Children: They Keep Me on My Toes And Remind Me To Remain On My Knees

Hello 🙂

I’ve been a little scarce on these streets. It’s Endometriosis Awareness Month, I’ve been writing more regularly on my other blog Yellow Endo Flower, sharing about living with Endometriosis in Kenya.

As I’ve written this month, I’ve been thankful. My little girls are a breath of fresh air, full of joy. They keep me on my toes, but also remind me to remain on my knees; to have a thankful heart and keep crying out to God, because there is nothing too difficult for Him. Oh there is nothing too difficult for the Lord.

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I was sharing with hubby a few days ago about how I need to ask the Lord for forgiveness, because sometimes I know that He can do all things. But other times, I doubt Him. Yet He is God! Omniscient, Omnipresent and Omnipotent. He is God. Oh how I need to surrender, seek His will and trust His heart.

As Ksena and Kyria entertain me as I write, I am reminded that there is nothing too hard for the Lord. He is God. There is no situation too difficult for Him. These girls are my reminder that He is healer. Not even Endometriosis could stand in His way. There is no mountain too big for Him. So we put our trust in Him.

Jeremiah 17:7-8 New Living Translation (NLT)

“But blessed are those who trust in the Lord
    and have made the Lord their hope and confidence.
They are like trees planted along a riverbank,
    with roots that reach deep into the water.
Such trees are not bothered by the heat
    or worried by long months of drought.
Their leaves stay green,
    and they never stop producing fruit.

I say Praise be to the Lord. There is nothing too difficult for Him. Don’t give up on Him.

Blessings,

Bibi2be

 

 

Learning To Be Content

For a long time, I wrongly believed that contentment was something that came a ‘certain’ territory or season. So I lived in the future. I was too engrossed in what should and could happen to enjoy what was actually happening. When some of my ‘dreams’ came to pass, I realized that I would be content for a short time, then the wave of discontentment would hit and I would be back to dreaming.

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It was a sad time. I was looking for contentment in the wrong place, where times change and people and opportunities come and go.

What I have realized since then is that, contentment is a learned behavior. It is not automatic. It takes a constant renewal of the mind and daily acknowledgement of the fact that it is God who assigns you your portion and your cup and regardless of the situation, your boundary lines have fallen in pleasant places [Psalm 16]. There is more to the  portion and the cup than material possessions.

Contentment does not come with a certain territory or season. It is something, a way of thinking and living, that you choose to carry with you in every season.

So here I am, constantly choosing to be content. It’s not about entitlement or comparison, it’s about my journey. I’m taking each day at a time because even two are too many. I am living in the present, thanking God for His faithfulness and letting Him carry me through every season. Daily I am choosing to believe that He holds my world in His hands, that His plans are best, that He will never leave me nor forsake me, that He is working all things out for my good and that He is CONSTANT.

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Have you been thinking that a certain person, institution or situation can truly satisfy you? Do you find yourself constantly thinking that the future will truly satisfy you?

Put your hope in God. Allow Him to satisfy you. Look at life through His lens and allow Him to guide you.

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Doing the above does not exempt you from hard times, but at least, you are assured that He is with you in all things and He is for You. The darkness will not consume you, hard times will come to an end. You will rise. Even in the valley of the shadow of death, you shall fear no evil for He is right there by your side. His rod and His staff will protect and comfort you; and surely goodness and mercy will follow you all of the days of your life {Psalm 23}.

Blessings,

Bibi2be

 

 

 

I Will Run To You Even When It Hurts

I read a really interesting book this weekend that really encouraged me.

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I highly recommend it for all parents, it’s a nice, easy read filled with pearls of wisdom. There is a lot that parents and children can learn from each other. The beauty of life is that we don’t stop learning. This realization is what birthed the Lessons From My Daughter posts.

A few days ago, I had to discipline Ksena. As she cried because she’d been disciplined she still wanted me to comfort her and give her warm cuddles. She was sad but the discipline didn’t make her doubt my intentions or love for her. She knew that my love for her was constant and that the issue of indiscipline was just a hurdle in our journey.

This got me thinking about my relationship with God. What is my attitude towards Him after He has disciplined me? Do I run away in a huff and a puff grumbling about how unfair He is or do I run to Him and let Him comfort me?

I’d love to say that I always run to Him but there are many times that I have run away and sulked. I have even made up bizarre stories about the inadequacy of His love for me. Only to realize that He disciplines me because He loves me; and, the discipline is for my good.

Proverbs 3:11-12 New Living Translation (NLT)

11 My child, don’t reject the Lord’s discipline,
    and don’t be upset when he corrects you.
12 For the Lord corrects those he loves,
    just as a father corrects a child in whom he delights.

I continuously realize why God needs us to have childlike faith, to take Him at His word. His love for us is constant. He sees the bigger picture and we can, and should, trust Him.

