I Don’t Want To Be An Ostrich Mama

As a child, I was fascinated by Ostriches. I thought they were intriguingly beautiful. There was something about the way they spread their wings that enthralled me.

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I hadn’t thought about an Ostrich for a long time, well, that was up until a couple of weeks ago when I read Job 39.

Job 39:13-18New Living Translation (NLT)

13 “The ostrich flaps her wings grandly,
    but they are no match for the feathers of the stork.
14 She lays her eggs on top of the earth,
    letting them be warmed in the dust.
15 She doesn’t worry that a foot might crush them
    or a wild animal might destroy them.
16 She is harsh toward her young,
    as if they were not her own.
    She doesn’t care if they die.
17 For God has deprived her of wisdom.
    He has given her no understanding.
18 But whenever she jumps up to run,
    she passes the swiftest horse with its rider.

 

As I read this scripture, my heart was convicted. Verse 16 and 17 tugged at my heart strings and caused me to ask the Lord to search my heart. To reveal to me the ways that I have been harsh, insensitive, deprived of wisdom and lacking understanding.

This passage refused to leave my mind. It replayed in my heart for days on end. Then I begun to see how Ostrich like I have been in my motherhood journey and my heart, oh, how it broke. It became crystal clear (again) that I cannot rely on my own wisdom (or lack thereof). 

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My prayer is that in my newborn hazing state I will not be impatient and harsh towards the K girls. That I will be sensitive to the status of their hearts and dreams. That I will be a woman and an understanding mother. Oh, how I pray for wisdom to raise these girls. That I will be loving towards them, that I will always speak lovingly and that my heart will be keen to notice if they are dying in any part of their lives. That my tongue will speak life and not death. That I will encourage them to pursue their dreams and create an environment where they can encounter the Lord.

Now when I think about an Ostrich, I remember that though she is swift and grande, she lacks understanding and has been deprived of wisdom.

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Dear Lord,

Please do not deprive us of wisdom. We ask that you will send your angel to give us instructions on how to raise these children like you did to Manoah and his wife in Judges 13.

In Jesus name we pray,

Amen

Blessings,

Bibi2be

 

 

Are You Running On Fumes?

When the fuel light goes off in the car, I know that I need to make my way to the closest fuel station, because I only have about fifty kilometers left. Well, that is if I am driving with my air conditioner off.

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Earlier this week, I hadn’t slept well due to Miss K going through a serious sleep regression coupled with teething. When we woke up, she was cranky and did not want her feet to touch the floor, she wanted to be carried everywhere. She refused to have her breakfast. When she was not being carried, she was giving my shadow a run for it’s money, trying keeping up with me. At one point, I just wanted some quiet to use the bathroom. When I realized that I was going to have an audience, I prayed and asked God to help me because my patience was running low.

THEN, the Holy Spirit promptly reminded me ‘ Love is patient before it kind. It is patient before it is other things.’

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I felt so reprimanded, in love.

I was reminded that it is crucial for me to be patient. If I feel low on patience {love} I should run to the nearest fuel station for a refill. Read: I should hide away for a few minutes and spend time with God. I know how cranky and mean I can be when I am impatient and honestly, no one deserves to be on the receiving end of that.

Are you feeling low on patience?

Are you irritable, mean and cranky.

Are you driving on E?

Perhaps it is time you too got a boost. All these things that are keeping you busy and draining you can wait a few minutes. Sneak away for a few minutes, read your bible, pray and worship. Let God fill your cup, then you will have more to pour into the lives of those around you. Afterwards you will feel refreshed, rejuvenated and wait for it, patient (:

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For mamas with toddlers, the struggle is real but so is HIS grace, peace, love and mercy.When you feel your patience is running low, report to God’s throne with immediate effect. There you will receive mercy and find grace to help you in your time of need, Hebrews 4:16.

This song just played as I wrote this post. It reminded me how close God is to us. If we would only run to Him, He will answer.

God bless you.

Bibi2be