Let’s Take The Tots To Jesus Part 2

I’m back with good news 🙂

Mid last year I posted about my struggle to find a place to fellowship with the girls. It got to place that I stopped struggling and decided to sit at home, also because I didn’t hear back from anyone in Mombasa.

Earlier this year, the desire to search again was reignited, so we started hunting again, but we didn’t quite find a fit for our ‘not yet three’ year old. When I was on the verge of giving up again, I prayed and told God that I would try once more and if it didn’t work out (read: I didn’t find a good fit), I was taking a(nother) long break. I wanted a sign that this was where we were supposed to be.

But God, answers prayers and He directs our paths ( if we let Him). When I went to this church, the person who greeted me said exactly what I had been asking the Lord. It later turned out that we were each other’s answer to prayer. I am in awe of the Lord we serve. I was reminded to remain obedient and allow the Lord to order my steps for the glory of His name. If we remain fluid, He will channel us where we need to go.
prov 21I don’t know how long we’ll be here and I’m okay with that. I’ve learned to live in the season and learn and grow where I am. Children’s Ministry here I come. Through this all I can see His hand, I know that through pregnancy and motherhood, God changed me. He gave me a heart for children. Who would’ve thought I’d be writing children’s books or even serving with Children.

 

Here’s to an unknown adventure with a known God.

Blessings,

Bibi2Be

 

 

Children: They Keep Me on My Toes And Remind Me To Remain On My Knees

Hello 🙂

I’ve been a little scarce on these streets. It’s Endometriosis Awareness Month, I’ve been writing more regularly on my other blog Yellow Endo Flower, sharing about living with Endometriosis in Kenya.

As I’ve written this month, I’ve been thankful. My little girls are a breath of fresh air, full of joy. They keep me on my toes, but also remind me to remain on my knees; to have a thankful heart and keep crying out to God, because there is nothing too difficult for Him. Oh there is nothing too difficult for the Lord.

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I was sharing with hubby a few days ago about how I need to ask the Lord for forgiveness, because sometimes I know that He can do all things. But other times, I doubt Him. Yet He is God! Omniscient, Omnipresent and Omnipotent. He is God. Oh how I need to surrender, seek His will and trust His heart.

As Ksena and Kyria entertain me as I write, I am reminded that there is nothing too hard for the Lord. He is God. There is no situation too difficult for Him. These girls are my reminder that He is healer. Not even Endometriosis could stand in His way. There is no mountain too big for Him. So we put our trust in Him.

Jeremiah 17:7-8 New Living Translation (NLT)

“But blessed are those who trust in the Lord
    and have made the Lord their hope and confidence.
They are like trees planted along a riverbank,
    with roots that reach deep into the water.
Such trees are not bothered by the heat
    or worried by long months of drought.
Their leaves stay green,
    and they never stop producing fruit.

I say Praise be to the Lord. There is nothing too difficult for Him. Don’t give up on Him.

Blessings,

Bibi2be

 

 

I Will Love, Dearly, Deeply and Deliberately <3

The two lines made my heart skip a beat.

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courtesy of peonies and picnics

Joy and awe flooded my heart.

But doubt was not very far behind.

Two sets of hands of feet were joining our family. Two sets of dreams and destiny. We were going to be parents of two little humans.

I didn’t feel ready, better still qualified. The truth is that sometimes I doubt that I’m doing a good job mummying one set of hands and feet, so the thought of a  bonus had me shaking in my boots. Wondering how I’d love two people. Half hoping it would just happen, and praying that I could be objective, sans favorites. Oh Lord, without favorites. Because they are both mine, my flesh and blood. Above all, they are God’s and I am, we are, just stewards.

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As the days went by, I stopped saying I’d love them equally because I felt like it put a limit on the love, like I had to divide.

I decided to love them dearly, deeply and deliberately. To act it out and say it loud.

And what is love?

Love is being patient and kind even when the crank from sleep deprivation wants to take the day. Love is not being jealous, proud, rude or boastful. It does not demand it’s own way.  It is not irritable, and it keeps no record of being wronged. Love is keeping my word. Singing one more song, building legos, not being easily angered. Love is not rejoicing about injustice but rejoicing whenever the truth wins out. Love never gives up, never loses faith, is always hopeful, and endures through every circumstance. Love is showing up, doing the sacrificial thing, laying down my life. (Some parts of this are from 1 Cor 13:4-8)

Love is what Christ what would do. He lay down His life for me and paid the price for my sin. He loves me everyday and nothing can separate me from His love (Romans 8:38-39) I have seen my husband model love to me and the girls, love makes all of the difference.