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Today I have resolved to run to Him at all times because I can trust Him and His heart for me. He loves me and IS for me.

Do you trust His heart when the discipline hurts? Will you run to Him in the midst of it all?

Have a blessed week.

Bibi2be

By His Grace, For His Glory

AND..I’M…BACK!!!!!! (: (: (:

It is so good to write again, it feels like it’s been too long since I last posted. I’ve been in a wedding zone, two of my friends of mine got married in the last two weeks. It’s been interesting watching them journey to the aisle. It was quite nostalgic, plus, we celebrated our 4th anniversary last week 🙂 . It’s been a short long time. I remember the wedding day vividly, it’s amazing how much we’ve changed since. We’ve both grown as individuals and in our roles as well.

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As I’ve reflected on marriage the last couple of weeks as I’ve engaged in different conversations about marriage, weddings and relationships, I’ve found this statement to be the best summary of our union.

‘By His Grace, for His glory!!!’

We are married in a time where the world doesn’t honor and respect the institution of marriage. Being happily married is honestly a miracle. By God’s grace we are. We’ve seen God carry us, sustain us, fulfill us and love on us. It is His Grace that has brought us this far, for His glory. There are many marriage practices and theories that people attribute to a happy marriage, but I can boldly say that without God you still remain void. It is He who holds us together [Colossians 1:17] By now you’ve figured that I absolutely love this verse. It is a lifeline for me.


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Marriage works, with Jesus it does. We used to wonder out loud a few years ago that if marriage with God in it has its challenges, what about marriage without Him? Quite frankly, I am still not interested in finding out how it works without Him (: .

If you have given up hope on marriages in our generation, please be encouraged, a remnant of God’s grace remains, for His glory.

My heart has been so heavy for marriages the last couple of days, as I have been praying this song has been my prayer.

If your marriage is in a dark place that has discouraged you and made you doubt God, I pray that you will experience God’s divine peace. Oh that the Spirit of the Lord will break out and break down every wall down. Every wall that has boxed you in and held you captive. May revival come, His kingdom on earth as it is in heaven. There is nothing too difficult for God. No situation too dark or bleak for Him. He is God.

If you would like me to stand with you in prayer, please send me an email via ess@bibi2be.com and we’ll trust God together.

Blessings,

Bibi2be

 

 

 

My Ride Or Die : Day 28

**Due to circumstances beyond my control, I was not able to write this post yesterday.**

It’s been almost a month of writing daily, wow, it’s been such an exhilarating journey. I am in awe.

My prayer has been that September will not leave me the same. Even though I don’t feel like big things are happening, it will leave a lasting mark in my life. This would best be seen by the people that I interact with most. Yesterday in conversation with hubby, he said, that as I have written everyday this month and purposed to hear God daily, it has changed my walk with God. He has literally become my everything; my ride or die. My faith in Him has grown.

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Indeed, this month has revolutionized my walk with God. It’s not because things have been easy, in fact  the contrary has been true many times, I will do a behind the scenes post soon. It is because I have realized that God is my everything. I have no where else I can turn. In seasons of plenty and seasons of just enough, His love for me remains constant and by His grace, my trust in Him will remain constant.

It is a thing that I remind myself daily, only He can satisfy.

I have stopped sweating the small stuff. What used to worry me doesn’t anymore. For months on end, I have desired to do my masters, in retrospect, I can see the season just wasn’t right. I have eased up on it, I am waiting for His perfect time. Does it mean, it is no longer a desire? not at all. It just means that I have stopped obsessing over my ideal timeline and I am letting Him work things out.

I have found perfect peace regarding the same.

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My mind is stayed on Him. When it moves, I redirect it back. I will do so until this becomes it’s default destination.

Is God your ride or die?

What desires do you need to surrender to Him?

What has your mind been staying on?

The prayer of the day:

Dear God,

I thank you for second chances. Thank you that you accept me as I am, and take me back even when I have walked away from your pleasant offers too many times to count. Lord, this morning I surrender my heart’s desires to you and I trust in your perfect love for me. Though anxiety has been my bread I choose to trust in you and partake of this perfect peace.

I trust in you Lord. Keep me in perfect peace. I choose you and your plans for me; I know that they are good. You are my everything.

In Jesus name I pray and believe,

Amen

The song of the day:

Keep your mind on Him and He will keep you in perfect peace.

Blessings,

Bibi2be

Have You Given Up? Linger On A Little Longer : Day 19

Have you given up on God?

Sometimes I feel so exasperated, having prayed about certain things for so long yet I haven’t received a response. Or should I say, a favorable response. Over the years, I have become more cautious as I make requests of God. More recently, I have learned to pray ‘safe’ prayers. You know, those that I don’t peg too much hope on. Folly.

Yet, God has convicted my heart, asking me if I really trust Him. And, if I don’t trust Him, who do I trust? The thing about my relationship with God, is that I know that there is no one else I can trust. So, even as I give up, I end up back at square one; trusting Him.

