Don’t Dull Your Shine

I have had my laptop for well over five years. It has served me well. I enjoyed it’s performance in it’s infantile years. One of the perks that have come with age, is the speakers are not working. That sucks. Ksena thinks so too. Yesterday, she told me, ” Mama, your computer needs to become younger so that it can play sound.” I laughed about it. My two year old’s thought process tickles and fascinates me at the same time.

As I reflected, I realized that unlike my computer, I won’t be able to buy a younger version of myself. There are things that I won’t be able to do when I get older. The question is what am I doing with what I have now?

The truth is that is so easy to have an excuse, even two, not to do what you need to be doing. For a long time, I used this same computer as an excuse not to write. It was foolish. My thinking and perspective in life has since changed. It’s about the end picture. It’s easy to do nothing, but nothing can’t make a difference.

I still struggle in certain aspects but I want the Lord to reveal to me the mighty things that He can do with the staff in my hand. It all boils down to stewardship and a willingness to do what I was created to do.

My prayer is that my life will model to my girls to live their best lives now. To obey promptly and not to make excuses. There will always be a reason not to do it, in fact it may be like a raging fire in your heart compared to the candle flame of your conviction.

I’m currently listening to Todd Dulaney live from Trinidad.

He who called you is faithful. He called you to be the light of the world so don’t let the excuses dull your shine.

Blessings,

Bibi2be

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We Are Just Like Grasshoppers

One of the lessons that I have learned from toddlers is that we all have the tendancy to think that we are bigger and greater than we really are. Walk in to a playgroup class and you will see these little, budding, grown ups in small bodies, who sometimes think that they are grown ups.

Occasionally, I sit and stare at Ksena in absolute awe. My baby girl has grown up ( I know I say this all the time, but it’s true). Sometimes, she blows me away with all that she has learned in her few years on earth. I cherish the little conversations that we have, and I am slowly getting used to answering ‘why?’ over and over, every single day. It’s fascinating to see her thought process become more complex. She asks because she wants to understand.

Some days (seems like all the time nowadays) , she does things that test the boundaries (and my sanity). I refuse to call it ‘terrible twos’, because there is power in the tongue, I am sure that I don’t want to claim the terrible. It’s more of ‘testing twos’, in my opinion. We have to keep repeating and reinforcing the boundaries. And reminding her that she is still a child, she may be growing but she is still under our authority. In this year, I have understood this verse:

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In my walk with God, there are times that as I have grown I have become more comfortable. The boundary lines could have blurred, or for a moment there I could have there I could have thought that I was bigger than I actually am.

As I read Isaiah yesterday, the Lord reminded me that as He looks down on us as humanity we look like grasshoppers. Grasshoppers!

For in him we live and move and exist. As some of your[a] own poets have said, ‘We are his offspring._

You struggle to worship and stand in awe of a god who you view as your equal. But, the living God is very, very, far from our equal. In fact, He keeps asking, ‘ to whom shall you compare me to?’. Whom have you been comparing Him with? Does your worship reflect your understanding of His magnitude?

Just like a grasshopper, is what we are in His sight. Beloved ‘grasshoppers’. When we see Him as He is, we can attempt to worship Him as He desires for us to. He longs for our eyes, minds and hearts to remain stayed on Him. Yes, we are in the world, but not of this world.

I’m currently listening to Todd Dulaney live in Ghana. We serve a GREAT God, and He deserves our praise.

I pray that He will release His favor, power and glory, that they, may rain on us.

Have a blessed week,

Bibi2be