Hello Fear! Goodbye Fear!!

I’m so fed up of being afraid!

I’m yet to see good fruit that fear has borne.

April 2011 is when I started listening to this song on repeat.

A few days after my dad passed away I was gripped by fear. I was afraid of the dark, because every time I lay my head down I saw his corpse. I was afraid of dreaming, because I didn’t know how my dreams would be without him. I was afraid of the grande and mundane. So when Kirk wrote this song, it was for people like me. Those who are prisoners, trapped and disabled by fear. Alive but afraid.

Fear has become a norm in society. Even the ‘safe’ cartoons have episodes where they teach children to be afraid. Last week, hubby had to put off the t.v because every episode was an ‘introduction to fear’ class. Fear has become normal, many social platforms that I read from have normalized fear, honestly, after reading some comments, it’s possible to question if you really want to walk into a certain season. For example childbirth and raising children: subconsciously I found I’m afraid of labour, delivery, colic, tantrums. The truth is I’m afraid even though I have not experienced these things; when the time comes for me to go through them, my experience will be void of the joy and wonder.

It’s good to be informed but not bombarded with fear.

We are a society devoid of truth. We’ve accepted the fear and lies as our truth. So we have many people walking bent in to two because they are carrying burdens and expectations that are:

a) not real

b) not theirs to carry

They are paralyzed by fear.

Fear and anxiety have been cruising through my heart for weeks, today, I woke up tired. It’s been coming for the last couple of days, but today! Nah, today was IT. So earlier this morning, I sat down and wrote a list of the things that make me anxious and afraid. And I prayed over the list. Asking God to show me His truth and give me His peace that it may guard my heart and mind in Him.


I want truth. Truth above all else! I want to experience His fullness and grace. I want to enjoy the rest in good pastures (Psalm 23) and enjoy the pleasant land and wonderful inheritance that He has given me (Psalm 16).

For today and the days to come, I refuse to be a slave anymore, to carry burdens that aren’t mine to carry. I choose freedom. I choose truth. Truth above all else.



Friendship With God : Day 9


“A friend is someone who knows all about you and still loves you.”
Elbert Hubbard

God is an amazing friend. He knows all about me and still loves me the same. I don’t have to put up a facade around Him, and even if I did, He would see right through me. There have been seasons in my life that have propelled me to cultivate my friendship with God more. I have learned that in seasons where I feel lonely, I should pursue Him more. He is a faithful friend.

It is indeed a privilege to be a friend of God. There are benefits.

Psalm 25:14 (NLT)

Friendship with the LORD is reserved for those who fear him. With them he shares the secrets of his covenant.


I have learned to give God time to speak. He desires to teach me, affirm me and love on me, if only I would listen.

Are you a good listener?

What has God been telling you?

The prayer of the day:

Dear Lord,

I am so humbled that You call me friend. Please forgive me for the times that I have taken Your friendship for granted. For the times that I have ignored You for days on end. It is a blessing and privilege to be called friend by You. To have You the Lord of Lords as my friend. I stand in awe of You.

I desire to hear You speak to me and teach me personally. Your presence is life changing. I long to spend more time with You. Help me to desire You more, satisfy me with Yourself Lord, satisfy me with Yourself.

All the glory and honour belong to You. You are God alone.

In Jesus name I pray and believe,


The song of the day:

Take some time out today and cultivate your friendship with God. Listen as He speaks and receive the secrets of His covenant.



P.S If you would like me to stand with you in prayer, feel free to send me an email on ess@bibi2be.com

Tangible Fruit : Day 8

A year ago, I was counting down days to holding my little girl in my arms. I honestly looked and felt like a different person. Anxiety and unease flooded my heart regarding delivery. I was all done nesting, save for a few items that I was waiting on to come from another town.

Fast forward to a year later, from the moment you enter our house, you know without a shadow of doubt that Miss K is a resident of our home. Over the last couple of weeks, she has managed a toy distribution service. Which she is excelling at by the way; her toys are all over the house. Her curiosity is at its best, she wants to know what everything is; if she can remove it she will, if she can pass under or over it, she will.


Yesterday evening as I looked at her toys lying on the floor, the Holy Spirit convicted me that His presence in my life,in our lives, should be very evident. He should leave a trail of tangible fruit. If He doesn’t, then His tenancy is in question.


The thing about God is that you can’t encounter Him and leave the same. He comes and overturns ‘monuments’ in your heart and reveals the rusty, dusty and nasty things that have been hiding under them.

Can the fruit of the Spirit be seen in your life?

Have you given the Spirit free reign in your life?

Can the people around you see God in your life?

The prayer of the day:

Dear God,

I thank you for your power and love. I am humbled that You love me yet You see the contents of my heart. You see what I think and feel behind closed doors, but You love me all the same. Thank you that Your invitation for me to experience You deeper is still open. Indeed You desire to transform me and grow me.

I want to be a better ambassador for Christ for the glory of Your name. Please forgive me for the times that I have brought shame to Your name. I desire to be Your hands and Your feet. For people to see You in me. Work in and through me Lord.

I declare that I am not going back to the way things used to be. Continue to lead me in your everlasting ways.

I love you and I worship you.

In Jesus name I pray and believe,


The song of the day is:



P.S If you would like me to stand with you in prayer, feel free to send me an email on ess@bibi2be.com