This Heart Is Overwhelmed

It’s okay!

It is okay to be overwhelmed.

A strong person is not the one who doesn’t cry. A strong person is one who cries or sheds tears for a moment then gets up and fights again. (~borrowed)

Sometimes you feel like it’s all too much and you want to press the pause button life so that you can recharge, refresh and restrategize.

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I’ve struggled with guilt over being overwhelmed, as if feeling overwhelmed is not enough. Trying to rationalize why I should be okay (not just the ‘okay’ you say when you are trying to get someone off your back, but really okay, fine). I’ve realized that everyone has their own journey. As unique as our journeys are so are our experiences, limits and coping mechanisms. Everyone should have the chance to independently experience what rages within them, be it passion or pain, without being subjected/or subjecting themselves to an imaginary yard stick.

Inhale. Feel. Exhale

Both the old and young feel overwhelmed at one time or another.

Isaiah 40:30 New Living Translation (NLT)

30 Even youths will become weak and tired,
    and young men will fall in exhaustion.

It’s okay to admit that the current circumstances are a bit heavier and darker than what you expected. It’s okay to allow yourself to feel. To feel the pain, hurt, disappointment, anger, sadness, confusion, exhaustion and despair. It’s okay to feel the roller coaster of emotions.

What’s not okay is to be consumed by these feelings.

Thankfully, there is a way out.

The Rock that is higher than me

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For the past couple of weeks, I’ve been singing this song on repeat. Ksena even knows that we sing it both in Swahili and English. Now, I see that it has been a declaration asking the Lord to hide me under the rock.

This heart is overwhelmed, but not for too long. My tears, liquid prayers, have been collected in jars and have been recorded in His book. (Psalm 56:8)

It gets better. It is better.

Keep the hope alive

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My strength is being renewed for I have put my hope in the Lord. He will carry me to greater heights, give me grace, strength, peace for the rest of the journey.

If your heart is overwhelmed, allow yourself to feel the emotions as you go to the rock that is higher than you. Put your hope in Him and let Him strengthen you and propel you to greater heights.

Here’s to soaring on wings like eagles, running and not growing weary and walking and not being faint.

Have a lovely week.

Blessings,

Bibi2be

The Needless Pain We Bear

I woke up with a headache this morning, the kind that left me grumpy so early in the day. Not my ideal way to start my day. I was longing for night time before the clock had struck 8am.

As I begun to think. I realized that something was bothering me. I slept thinking about it last night and didn’t take it to God in prayer. Thinking about it and dwelling on how to find a solution had not borne any fruit other than a headache and frumpy mood. I decided to pray and and take it all to God, stressing and analyzing the situation was not working. As I prayed the headache begun to lift. I realized that rather than it being sickness, it was a physical manifestation of a burden that I was carrying.

Oh what needless pain I was bearing. The heaviness of my heart was affecting my body and causing me pain. I was not at peace.

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The lyrics of ‘ What a friend we have in Jesus’ played so clearly in my head:

What a friend we have in Jesus,
All our sins and griefs to bear!
What a privilege to carry
Everything to God in prayer!
Oh, what peace we often forfeit,
Oh, what needless pain we bear,
All because we do not carry
Everything to God in prayer!

The state of my heart can affect the state of my body in terms of my health. Guarding my heart from burdens it doesn’t need to carry, is an important part of guarding my health and acting in my best interest. There are so many times that I have wanted to treat the symptoms rather than the real cause of the pain. Because, sometimes it seems easier to swallow a pill than have an honest talk deep within and take the matter to God. Many times I don’t want to slow down and reflect on what is really happening. What I don’t realize is that by moving quickly in avoidance I am actually slowing myself down in the long run. The irony.

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Have you been experiencing pain that you can’t quite explain? Does the burden in your heart make the whole of your body hurt? Does your heart weigh a tonne? Are you harboring feelings of anger and bitterness ?

Run to God, tell Him what it is you are going through and leave the matter in His able hands. Walk in His peace as you trust in Him. He is for you. Find rest in Him.

God bless you.

Happy new month (: and have a lovely weekend!

Bibi2be

 

 

Praising While Waiting In The Hallway

I shared this image on my instagram page yesterday and it brought back so many memories.

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As the reel rolled in my head, I appreciated how far the Lord has brought me. 

I vividly remember, this time a few years ago when I was ‘stuck’ and miserable in the hallway. I thought it would last a couple of weeks, but it lasted a couple of months; I was devastated. I was thoroughly dissatisfied most of those months, wondering why God wasn’t moving. I felt stuck; in the hand of the Almighty. What frustrated me most is that I knew that unless God opened the door my efforts were futile. I was in limbo.

I secretly wished He would even let me go back to the previous season as He sorted out the kinks in the road. I wanted to be busy, to feel as though I was thriving. Not just waiting; indefinitely.

Towards the end, I learned a few life changing lessons and realized that I had missed out on the joy of the season as I complained and grumbled.

1) Mirror mirror on the wall

One fixture that I like to look at in hallways is a mirror. As I walked in the hallway of my life I was forced to stop and take a good look in the mirror. As I stared, I could hear God saying, ” I’m talking to the (wo)man in the mirror”.  At once, I knew that I wasn’t getting out of the hallway until He had dealt with some issues of my heart.