Love is teaching them about God, sharing the gospel with them and leading by example. Love is discipling them.

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Here I am, repurposing daily to love these girls,deeply and deliberately. To drink deeply from the well of love and fill my cup. I can’t give what I don’t have. My glorious redeemer set the perfect example for me. He gave His life for me. Now I give my love to the K girls.

Blessings,

Bibi2be

Let’s Take The Tots To Jesus

One of my favourite times of my day is when I get to teach Ksena about Jesus. I’m constantly blown away by how God reveals Himself to her and that she remembers the songs, lessons and bible stories. I am just a vessel, my work is to plant seeds that God will water. He is the gardener.

We went to church recently and I felt so lost!! Stuck in between the big church where only mamas with infants can go unless the babies start crying and the children’s church where Ksena’s age group is not catered for.

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I left church so burdened, wondering what to do. Thinking deeply about how other mums like me felt, those who have opted to stay home rather than run after a toddler who doesn’t quite fit in for one and a half hours. On my way home, I was challenged by the Holy Spirit, to do something about this burden I feel and start where I’m at.I tend to over think things like this and wait for the ‘perfect time’ when I feel it’s ‘convenient’ for me but I’ve been trying to obey the Lord more aptly, when He speaks. I say this even as this post has been seated in my dashboard for several days.

I read this article and it hit very close to home. The work has been cut out for us; for me. The harvest is plenty.

 

Here is an open invitation to a mum with a 1 year to 3 year old tot living in Mombasa, who would like to bond over a midweek cup of tea that we might not finish, as we teach our babies the word of God. Don’t worry about the content, we’ve got you :).

I am super excited to see what God does with this bible study. Where two or three are gathered in His name, He is there in their midst.

If you’d like to get in touch with me, or know a mama who would be interested, please send me an email via ess@bibi2be.com

Have a blessed week (:

Bibi2be

 

 

Imitators At Heart

Motherhood is an avenue that God uses to show me the contents of my heart.

Raising Ksena has really challenged my walk with God. One of the things that I understand afresh each and every day is what it means to be a child of God. Peter and I have a front row seat in the show ‘The Wonders Of A Child’. This means we get to see both awesome life truths and the foolishness bound within the heart. The latter has us looking for ‘a discipline stick’. Discipline is a series on it’s own, I’ll write about it soon.

God’s patience humbles me, He really does put up with a lot. Many are the times that I have told Him that I think I know…yet I was wallowing in a sea of foolishness. There was a time that I hated discipline, but the longer I walk with God, I realized time and time again how crucial it is.

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The awesome truth that has got me this week is that we are imitators at heart. As children we want to look up to our parent and do as we see. Ksena has been imitating what her dad does. One day she told us, ”Daddy, eat” and proceeded to show us how her dad eats, it is hilarious to say the least. Yesterday, she was imitating how he sleeps, when she wants to wake him up.

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She understands that he is her father and she longs to imitate him. Yesterday we went for an evening walk by the beach. When her daddy joined us, she shouted, ”Daddy, beach!”. She was ecstatic that he had come, after that she followed him every where that he went. She would momentarily get sidetracked by the waves, but when she remembered who she was supposed to be following, she was hot on his heels.

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THAT is how I want my relationship with God to always be, that I may always follow and imitate Him. Though I may err and get mesmerized or side tracked by things on the way side, I pray that I will always follow Him. That my heart will long for Him, long to walk with Him, love on Him and be like Him.

Blessings,

Bibi2be

The World of Parenting

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Children are a personal responsibility from God.

There are many theories on parenting and it is good to be informed. There is a lot that we can learn from those who have gone ahead of us. As we learn the principles, we should pick what works for us in accordance to our Faith and belief system.

