Don’t Dull Your Shine

I have had my laptop for well over five years. It has served me well. I enjoyed it’s performance in it’s infantile years. One of the perks that have come with age, is the speakers are not working. That sucks. Ksena thinks so too. Yesterday, she told me, ” Mama, your computer needs to become younger so that it can play sound.” I laughed about it. My two year old’s thought process tickles and fascinates me at the same time.

As I reflected, I realized that unlike my computer, I won’t be able to buy a younger version of myself. There are things that I won’t be able to do when I get older. The question is what am I doing with what I have now?

The truth is that is so easy to have an excuse, even two, not to do what you need to be doing. For a long time, I used this same computer as an excuse not to write. It was foolish. My thinking and perspective in life has since changed. It’s about the end picture. It’s easy to do nothing, but nothing can’t make a difference.

I still struggle in certain aspects but I want the Lord to reveal to me the mighty things that He can do with the staff in my hand. It all boils down to stewardship and a willingness to do what I was created to do.

My prayer is that my life will model to my girls to live their best lives now. To obey promptly and not to make excuses. There will always be a reason not to do it, in fact it may be like a raging fire in your heart compared to the candle flame of your conviction.

I’m currently listening to Todd Dulaney live from Trinidad.

He who called you is faithful. He called you to be the light of the world so don’t let the excuses dull your shine.




Get Up And Soar

‘Excuses are lies wrapped up in reasons’- Howard Wright

This definition of excuses hit close to home. I had not thought of excuses as lies; I used to make them and hide behind them. At some point my excuses had become so convincing, they even resembled truth. I had internalized them and become them.

My most recent excuse revolved around the fact that I didn’t feel like the conditions around me were ‘condusive’ for my leap of faith, read: ‘comfortable enough’, to do what God had asked me to do. The truth is, Jesus didn’t promise ‘perfect and comfortable’ conditions to live out His purpose. In fact, John 16:33 says that we will face many trials and sorrows:


It doesn’t say might or could have trials and sorrows, but will have many trials and sorrows. What He does promise though, is His peace. His peace that surpasses all understanding. His peace that is perfect.

Isaiah 26:3 New Living Translation (NLT)

You will keep in perfect peace
    all who trust in you,
    all whose thoughts are fixed on you!

He doesn’t promise perfect external conditions, but He promises perfect internal conditions, if we trust in Him and keep our thoughts fixed on Him.

I have made a resolve within myself to get up and soar. To let God mount me on wings like eagles. To do that which He created me to do by His grace, for His glory. For so long, I have wearied myself with excuses, but I will run to Him to refresh me.

Isaiah 40:31 New Living Translation (NLT)

But those who trust in the Lord will find new strength.
    They will soar high on wings like eagles.
They will run and not grow weary.
    They will walk and not faint.

There is a popular saying used to motivate people to get out of their comfort zones. Do it afraid. I like this one by Joyce Meyer:


It’s okay to start without all the answers; as you get up, hold on to these promises

1 John 4:4 New Living Translation (NLT)

But you belong to God, my dear children. You have already won a victory over those people, because the Spirit who lives in you is greater than the spirit who lives in the world.

2 Timothy 1:7 New Living Translation (NLT)

For God has not given us a spirit of fear and timidity, but of power, love, and self-discipline.

What if you lived out your purpose fully?

What if you were all you were created to be?

What is standing in your way?

Get up and soar, beloved. You were created for greatness; greater heights. Soar!!!

Have a blessed week,


I Stood Him Up

I absolutely love, love stories ❤

The intensity of the journey intrigues me. Everything from when the two were strangers, to how they became acquaintances, then friends, close friends and finally lovers, is special.


One of the aspects of my marriage that I really enjoy is going on dates with hubby. I savor these times together. We talk, love, laugh, dream…There is no doubt that we enjoy ourselves. Over the years, I have also learned to enjoy our silent dates. They have been some of the best quiet times I’ve had. I’m not intimidated by the silence anymore (this has taken some time), I relish the opportunity to be together.

Writing this makes me want to go on a date, it has me all giddy on the inside 🙂

One of the things that my husband, Peter,  has taught me is that dates should be fun. To my knowledge, I’ve never stood him up. Dates are always looked forward to; even the ones that have meant sacrificing my sleep or time.


Two weeks ago, the Lord invited me to spend time with Him at 3am. It sounded quite exciting at the time. But, I stood Him up. To be more precise, I slept. At 3am, I woke up and decided to continue sleeping. I was not intentional about meeting. Sleep is not a bad thing, but there is a time for everything. There is a soul refreshment that sleep can not give. Only time spent with the King can give you that.

I was so convicted. I blew off an opportunity to spend time with the Lord. He had prepared for me, to speak to me, love on me, but I came up with excuses and opted to sleep. I heard the call, and responded, ”But God…”. I made a list of excuses.

time with God

The following morning I woke up, knowing that I had messed up. I had missed out. Yes, I was more physically rested, but my inner {wo}man, {s}he needed to drink from the fount that never goes dry. To fellowship with the Lord, see things through His perspective. To be with the Lord, hear Him, walk with Him, talk to Him, love on Him and be loved by Him.

Time with God is life changing. My heart breaks as I think about all the times that I have stood Him up and opted to engage the world instead. For the times that I have chosen the things and pleasures of this world at His expense. My heart breaks.

This is my prayer. This year and beyond, I want to get closer to God, there is such an urgency in my heart. I want to know His heart. I pray that in the third hour, and every other hour, this need will overpower my desire to sleep. That the longing of my soul will order my body to get up and commune with the Lord.

time wit God

I need to go a little closer and be pulled a little deeper. His love is so much sweeter than anything I’ve tasted. I want to, no, I need to know His heart. I need to be closer, more than I need anything else in this world. I need to be closer.

Can you hear the Lord calling you to go closer? Are you standing Him up?