The Stretched Out Mama’s Melody

We cannot change the inevitable. The only thing we can do is play the one string that we have, and that is our attitude.

These words by Charles Swindoll struck a chord within me; attitude matters. I’ve been missing on these lanes, mainly because life happened, I’d love to know when life doesn’t happen. It is not stagnant and that is the beautiful thing about it, it is fluid, and the sooner we adjust the better. You can’t remain an ice-block in hot soup, sometimes life is a lot like broth, it has some chunks that we like and others we’d rather do without, but we soldier on and chew those chunks because you can’t exactly be picky with broth, you take it as it comes.

One of the chunks that I love is that my girls are both toddlers. Where did time fly to? Just the other day, I checked in to hospital to deliver sweet little Ky, and now she is all grown. I have two toddlers, and I am here adjusting to all the milestones, it is surreal, a beautiful blessing to be part of.

The skipping of naps though, is one of the chunks I would rather do without. Nap time is half time in my day, when I can recharge, think and write. It doesn’t help that they wake up before Mr Sun has worn his yellow coat, it is usually bright but still dark. One day of less-than-what-I’d-consider-adequate sleep is fine, but a week of that, has me pulling a my recovering hairline, bubbling with negative emotions and questioning myself. This is the roller-coaster of being a mama in this season.

Thankfully, by the grace of God, lest I take any credit, Ky is sleeping better at night. She is self soothing, waking up once a night is much better than the night time circus we had going on, with her jumping up like Jack-in-a-box every other hour. To God, I say “THANK YOU!”, I know I rambled about my lack of sleep here before.

On a lighter note, I hang out with a group of mums last week, bless them, and we concluded that God made women adaptable to sleep deprivation. Regardless of your gender, sleep is important, no-one was made to zombie around full time.

My attitude is under construction, it is an area that needs some divine help, but I am taking it a day at a time. I am certain that next week I won’t be where I was a few days ago. It is what I have within my control, the string in my hand, I’ll play it each day and create a beautiful melody note by note.

 

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Motherhood Has Taught Me, Once Again, That God Answers Prayers

I’m so blown away by God’s goodness.

A few weeks ago, I was a very stressed and weary mama. Ksena wasn’t sleeping very well which meant I wasn’t sleeping very well either. I was also wondering how I would wean her off breastfeeding without the option of shipping her off to her grandmother’s house for two weeks.

A little background, she used to sleep beautifully until we hit a sleep regression in her first year then things went haywire. We tried all methods of sleep training but they weren’t quite successful due to other compounding factors beyond our control. So sleep was a real prayer request in our home.

I never had a problem with breastfeeding or milk supply but weaning was so stressful. I shudder when I think back. That she eats now and even asks for food by saying ” I’m hungry” or ”tummy is hungry” is a miracle in itself. I have cried tears because she wouldn’t eat, but God; He showed up and her appetite is a testimony of His Grace.

So back to the current situation, as we were away from home for several weeks, I knew things needed to change once we got back home; but God needed to come through I’m order for the changes to happen.

I needed to sleep train her and wean her off breastfeeding. The first day, I kept repeating God’s truth to her,  ”Ksena can do all things through Christ who strengthens her”. I told her that though self soothing was difficult she could do it because God was with her.  Every time she heard the verse, she calmed down. God’s word has power!!!

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In four days she was sleep trained and weaned off breast feeding completely. It’s been a while since I’ve slept so well. I can change the world. When she wants to sleep she walks up to me and says ”Mummy , I’m tired”.

A few days ago, I told Peter that many times we don’t live in abundance because we have forfeited our power in Christ. As I’ve been reading ‘The Power Of A Praying Parent’ by Stormie Omartian, I’ve realized that when I spend time in His presence, His power is released. I desire for this power to be released in every aspect of my life.

This week, I’m working on my master prayer list. Asking the Holy Spirit to write with me, that I may be intentional about praying for the big and small things that worry and wear down my heart.

If your heart is weary, I pray that you will find rest in Christ. Nothing is too difficult for Him, you can trust Him with all the desires of your heart. In Jesus name we pray and believe, Amen.

Blessings,

Bibi2be

 

Thoughts on Motherhood: The One Where I Chose To Enjoy

One, motherhood is hard. Two, motherhood is glorious. Three, motherhood is very hard. ~ Lisa-Jo Baker

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I have been reading ‘Surprised By Motherhood’ by Lisa-Jo Baker over the last couple of days and it has been a series of virtual hugs. I have nodded along, shed a few tears here and there, and had countless  ‘Wow! I am not alone’ moments. I will share more of my musings on that later. You can read more of Lisa’s encouraging posts here.

Last week, I got to interact with an inspirational lady, who radiates grace as she deals with children of all ages. Her name is Miranda. Her advice on motherhood was golden. ”I am a mother of an Eighteen and Twenty year old. When they were little, I purposed to enjoy every season with all it brings, from when they are infants to toddlers, preschoolers and when they eventually hit puberty. I chose not to complain about them and it turns out that the stages have not been so bad. We have enjoyed them.”

She told me this in the midst of a wonder week, nightS of interrupted sleep that resulted in crankiness. After we had this conversation, I resolved to not let the challenges steal my joy. They are all passing moments. Children grow, seasons change but love remains.

Last night when Ksena woke up and wanted her ball. I was much more gracious as I explained that it was time to sleep.

Ecclesiastes 3:12,13,22 NLT

12 So I concluded there is nothing better than to be happy and enjoy ourselves as long as we can. 13 And people should eat and drink and enjoy the fruits of their labor, for these are gifts from God.22 So I saw that there is nothing better for people than to be happy in their work. That is our lot in life. And no one can bring us back to see what happens after we die.

Being a mother is my second full time job. After being a wife. I am going to enjoy every season of motherhood. Even the ones that leave me in awe of how my sanity remains intact, I will enjoy, I will be happy and enjoy the fruit of my labour. Sometimes, it’s hard, but it’s glorious. In the midst of the chaos, you hear the Lord speak peace over you and in your weakness, He is strong.

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Dear Mama, who is oh-so-overwhelmed, sleep deprived, drowning in laundry, dealing with diaper blowouts, tackling mountain-size tantrums, enjoy the season. Before you know it, it’ll be over. Every season has it’s challenges, but, our God remains the same.

Blessings,

Bibi2be