Kaleidoscope

I fought the flutter of butterflies in my tummy as I stared at my computer screen. I shuffled between various tabs, and slowly filled in my registration form. I was anxious, scared and unsure of what having an online writing home looked like. I had tried to bury the desire to write for too long, this resulted in many half-filled forms suffocating in the closed the tabs.

“What is the worst that could happen?” my friend asked. Silence filled the room as I did the binary equation in my head. “Nothing,” I responded in a whisper and resolved to register my blog that very evening. And I did. I had a blank slate, an empty house, a shoe that I wasn’t sure that I fit in to, but there I was ready to walk into the unknown.

The desire to share my story overpowered the fear. It’s been six years since I started this blog. It has changed, I have changed, we’ve both grown. It’s been a beautiful journey. Initially, I wanted to share more about my wedding preparation experience, but I got caught up in life. Then it changed to sharing my reflections and random stories, and I have enjoyed that. I have discovered other interests such as teaching and writing for children. What was just a blog, is now a center piece of my calling to create content.

The greatest teachers I have encountered are my family. My husband’s resounding reminder to obey God has now become a part of who I am. I write now because I know it is what I was born to do. My heart beats, Ksena and Kyria have been an inspiration. As I train them up in the ways of the Lord, I am reminded that I have to walk the talk. Teach them to pour themselves out, so that they will return to their maker empty, having been obedient. As I stress (because that is what repeating myself to two-year-old feels like) the importance of obedience, I feel the Spirit nudge me and ask me, ‘Will you obey? Will you go where I  send you? Will you do what I ask of you?”

Two weeks ago, I caught Ksena sitting close to the edge of a bed from the corner of my eye as I tried to change Ky’s diaper, Ky is always on the move, unless she is sleeping. I told Ksena to watch out, her and hubs responded in unison that he was supporting her. The confidence with which she told me that ‘daddy’s got my back’ took me a back. It was a conviction. It got me thinking about my conviction regarding God’s position in my life. Do I know, like Chris Tomlin does, who goes before and stands beside me? Am I convinced that the Lord of angel armies is always by my side?

In February last year, I had a desire to start a new blog and create content about Endometriosis in Kenya. That is how Bibi2be’s sister blog Yellow Endo Flower was born.

It’s been an adventure, I feel more at home in my writing, but I know that this is just the beginning. I have seen the fruits of obedience, seen the Lord work through this written work, and enjoyed the peace that comes from having a clear conscience.

Six years later, I find myself at the same place, with a desire to start something new. Rather, with a call to obey, and go forth and create content. This time I am less inhibited by fear, I am conscious of the beauty of obedience. The impact a ‘YES’ can have. This time, the kaleidoscope of butterflies within has been quietened by the desire to obey.

As I have written this, I have started a YouTube channel, it’s been a long time coming. I welcome you to join me on my journey of obedience and faith. Here’s to living the life that I was created for. Here’s to dying empty, for the glory of the King.

Link to the first video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pCQOngXT4WM&feature=youtu.be

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Introducing: The Prayer Corner

Good morning (:

For the last couple of days there has been a fire burning within me to pray more. I read this quote and it resonated with me:

Growing up is moving from a time of prayer to a life of prayer.

A life of prayer is my desire. As a result, hubby and I decided that we will come up with a prayer roster for the week to help us pray for much more than ourselves.

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We found ourselves singing this song at the same time (:

John 14:12 NLT

12 “I tell you the truth, anyone who believes in me will do the same works I have done, and even greater works, because I am going to be with the Father. 13 You can ask for anything in my name, and I will do it, so that the Son can bring glory to the Father. 14 Yes, ask me for anything in my name, and I will do it!

God longs for us to do even greater things. I have realized that I get caught up in myself. My selfish prayers take the day.

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Every Monday, I will be writing a post to encourage us to pray more. Please share your prayer requests, we will trust God for breakthrough together and we can share the testimonies later. I strongly believe that God longs to do a new thing within and through us, if we’d just let Him.

One testimony that has really encouraged me the last couple of days is from a dear friend. A few weeks ago, I gave her a little book about the Holy Spirit; as I always do before I  send out books, I prayed that the Lord would use it as a seed. True to God’s word, He did. She sent me a message and told me that as she read it she has begun to experience the Holy Spirit more and she is now speaking in tongues. I was and still am in AWE of the King of Kings.

We serve an amazing God. He longs to do greater things in us and through us.

If you are in Kenya, and you are looking for Christian books, I have a collection of different genres for sale, send me an email on ess@bibi2be.com

To share your prayer requests, please free to write in the comments section or send me an email on ess@bibi2be.com and we can stand together in prayer.

God bless you,

Have a blessed week ahead.

Bibi2be

I Still Believe : Day 7

‘I will not allow what I see to hinder what I believe’ – Marvin Sapp

I’ve been a little discouraged for the past day or so. It is not because God has not been good but sometimes I get weary, wondering when His great promises will come to pass. Once in a while the discouragement overwhelms me and I forget what He said. This morning as I sat, God reminded me of this verse.

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God is faithful. Just because it seems as though He has tarried does not mean that He has forgotten me. The reality is that when life happens sometimes I forget all that He promised. Therefore, I need to write down His promises and refer to them often.

So to my weary heart, I say this:

Psalm 42:5-6a (NLT)

Why am I discouraged?
    Why is my heart so sad?
I will put my hope in God!
    I will praise him again—
    my Savior and  my God!

Here I am, putting my hope in God and praising Him. The more I praise, the more He encourages me.

What are the promises that the Lord has given you?

What do you do when you feel discouraged by His timing?

Do you believe that He is for you and wants the best for you regardless of what you see?

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The prayer of the day is:

Dear God,

Thank you for Your Word. It gives life to my soul and strengthens my body. Thank You that You are close to the brokenhearted and discouraged; that you are close to me. Lord sometimes what I see influences what I believe. I ask that You help me to write down Your promises and believe in them even when it seems like You have tarried.

I declare that I trust Your appointed time because it is perfect and I know that You love me. Help me to learn the lessons that I need to learn from this season. Heal my heart and speak to me.

I desire to be more like You. Though my faith falters sometimes, I do believe that You are for me. I know that if You are for me no one and nothing can stand against me. Continue to wrap me in your arms and encourage me in Your word.

I praise you my Savior and my God. There is nothing too difficult for you. You hold my world in Your hands.

In Jesus name I pray and believe,

Amen

The song of the day is:

Have a lovely week. Be encouraged. You are not forgotten.

Blessings,

Bibi2Be

P.S If you would like me to stand with you in prayer, feel free to send me an email on ess@bibi2be.com