At the end of the day, I believe that as a parent, it is important to ask God to tell you who each child is and how you should raise them. Every child is an individual with a unique personality. What may work for one child, may not work for another. Also, the earlier you understand the child the sooner you can tweak your parenting style. In Judges 13, when an angel of the Lord appeared to Manoah’s wife, he told her that they would have a son. She was instructed not to drink wine or any other alcoholic drink or eat any forbidden food. For their son would be dedicated to God at birth as a Nazirite and he would rescue Israel from the Philistines. She rushed and told Manoah what the angel had said, and he prayed to the Lord to send the angel back to give them more instructions about the son who was to be born and the angel came back with more instructions.

The amazing thing is that we have the Holy Spirit and if we ask God, He will give us more instructions on how to raise our children. We do not have to walk in the dark.

The truth is, though we are all in this parenting game together, we will be answerable individually.

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Let God lead you as you lead your children. Don’t be afraid to go against the gradient for something you believe in.

I have seen prayer move mountains in my personal life and in the lives of others. It is indeed crucial that we pray for our children everyday.

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I found a nice prayer guide with pointers on how to pray for them daily.

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God bless you even as you point your children back to Him. He is our source of hope, peace, love, and joy. Only He can satisfy them and only He will never fail them. You are guaranteed that they are in safe hands when in His arms.

Happy parenting 🙂

Bibi2Be

For The Weary Mum

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Tuesday is my new Monday. Well, at least since I had a baby. I feel like Monday is my Sabbath to recover from the Sabbath. I fully boot and begin my week on Tuesdays and this week is no different.

This post is dedicated to the weary mummy who also looks for some tranquility on Mondays. There is never a dull day in your life.

A few days ago I spent the midnight hour in the peads casualty. It was so sad to see other children sick. What caught my attention was the weary mums trying to be tough cookies for their babies even when they couldn’t do much to help them. Also, why do children get sick at night? The place was so packed.

In the midst of all the coughs and sneezes, children were telling their parent’s about their experiences with the doctor. One girl made our night. After telling us all how she is a big girl, out of the blue she shouted, ”Mum, me I love omena!” Bless that little girl’s soul. It was not what she said, but how she said it that had us in stitches. I love children’s honesty.

A couple of month’s ago, I felt as though I was in over my head. Sleep deprivation was getting to me. One evening I sat and cried out to God and asked Him to speak to me, to speak to my weary heart that didn’t want to give up but felt spent. This is what He said:-

Isaiah 40:25-31 NLT

25 “To whom will you compare me?
    Who is my equal?” asks the Holy One.

26 Look up into the heavens.
    Who created all the stars?
He brings them out like an army, one after another,
    calling each by its name.
Because of his great power and incomparable strength,
    not a single one is missing.
27 O Jacob, how can you say the Lord does not see your troubles?
    O Israel, how can you say God ignores your rights?
28 Have you never heard?
    Have you never understood?
The Lord is the everlasting God,
    the Creator of all the earth.
He never grows weak or weary.
    No one can measure the depths of his understanding.
29 He gives power to the weak
    and strength to the powerless.
30 Even youths will become weak and tired,
    and young men will fall in exhaustion.
31 But those who trust in the Lord will find new strength.
    They will soar high on wings like eagles.
They will run and not grow weary.
    They will walk and not faint.

Now, read it like this:

Even young young mums will become weak and tired, and young women will fall in exhaustion. But those who trust in the LORD will find new strength. They will soar high on wings like eagles. They will run and not grow weary. They will walk and not faint. (Emphasis mine)

It is okay to feel tired and weary. Yes, I know we may seem rather pink and weak in comparison to our mothers and women of old, however, the bible says that even you will get tired. Your feelings are valid. Don’t let anybody take you on a guilt trip about your limited strength.

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It is easy to expect other people to fill the gap and encourage you while your in a valley however, you cannot put your trust in them. The truth is, your husband, friends and relatives will fail you because what you need is way above their dispensation grade.

Trusting in the Lord is what will help you find new strength. His strength will help you rise above the challenges and soar. You will run the evening marathon and morning rush hours and not grow weary. You will walk as you exercise patience and not faint.

Can I hear an Amen?

When it gets rough from time to time, I usually remind myself to do the following step by step.

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Be encouraged my dear. Serve your family as though you are serving the Lord. Turn to Him and lean on Him. Embrace the season, heed the call and give it your all.

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God has not forgotten you, even when it gets hard, He is right there with you.

Blessings,

Bibi2be