The hallway is a refining place. A place where God does business with you, if you let Him. It can be difficult to sit still in a world that tells you to go, go, go!

 

2) Curb the storytelling

An overactive imagination doesn’t take leave during the walk in the hallway. I made up stories about why God wasn’t accelerating me as fast as I hoped. In fact, I had theories that I used to analyze.

I lost a lot of time making up stories instead of focusing on His story. I really should have been focusing on His truth instead of making up wise sounding lies.

3) Funnel time

During this time of reflection, it’s possible to feel very lonely. Or rather realize there are not as many people standing by your side and cheering you on as you thought. My circle became smaller, and I realized, that I didn’t quite fit in where I’d been; and I wasn’t quite sure where I was headed either.

There, I learned to appreciate the few who made it through the funnel of life. The all-weather, hallway-or-open door friends.

4) We need to be In sync

Exodus 33:15 New Living Translation (NLT)

15 Then Moses said, “If you don’t personally go with us, don’t make us leave this place.

I would rather be in the hallway with God than out in the greatest door without Him.

After grumbling for months I realized that in His presence there is fullness of joy. His covering is not to be taken for granted. His peace surpasses all understanding. He is all that I need and He has all that I need. My journey motto became “If you do not go with me, I will not go!”

5) Know when to get out

The hallway exists for a reason. To provide a break from season to season. To help you take stock as you transition from one door to another. Fear of the unknown should not make you afraid to close a door when it’s time. It is important to know when to leave.

There were times that I regretted walking out of the last door, but it was time. I learned the value of walking in God’s timing and not holding to things, people and seasons longer than I need to.

Being in the hallway was a refining time. It was painful but beautiful, when I finally stopped complaining and let God show me His purpose. Even in this door that He opened, sometimes I don’t see the full picture, but I have learned to run back to Him and His word.

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God will open the door that He has prepared for you. Keep the faith. Remind yourself of His promises. He is for you. Don’t grow weary of waiting on Him, keep your eyes on Him and let Him prepare you for the greatness before you.

God wants you to excel through the journey, not just start strong and fail to finish. Trust that He who knit you in your mother’s womb knows what is best for you.

Blessings,

Bibi2be

By His Grace, For His Glory

AND..I’M…BACK!!!!!! (: (: (:

It is so good to write again, it feels like it’s been too long since I last posted. I’ve been in a wedding zone, two of my friends of mine got married in the last two weeks. It’s been interesting watching them journey to the aisle. It was quite nostalgic, plus, we celebrated our 4th anniversary last week 🙂 . It’s been a short long time. I remember the wedding day vividly, it’s amazing how much we’ve changed since. We’ve both grown as individuals and in our roles as well.

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As I’ve reflected on marriage the last couple of weeks as I’ve engaged in different conversations about marriage, weddings and relationships, I’ve found this statement to be the best summary of our union.

‘By His Grace, for His glory!!!’

We are married in a time where the world doesn’t honor and respect the institution of marriage. Being happily married is honestly a miracle. By God’s grace we are. We’ve seen God carry us, sustain us, fulfill us and love on us. It is His Grace that has brought us this far, for His glory. There are many marriage practices and theories that people attribute to a happy marriage, but I can boldly say that without God you still remain void. It is He who holds us together [Colossians 1:17] By now you’ve figured that I absolutely love this verse. It is a lifeline for me.


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Marriage works, with Jesus it does. We used to wonder out loud a few years ago that if marriage with God in it has its challenges, what about marriage without Him? Quite frankly, I am still not interested in finding out how it works without Him (: .

If you have given up hope on marriages in our generation, please be encouraged, a remnant of God’s grace remains, for His glory.

My heart has been so heavy for marriages the last couple of days, as I have been praying this song has been my prayer.

If your marriage is in a dark place that has discouraged you and made you doubt God, I pray that you will experience God’s divine peace. Oh that the Spirit of the Lord will break out and break down every wall down. Every wall that has boxed you in and held you captive. May revival come, His kingdom on earth as it is in heaven. There is nothing too difficult for God. No situation too dark or bleak for Him. He is God.

If you would like me to stand with you in prayer, please send me an email via ess@bibi2be.com and we’ll trust God together.

Blessings,

Bibi2be

 

 

 

Be Still & Know that He Is God – Day 16

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“People don’t always get what they deserve in this world.”
Lemony Snicket, The Blank Book

Sometimes life throws unfair situations in your face.  Some people are just bullies who use their positions of power, money and bravado to puff up their egos as they boss people around. They are not much different from bullies on the playground, who push you around until you go and tell your daddy. When your daddy shows up, they shrink in size in front of your eyes and apologize.

When I feel like I’m being treated unfairly, I am usually tempted to fight for my rights. If I don’t have enough energy to fight, flight is the next best option. I run away into a corner and sulk, albeit, briefly.

A couple of days ago, I had an encounter with a bully, one whom i’ve dealt with before. As I’ve been wondering how to react, God has been reminding me to be still and know that He is God. Being still and letting Him fight my battles is a sign of wisdom and strength. Wisdom to know which battles not to fight as His strength is made perfect in my weakness.

