Knowing When To Let Go And When To Hold On

The one who calls me mummy turned two a few days ago.

Wow, My baby is two!!!!

What a journey it has been. I’m so grateful for all the days, the blissful one and the downright difficult ones. They make up the cocktail of life. In retrospect, the good days have been more, much more, than the days that tested and tried every fibre within me. I wouldn’t trade the journey for anything.

I’m constantly blown away when I think about just how far we’ve come. We have little conversations nowadays that leave me a little stunned and remind me that growth happens even when we aren’t really paying attention.

We started swimming about a year ago, and she has flourished. I’m so amazed. The truth is that soon she won’t need me to be close by, and she knows it. Her favourite thing is to swim under water without me holding her so she literally removes my hands from her waist as she swims. The first couple of times I was not amused but over the last couple of weeks, I’ve realized that I need to let go, and I need to know when to hold on.

Quite often, I gauge her abilities based on my experiences, but we are two different individuals. She is fearless. I pray that my different little scripts and biases (that are currently being dealt with) will not hold her back from being all that she was created to be. She enjoys jumping into the pool, soon we’ll be talking about diving 😉 The first time she did it, I held my breath and was ready to yank her out of the water, until I saw her emerge with a huge smile on her face. She knew that I would be right there when she got out.


Here I am, learning a balancing act, in all areas of my life. Praying for the grace to know when to hold on and when to let go. In a few months, she will start school, I have a feeling that will be a whole series on it’s own. But I know to whom she belongs, she is literally just on loan to us. Oh that we may be good stewards for His glory.

I’ve been challenged by Ksena to let go a little more, trust what I have learned, jump of the cliff (in her case: edge of the pool) and do it all with a smile. When I need to psyche myself up, I do what Ksena would do, sing: “Humpty Dumpty sat on a wall, Humpty Dumpty had a great fall” then I take the leap of faith knowing that God will be right there to catch me.

Here’s to leaps of faith and growth in the journey.




Keep At It

Every time I look at my photos from the past, I’m left so blown away by God’s goodness and the growth that has happened right beneath my nose. Now I see why albums are such precious memoirs, each picture tells a tale of His faithfulness.

Being a stay at home mum, means I’m with Ksena most of the time. In between diaper changes, meal times and the activities we do, sometimes I fail to see the growth taking place. It’s only when people see her and exclaim how big she’s gotten that it hits me, perhaps she was growing all along. When she tells me a story or starts singing out of the blue, I realize that she’s been learning all along.

Yesterday she told me the stories that we’ve been reading in her bible, and I was humbled. Reminded to keep at it even when I can’t see the results happening.  Sometimes she decides she wants another story, in the middle of the one we are reading, but it is not in vain.

This made me think about my walk with God, sometimes I struggle with my readings, stop reading a book midway, but I’ve purposed to keep at it. Though I may not see the transformation as it happens, a few days later, I realize my perspective has changed. His word has transformed the way I think.

I want to encourage you to just keep at it. Keep doing what God has called you to do, even when it seems like you are barely moving.


Keep pursuing God; your time with Him never leaves you the same. When you look back, you will see how He has transformed you.

May you have a blessed week ahead.


Lessons From My Daughter (Pt 4)

Happy new week 🙂

Miss K turned 6 months at the beginning of the month. It was an extra happy week in the K household. We had a little cake cutting session to celebrate God’s faithfulness and sustenance. Did I mention ebf? By God’s grace we exclusively breast fed. Prayers, liquids, dill seeds and rest worked wonders for my milk supply.

It is so amazing to see how babies grow. She rocked up into our lives just the other day, I still remember the day she was born quite vividly. She came as a little helpless (read: dependent) person and now she has developed her own personality and some independence, I mean she can even play by herself albeit briefly

We started weaning *happy dance* 🙂 .So far so good. It has been quite the adventure with a food allergy et al, but we are taking it a day at a time and enjoying the different tastes and textures.

Weaning has been fun, it’s taught me a couple of lessons about spiritual diet and life.

