the same way, the fastest way to sabotage yourself is to give in to stress. Once you let worry and anxiety take centre stage, you begin to feel out of balance. You function best in a state of peace. Peace is your inheritance.

John 14:27 NLT

I am leaving you with a gift – peace of mind and heart. And the peace I give is a gift the world cannot give. So don’t be troubled or afraid.

*Consistency is key


To keep your supply up, you need the demand and nutrition need to be consistent. When you lack consistency, issues come up, such as too little supply of milk or  mastitis if the boob is not emptied regularly.

In the same way, if you don’t consistently spend time with God you will not be able to bear fruit that lasts, John 15. You must consistently remain connected to the vine to be able to bear this fruit.

Do your quiet time regularly. Do not rely on yesterday’s mercies for today. His mercies are new every morning. Great is His faithfulness.

*There will be challenges


Under supply and over supply are both challenges in their own rights. Over supply can seem like a blessing, but, it can be very stressful when your baby chokes all the time or rarely gets the hind milk.

The thing about life is that, no one is immune to challenges, how we face them and react is what makes the difference. These challenges can work for us or against us.

*It is just for a season


Know when to call it quits. Like many things in life, lactation must come to an end. As much as I enjoy breastfeeding, I can’t do it till Miss K is a teenager. I need to know when the season is coming to an end and prepare her and myself accordingly.

As you go through this season in life, purpose to learn from it and enjoy it. To the lactating mothers, happy breastfeeding (: