I Don’t Want To Be An Ostrich Mama

As a child, I was fascinated by Ostriches. I thought they were intriguingly beautiful. There was something about the way they spread their wings that enthralled me.


I hadn’t thought about an Ostrich for a long time, well, that was up until a couple of weeks ago when I read Job 39.

Job 39:13-18New Living Translation (NLT)

13 “The ostrich flaps her wings grandly,
    but they are no match for the feathers of the stork.
14 She lays her eggs on top of the earth,
    letting them be warmed in the dust.
15 She doesn’t worry that a foot might crush them
    or a wild animal might destroy them.
16 She is harsh toward her young,
    as if they were not her own.
    She doesn’t care if they die.
17 For God has deprived her of wisdom.
    He has given her no understanding.
18 But whenever she jumps up to run,
    she passes the swiftest horse with its rider.


As I read this scripture, my heart was convicted. Verse 16 and 17 tugged at my heart strings and caused me to ask the Lord to search my heart. To reveal to me the ways that I have been harsh, insensitive, deprived of wisdom and lacking understanding.

This passage refused to leave my mind. It replayed in my heart for days on end. Then I begun to see how Ostrich like I have been in my motherhood journey and my heart, oh, how it broke. It became crystal clear (again) that I cannot rely on my own wisdom (or lack thereof). 


My prayer is that in my newborn hazing state I will not be impatient and harsh towards the K girls. That I will be sensitive to the status of their hearts and dreams. That I will be a woman and an understanding mother. Oh, how I pray for wisdom to raise these girls. That I will be loving towards them, that I will always speak lovingly and that my heart will be keen to notice if they are dying in any part of their lives. That my tongue will speak life and not death. That I will encourage them to pursue their dreams and create an environment where they can encounter the Lord.

Now when I think about an Ostrich, I remember that though she is swift and grande, she lacks understanding and has been deprived of wisdom.


Dear Lord,

Please do not deprive us of wisdom. We ask that you will send your angel to give us instructions on how to raise these children like you did to Manoah and his wife in Judges 13.

In Jesus name we pray,







Prayer Corner: Being Known By God

“To be loved but not known is comforting but superficial. To be known and not loved is our greatest fear. But to be fully known and truly loved is, well, a lot like being loved by God. It is what we need more than anything. It liberates us from pretense, humbles us out of our self-righteousness, and fortifies us for any difficulty life can throw at us.” – Timothy Keller

I have been so humbled the last couple of days reading about and experiencing God’s love for me.


This verse stopped me in my tracks. It gave me a new confidence in my faith. I know God, but more importantly, He knows me. I have purposed to remind myself this everyday.

I know God and He knows me.

God knows you.

May you realize that you are cared for, personally known and deeply loved by God.

This is my prayer for you this week:

When I think of the wisdom and scope of God’s plan, I fall to my knees and pray to the Father, the Creator of everything in heaven and on earth. I pray that from his glorious, unlimited resources he will give you mighty inner strength through his Holy Spirit. And I pray that Christ will be more and more at home in your hearts as you trust in him. May your roots go down deep into the soil of God’s marvelous love. And May you have the power to understand, as all God’s people should, how wide, how long, how high, show deep his love really is. May you experience the love of Christ, though it is great that you will never fully understand it. Then you will be filled with the fullness of life and power that comes from God.

Now glory be to God! By his mighty power at work within us, He is able to accomplish infinitely more than we would ever dare to ask or hope. May he be given glory in the church and in Christ Jesus forever and ever through endless ages. Amen (Ephesians 3:14 -21 NLT)



P.S if you would like me to stand with you in prayer, please send me an email via ess@bibi2be.com

God Understands You : Day 15

There are times that I have felt as though I am not fully understood by others. Though they may sympathize, they do not come from a place of experience. Their desire to encourage me may be noble, but they are limited. As a result, I measure what I say according to what I feel they can understand.


This has been a lovely reminder, God understands me, not in the cliche sense of the word and world, but He really does. He has felt what I feel and His comfort comes from a place of much more than empathy, it comes from experience. Even though sometimes He seems far away, He is as close they get. He sees what I struggle to articulate. I don’t have to put up face with Him, He longs to see my heart and heal it.

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What have you been feeling like the world cannot understand?

What is the unspoken cry of your heart?

Try Jesus. Receive His mercy and find His grace. Allow Him to love on you.

Dear God,

I am so humbled that you love me like You do. Thank you for sending Your Son to come to die for my sins. What a privilege it is to know that He feels my pain, that He actually knows and understands my myriad of emotions.

Jesus please forgive me for the times that I have ignored You and rejected Your offer for help. Yet You know what I need, You are what I need. Your love and comfort are exactly what I need.

Help me to run to you, in your arms I am safe. I desire to confide in You and let You in to the deepest part of my heart where the pain and raw emotions reside.

Be exalted in my life. My soul longs for you.

In Jesus name I pray and believe,


The song of the day:

Jesus desires to comfort you. His mercy and grace await thee. Run into His arms and let Him embrace you and soothe you with His loving words.



P.S if you would like me to stand with you in prayer, send me an email on ess@bibi2be@gmail.com