I Will Run To You Even When It Hurts

I read a really interesting book this weekend that really encouraged me.


I highly recommend it for all parents, it’s a nice, easy read filled with pearls of wisdom. There is a lot that parents and children can learn from each other. The beauty of life is that we don’t stop learning. This realization is what birthed the Lessons From My Daughter posts.

A few days ago, I had to discipline Ksena. As she cried because she’d been disciplined she still wanted me to comfort her and give her warm cuddles. She was sad but the discipline didn’t make her doubt my intentions or love for her. She knew that my love for her was constant and that the issue of indiscipline was just a hurdle in our journey.

This got me thinking about my relationship with God. What is my attitude towards Him after He has disciplined me? Do I run away in a huff and a puff grumbling about how unfair He is or do I run to Him and let Him comfort me?

I’d love to say that I always run to Him but there are many times that I have run away and sulked. I have even made up bizarre stories about the inadequacy of His love for me. Only to realize that He disciplines me because He loves me; and, the discipline is for my good.

Proverbs 3:11-12 New Living Translation (NLT)

11 My child, don’t reject the Lord’s discipline,
    and don’t be upset when he corrects you.
12 For the Lord corrects those he loves,
    just as a father corrects a child in whom he delights.

I continuously realize why God needs us to have childlike faith, to take Him at His word. His love for us is constant. He sees the bigger picture and we can, and should, trust Him.


Today I have resolved to run to Him at all times because I can trust Him and His heart for me. He loves me and IS for me.

Do you trust His heart when the discipline hurts? Will you run to Him in the midst of it all?

Have a blessed week.



I Speak Life : Day 12

“You are not the only one that is going through some struggles, challenges and obstacles. There is no need to be too hard on yourself. This too will surely pass away just like all that you have been through in the past. Stay strong and keep your faith alive. God is on your side.”
Edmond Mbiaka

This quote has really encouraged me. I am especially hard on myself. I have blogged previously about the voices in my head that are full of self-condemnation and unrealistic expectations. Hang around them long enough, and you start to believe them. Once they start, they never quite stop. They transmit on megaphones with a loop option.


I have seen the power of words play out in my life. Interestingly, yesterdays post was about the life-giving power of words. I want to frame this verse to serve as a daily reminder that I will give an account of the words I speak.

Matthew 12:36 (NIV)

I tell you that everyone will have to give account on the day of judgment for every empty word they have spoken.

Other versions say, idle word.

The truth is I have no control over the words that I have spoken in the past, but I do have control over the words that I will speak today and in the days to come.

Every time I have a turnover of negative words, I remember this verse.


Over the past couple of weeks, I have been asking God to heal my heart, show me the root hurt that has tainted my speech and view, and to lead me in the way everlasting.

What hurts have you buried in your heart that result in negative speech?

Today, with God’s help, I choose to speak words of life, words that will edify and build. Words that will display God’s love first of all to myself, the to my family and finally, to the world. 

Have you been speaking kindly to yourself? your family and the world?

How can you ensure you speak words of life?

What reward system can you put in place?

The prayer of the day:

Dear God,

Thank you for this day. Thank you for Your grace that never runs out on me. Father, please forgive me for the idle words that I have spoken to myself and others. They have indeed gone out and cause harm rather than good. Please illuminate Your light in my heart that You may reveal the hurt hidden in the crevices that cause me to speak words of death.

I invite You to heal my heart, renew my mind and lead me in the way everlasting. Give me a desire for Your Word, that I may hide it in my heart and it will be readily available on my lips.

I desire to worship You with my speech.

I love and adore you.

In Jesus name I pray and believe,


The song of the day:

Don’t give up! You are loved. Speak life over yourself and those you love.



P.S If you would like me to stand with you in prayer, feel free to send me an email on ess@bibi2be.com

Pain Must Be Felt: Day 10

I am not a theologian or a scholar, but I am very aware of the fact that pain is necessary to all of us. In my own life, I think I can honestly say that out of the deepest pain has come the strongest conviction of the presence of God and the love of God.  ~ Elizabeth Elliot

I really admire Elizabeth Elliot’s walk with God. Her life is testimony of what God can do through pain, if you let Him. She lost not one but two husbands; she ministered to the people who killed her first husband. You can read more about her here.


We took Miss K to the docs yesterday, she knew where we were so she was uneasy. As she gets older she is able to predict events. When she was given the jab, she wailed, till tears came out. She has two types of cries, one for attention, which is more of noise, the other one with tears when she has actually been hurt. Yesterday, she was hurt, both physically and emotionally. She gave us a look of ‘how could you?’ and her arm was a little sore. The reality is that, as much as she could have perceived our actions to be bad, the pain was necessary for her. It may seem like we didn’t protect her from pain then, but she had to feel the pain to protect her from pain later.

Hubby took her out to the balcony and comforted her as she cried. There was no ‘get over it now’ sort of speech, not at all. He just soothed her and let her go through the motions. Eventually she calmed down and kept quiet and begun waving bye at cars driving into the horizon. Such a sweetheart, this little one.


Pain must be felt.

In our own lives, we must give ourselves room to feel the pain, because it hurts. We can choose to overlook it, but that will not take away it’s power. Also, when people are in pain, or have gone through trauma, they need time to feel. Sit in their pain, evaluate it, acknowledge that it happened; feel it. Unlike other things, there is no timeline for dealing with pain. So don’t rush anyone. As long as they are dealing and haven’t given up, they will be just fine, with God’s help. He is close to the brokenhearted. They are safe in His arms. You are safe in His arms.

Psalm 34:18 (NIV)

The Lord is close to the brokenhearted
    and saves those who are crushed in spirit.

How have you been hurt recently?

Have you allowed yourself to go through the motions of the pain?

Feeling pain is not a sign of weakness, but a sign of strength. We live and we learn.

No one is immune. It’s a part of life. Some things hurt more than others, by God’s grace we bounce back.


Do you know someone who is heart broken? going through the motions of pain?

How can you comfort them patiently?

Pray for them. Be there for them.

The prayer of the day:

Dear Lord,

Your children’s hearts are breaking. The worries of life and unfortunate events have brought unimaginable pain their way. I pray Lord that you will be very close to them. That you will comfort the grieving family, comfort those who have been abused, comfort those who feel disappointed by your timing, comfort those who have been rejected, comfort those who have lost children, comfort those who have lost their jobs and comfort those who need your comfort.

May you be so close to the them, that above the pain, and in the midst of the pain they will hear you speak your loving words and truth to their hearts. They need you Papa, we need you; I need you. Please wipe the tears that flow down my face when I go through painful seasons, comfort my heart and show me how to forgive.

In Jesus name I pray and believe,


The song of the day:



P.S If you would like me to stand with you in prayer, feel free to send me an email on ess@bibi2be.com