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I love the story about the lady with the issue of blood. She pressed in, past the crowd. She knew where the power lay and believed that if she just touched the hem of His garment she would be healed. Her touching the hem of His garment did not go without Him noticing.

43 A woman in the crowd had suffered for twelve years with constant bleeding,[a] and she could find no cure. 44 Coming up behind Jesus, she touched the fringe of his robe. Immediately, the bleeding stopped.

45 “Who touched me?” Jesus asked.

Everyone denied it, and Peter said, “Master, this whole crowd is pressing up against you.”

46 But Jesus said, “Someone deliberately touched me, for I felt healing power go out from me.” 47 When the woman realized that she could not stay hidden, she began to tremble and fell to her knees in front of him. The whole crowd heard her explain why she had touched him and that she had been immediately healed. 48 “Daughter,” he said to her,“your faith has made you well. Go in peace.” Luke 8

What is the cry of your heart?

What are you battling with?

What do you need God to do?

Have you given up on pressing in to touch the hem of his garment?

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Press in. He is God. Refuse to leave without a touch from Him, let Him know that you are desperate for Him, that you need Him; that you are nothing without Him.

He is God.

The prayer of the day:

Dear God,

I acknowledge that you are God, regardless of any battle I face, regardless of any situation in my life. You see my heart, you know how weary it is, but with the little energy I have, I choose to pursue you. I need a touch from you, no one, nothing else will do. It is You that I want, you that I need, You that I desire.

I declare that there is no other name but Jesus that has power, freedom and victory. Here I am, calling on your name Jesus. Saying that while on others you are waiting do not pass me by. Set me free from anything that holds me captive, heal me from every hurt and disease that courses through my body, show yourself strong in my life. Encourage me, let your light shine as you lift me from the dark hole that I have slipped in to. Speak to me, love on me, satisfy me.

Jesus, I need you. Only You can set me free. Only You can satisfy me.

In Jesus name I pray and believe,

Amen

My heart is at peace now. May the Lord pursue you and touch you in a very personal way.

The song of the day:

I love this song.

Indeed there is no other name but Jesus.

Blessings,

Bibi2be

P.S if you would like me to stand with you in prayer, send me an email on ess@bibi2be.com

Where Feet May Fail

At the beginning of the year, I was so clear about my mini ‘theme’ for the year. It was based on this song:-

I had such a conviction that God wanted to take me on an adventure, then I got comfortable. Or rather, absorbed in my own life – struggling to find the balance between all the roles that I play. I must say that these things were all noble but I began to live in active disobedience in the name of wanting to see the big-picture. Whatever that means really. Seeing as I wouldn’t be able to achieve the ‘big picture’ in a day. Desiring to see the big picture before I move revealed the real status of my heart. I had trust issues, serious ones at that.

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He has never failed me. I may have perceived circumstances in a negative manner while still in the process but at the end, God showed me His hand and heart in it all. Yes, there were trying times but he didn’t let me sink. Yes, I have ‘unanswered’ prayers that have sometimes made me wonder if He still cares even about the small big things in my life; the ones that seem small to the world but seem humongous to me. I know that He cares for me.

About my adventure, a few weeks ago I resolved to just do it. The truth is that there is only one God in this relationship, AND, if I can trust Him with some aspects of my life I should be able to trust Him with the whole of it, and follow His directives in every aspect.

This portion of scripture keeps me going.

Matthew 14:25-31 (NIV)

25 Shortly before dawn Jesus went out to them, walking on the lake. 26 When the disciples saw him walking on the lake, they were terrified. “It’s a ghost,” they said, and cried out in fear.

27 But Jesus immediately said to them: “Take courage! It is I. Don’t be afraid.”

28 “Lord, if it’s you,” Peter replied, “tell me to come to you on the water.”

29 “Come,” he said.

Then Peter got down out of the boat, walked on the water and came toward Jesus. 30 But when he saw the wind, he was afraid and, beginning to sink, cried out, “Lord, save me!”

31 Immediately Jesus reached out his hand and caught him. “You of little faith,” he said,“why did you doubt?”

My take outs are:-

1) The adventure is personal.

It’s not a group venture. If it was, the rest of the disciples would have been walking with Peter. It is Peter who desired to take the adventure to walk on water.

2) Obey Immediately

Peter responded to the invitation immediately. He could have said that He would try on their way back, but he heeded the call immediately.

3) Keep your eyes on Jesus

The wind will blow that’s for sure. The waves will rise but He is Lord over them all. Once you take your eyes of Him you begin to sink. Not because you couldn’t make it but because you doubted.

4) We live by Faith

We live by faith and not by sight. 2 Corinthians 5:7

If we wait to see the bigger picture we will miss out on living the life that God has set aside for us.

Here I am with renewed resolve to walk upon the waters where feet may fail.

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Blessings,

Bibi2Be