It was a rather somber weekend. On one hand, we celebrated the death and resurrection of Christ because the veil was torn and we have permanent direct access to God. On the other hand, we mourned and continue to mourn the lives of those who were killed in the Garissa University College attack. It was bitter sweet to say the least and it left me with a myriad of questions.
One evening as I thought and prayed, this verse stood out for me.
Psalm 94:1 (NLT)
O Lord, the God of vengeance,
O God of vengeance, let your glorious justice shine forth!
It reminded me of the widow in Luke 18.
One day Jesus told his disciples a story to show that they should always pray and never give up. 2 “There was a judge in a certain city,” he said, “who neither feared God nor cared about people. 3 A widow of that city came to him repeatedly, saying, ‘Give me justice in this dispute with my enemy.’ 4 The judge ignored her for a while, but finally he said to himself, ‘I don’t fear God or care about people, 5 but this woman is driving me crazy. I’m going to see that she gets justice, because she is wearing me out with her constant requests!’”
6 Then the Lord said, “Learn a lesson from this unjust judge. 7 Even he rendered a just decision in the end. So don’t you think God will surely give justice to his chosen people who cry out to him day and night? Will he keep putting them off? 8 I tell you, he will grant justice to them quickly! But when the Son of Man returns, how many will he find on the earth who have faith?” (Luke 18:1-8 NLT)
God’s NOT DEAD!! If we cry out to Him day and night He will grant us justice quickly (HE said so in His word).
Visiting the ocean usually puts everything into perspective. It helps me get out of my bubble and let God give me a glimpse of the bigger picture; I’m blown away each and every time. Yesterday was no different. My myriad of questions were answered in a sitting. Some answers don’t make ‘sense’ as I would like them to, but this is where I draw the line and say that He is GOD and I am a mere human being. My mind CANNOT fully comprehend HIM and HIS ways. I simply do not have the capacity to fully understand Him, and it is okay.
Since morning, I’ve had ‘Stay and Wait’ by Hillsong UNITED on repeat.
To summarize my weekend of questions and answers, highs and lows; this is my declaration:-
I will stay should the world by me fold
Lift up your name as the darkness falls
I will wait and hold fast to your word
Heart on Your heart and my eyes on You.
God of wonder and God of grace
Let my soul stand always to praise You
Fix my eyes on Your perfect way
And I’ll never look back
May it be yours too.
May you stay even when it is hard and hurts,
as you wait on the One who you can trust with your heart.
May His grace carry you and may you fix your eyes on Him,
He has the answers for the questions that you ask within.