Drips and Crayon Fights

I smile to myself as I hear the girls fighting over crayons. A genuine happy smile, I can’t quite remember how many times I have smiled in the last couple of days.

‘My crayon!’ Ksena says as Ky runs away with the green crayon. Ky isn’t really into coloring, but she wants what Ksena has. Ksena, on the other hand, wants to color in peace but Ky would rather flip the pages of Miss K’s coloring book.

We do not encourage fighting, but it is so good to have them back to their normal selves. It’s been a tough start to 2018 with all of us unwell. We’ve seen enough of needles, drips, medication, and hospital walls for 2018. I’ve worried and prayed and experienced peace.

God made a way, that’s the only reason that I am even able to share here. Those days felt very dark and scary. I realized how much I don’t have control of, and there are a lot of things on that list. Even in the darkest moments, I draw my strength from my faith in Christ.

For those who are in the midst of a trial, I pray that God will be close to you, may you see His hand sustaining you, holding you and loving you.

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For The Weary Mum

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Tuesday is my new Monday. Well, at least since I had a baby. I feel like Monday is my Sabbath to recover from the Sabbath. I fully boot and begin my week on Tuesdays and this week is no different.

This post is dedicated to the weary mummy who also looks for some tranquility on Mondays. There is never a dull day in your life.

A few days ago I spent the midnight hour in the peads casualty. It was so sad to see other children sick. What caught my attention was the weary mums trying to be tough cookies for their babies even when they couldn’t do much to help them. Also, why do children get sick at night? The place was so packed.

In the midst of all the coughs and sneezes, children were telling their parent’s about their experiences with the doctor. One girl made our night. After telling us all how she is a big girl, out of the blue she shouted, ”Mum, me I love omena!” Bless that little girl’s soul. It was not what she said, but how she said it that had us in stitches. I love children’s honesty.

A couple of month’s ago, I felt as though I was in over my head. Sleep deprivation was getting to me. One evening I sat and cried out to God and asked Him to speak to me, to speak to my weary heart that didn’t want to give up but felt spent. This is what He said:-

Isaiah 40:25-31 NLT

25 “To whom will you compare me?
    Who is my equal?” asks the Holy One.

26 Look up into the heavens.
    Who created all the stars?
He brings them out like an army, one after another,
    calling each by its name.
Because of his great power and incomparable strength,
    not a single one is missing.
27 O Jacob, how can you say the Lord does not see your troubles?
    O Israel, how can you say God ignores your rights?
28 Have you never heard?
    Have you never understood?
The Lord is the everlasting God,
    the Creator of all the earth.
He never grows weak or weary.
    No one can measure the depths of his understanding.
29 He gives power to the weak
    and strength to the powerless.
30 Even youths will become weak and tired,
    and young men will fall in exhaustion.
31 But those who trust in the Lord will find new strength.
    They will soar high on wings like eagles.
They will run and not grow weary.
    They will walk and not faint.

Now, read it like this:

Even young young mums will become weak and tired, and young women will fall in exhaustion. But those who trust in the LORD will find new strength. They will soar high on wings like eagles. They will run and not grow weary. They will walk and not faint. (Emphasis mine)

It is okay to feel tired and weary. Yes, I know we may seem rather pink and weak in comparison to our mothers and women of old, however, the bible says that even you will get tired. Your feelings are valid. Don’t let anybody take you on a guilt trip about your limited strength.

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It is easy to expect other people to fill the gap and encourage you while your in a valley however, you cannot put your trust in them. The truth is, your husband, friends and relatives will fail you because what you need is way above their dispensation grade.

Trusting in the Lord is what will help you find new strength. His strength will help you rise above the challenges and soar. You will run the evening marathon and morning rush hours and not grow weary. You will walk as you exercise patience and not faint.

Can I hear an Amen?

When it gets rough from time to time, I usually remind myself to do the following step by step.

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Be encouraged my dear. Serve your family as though you are serving the Lord. Turn to Him and lean on Him. Embrace the season, heed the call and give it your all.

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God has not forgotten you, even when it gets hard, He is right there with you.

Blessings,

Bibi2be

Love is…

Nobody likes to be sick.

The most challenging part about living with Endo is that it is a pain on the inside. It doesn’t really have an outward manifestation so you cant say ‘look I broke my hand’. This makes it hard for people to understand how one can be in pain yet look okay. Over the years I have heard all sorts of things regarding Endometriosis. In fact one of them that still gets to me to date is ‘all women have painful periods so you should take some painkillers and get over it’. Yes, Eve ate the apple et al BUT that does not mean periods are supposed to be painful.

Moms, if your not so little girl says her periods really hurt listen to her and believe her. Then find a way to ease the pain and find the root cause. Don’t wait to be prompted by a complication. Yes, there are normal period pains. Endometriosis is not normal period cramps; if it were many women would not rush to the emergency room in pain. Take time to understand Endometriosis and share the information, you could help another woman.

Hug an Endowarrior. Let her know that she is not alone. Take her out for a smoothie (knowing what I know now, the coffee should be taken in moderation.) If you can go for her doctor’s appointments with her, please do. Lord knows waiting rooms are not filled with hope and joy but the opposite. (Also, don’t volunteer to take her when you are in a hurry, let’s just say, doctors rarely keep time or are called into emergencies when you are the next one in line).

Today I want to celebrate my special friend who doubles up as my hubster :). He has sat with me in hospitals for too many hours to count – man, in another life I would probably be a doctor smiling all the way to the bank. He has prayed with and for me, wiped my tears; loved me through it all even when it got ugly and I felt ugly. Hormones! never underestimate the power of these little things. They can take you down a very dark path. He has shown me that the vows ‘in sickness and in health’ can be a reality. You can choose to love in hard circumstances.

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You came into my life at the right time. Truly, two are better than one; when one is weak, the other can be strong. When I am weak, you are strong. I love you!

Thank you for not leaving my side.

Maybe one of these days I’ll ask him to write about Endo from his point of view :).

Blessings,

Bibi2Be