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Each time he said, “My grace is all you need. My power works best in weakness.” So now I am glad to boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ can work through me.

I am learning to run to God like the little child on the playground and let Him fight my battles and show Himself strong.

In the stillness I hear Him; in the stillness I see Him; in the stillness He transforms me.
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What situations do you need to be still and let God fight for you?

May your faith and peace come from the fact that He is God. He is able to fight on your behalf and WIN.

The prayer of the day:

Dear God,

Thank you for the reminder that though I am in war, the battle is not mine, the battle is Yours. Today I choose to stand still and know that You are God. I put my trust in You and declare that Your plans for me are the best. Though sometimes I feel defeated, deflated and discouraged by this situation, I choose to keep my eyes on You and watch You fight for me.

Through You, victory is mine.

In Jesus name I pray and believe,

Amen

The song of the day:

There is peace, joy and victory in the stillness.

Blessings,

BIBI2BE

P.S if you would like me to stand with you in prayer, send me an email on ess@bibi2be@gmail.com

I Still Believe : Day 7

‘I will not allow what I see to hinder what I believe’ – Marvin Sapp

I’ve been a little discouraged for the past day or so. It is not because God has not been good but sometimes I get weary, wondering when His great promises will come to pass. Once in a while the discouragement overwhelms me and I forget what He said. This morning as I sat, God reminded me of this verse.

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God is faithful. Just because it seems as though He has tarried does not mean that He has forgotten me. The reality is that when life happens sometimes I forget all that He promised. Therefore, I need to write down His promises and refer to them often.

So to my weary heart, I say this:

Psalm 42:5-6a (NLT)

Why am I discouraged?
    Why is my heart so sad?
I will put my hope in God!
    I will praise him again—
    my Savior and  my God!

Here I am, putting my hope in God and praising Him. The more I praise, the more He encourages me.

What are the promises that the Lord has given you?

What do you do when you feel discouraged by His timing?

Do you believe that He is for you and wants the best for you regardless of what you see?

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The prayer of the day is:

Dear God,

Thank you for Your Word. It gives life to my soul and strengthens my body. Thank You that You are close to the brokenhearted and discouraged; that you are close to me. Lord sometimes what I see influences what I believe. I ask that You help me to write down Your promises and believe in them even when it seems like You have tarried.

I declare that I trust Your appointed time because it is perfect and I know that You love me. Help me to learn the lessons that I need to learn from this season. Heal my heart and speak to me.

I desire to be more like You. Though my faith falters sometimes, I do believe that You are for me. I know that if You are for me no one and nothing can stand against me. Continue to wrap me in your arms and encourage me in Your word.

I praise you my Savior and my God. There is nothing too difficult for you. You hold my world in Your hands.

In Jesus name I pray and believe,

Amen

The song of the day is:

Have a lovely week. Be encouraged. You are not forgotten.

Blessings,

Bibi2Be

P.S If you would like me to stand with you in prayer, feel free to send me an email on ess@bibi2be.com

Cheerleader

Once in a while, we all get discouraged. Though, it is important to know how to cheer yourself on, there are times that one needs a cheerleader to cheer them on and let them know that they are doing great. Even though they are currently losing the fight; remind them that the battle is not lost.

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A couple of months ago, I had this grand idea to write a book and I did. Writing it was one of the most fulfilling things I have ever done. It made me realize I want to write for life. By the time I was done with book one, I had book two and three racing through my mind. I was a living, breathing, mobile inspiration.

Three months down the line, I am still walking with the ideas in my head, not as excited though. Reason being: I wanted book one to be published before I start on the next ones.

Yesterday I was a bit discouraged as I discussed this with my hubby. He told me that the most important thing is, to do what God has asked me to do. So what if finding a publisher locally is difficult? So what if the technology needed to print the type of book I want is locally unavailable? I shouldn’t get derailed by the details but do what God has asked me to do.

He went on to tell me a little story about a man named Omi who is behind this song.

Here is his story borrowed from Mitchell Wigg’s  Facebook page.

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This story!!!!

I was left dumbfounded. So many lessons can be drawn from it, it is like a little sermon.

1)The truth is, sometimes God asks us to do things that are ahead of our time. And, just because some people around us do not see the value in what we are doing does not negate it’s greatness.

2)Everybody needs a cheerleader! This lady deserves a round of applause. She truly believed in his dream and treated it like her own. When he had given up she still believed in Him and his dream. She didn’t ditch him because his great plan didn’t work.

I thank God for my cheerleader and pray that I too will be a ride or die cheerleader, believe in the dream and pursue it as my own.

3) There is a God. This should be number 1. He works in miraculous ways (His wonders to perform). He makes divine connections happen.

There is no situation too difficult or dead for Him. You may have given up but never give up on Him. He is able.

So here I am, thanking God for my cheerleader 🙂 , inspired that God still works in the background. Ready to write for the glory of His name.

When the books are published I’ll be sure to reference this day.

What has God asked you to do? Who can you cheer on today?

Blessings,

Bibi2be