1. There is a time for everything

Exclusive breast feeding was crucial for the first six months. I enjoyed it as I had a lot of milk and the preparation time was minimal. It helped her grow, hit her milestones and she was able to double her birth weight. In the same way, there is a time and season for spiritual milk.

1 Peter 2:2 (NIV)

Like newborn babies, crave pure spiritual milk, so that by it you may grow up in your salvation,

2. Just because you want something, doesn’t mean you are ready for it

A few weeks before we weaned she would want to eat whatever she saw on our plates and drink what she saw us drinking. Truth be told, even if her saliva formed a puddle at my feet due to her eager salivary glands, the rest of her body was still not ready for solid food. Also there are guidelines for when a baby is ready to eat solid food. You can find them here.

1 Corinthians 3:2 (NIV)

I gave you milk, not solid food, for you were not yet ready for it. Indeed, you are still not ready.

There are some foods that she is still not ready for but slowly and surely we will get there.

3. Don’ be selfish, Share the knowledge

Soon she will be eating solid foods very well. When the time comes, she will be able to model to her siblings how to eat ; as well as show them how to behave at the dinner table.

Hebrews 5:12 (NIV)

In fact, though by this time you ought to be teachers, you need someone to teach you the elementary truths of God’s word all over again. You need milk, not solid food!

When you have learned something, find someone to teach.

Always have a teachable spirit. One that says:-

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“Once you stop learning, you start dying” – Albert Einstein

May you allow Jesus to teach you His truths and grow you at His pace. Do not measure yourself with the progress of others; let Him be your yardstick.

Christ is the living word (John 1:1). He is the bread of life, whoever goes to Him will not go hungry and if you believe in Him you will never thirst again. Only He can truly satisfy.

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Happy eating, drinking and learning.



Lessons From My Daughter (Pt 3)

Hello 🙂

It is so amazing how a little person can have such a big impact on a person. A year ago, I was trying to deal with the lethargy that came with the first trimester of pregnancy. I knew that my life would change once the little one landed into my arms; I just didn’t know how much.

Being a mummy has challenged me to be better, more so, to grow deeper; to live life actively and not passively.

* Keep Trying

Don’t give up just because you failed the first time. Keep trying, one day you may just surprise yourself and hit that milestone.

Miss K has been trying to figure out how to sit by herself for a couple of weeks, because sitting supported is too boring for her 😉 . Initially, she would just bob around trying to find her balance. As the days have gone by she has been gotten better at it and she is enjoying hitting the milestone.

*Bad seasons don’t last forever

My little girl is a ball of sunshine. Always laughing and smiling, she rarely cries. It was not always the case, gas and colic had given us a run for our sanity, literally . People would tell me that it would end, but I used to think to myself ‘if it will not end today or tomorrow I do not want to hear about it’. Thank God that rough season came to an end.

My takeout was that, regardless of the storm, the sun WILL shine (very brightly for that matter). It gets better, after a while. Be encouraged.

* Live. Love. Laugh

Pretty lady does not know about ‘tomorrow’ so she doesn’t procrastinate her joy, She lives each day to the full and brings 100% each day.

For a long time, I used to peg my joy on certain things happening or not happening. Now I have just purposed to enjoy each and every day. Tomorrow is not a guarantee. If it has enough worries of its own, it is also safe to say that it has enough joys of its own, so there is no need to carry forward today’s joy.

Let the ones around know that you love them. Don’t just say it but let it be your reality. From sloppy kisses to heartwarming smiles and hugs, I know that this little girl loves me.

Laughter is medicine for the soul. Through seeing K laugh I have realized that God does have a sense of humor. I mean, who teaches little babies how to laugh? We are made in His image, so that means He has a funny side. I look for the humor in everyday life, most times I join miss K in laughing, her laughter is contagious. There is already enough to frown about, so let’s find more to laugh about.

My biggest challenges come from my little person.

Here’s to trying again each and every day, not giving up, believing, living, loving and laughing.

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God bless you,