The Clamor and Melody of Motherhood

We are smack in the middle of teething and a wonder week. I’m slightly sleep deprived because I’m a human paci, but this, my heart, is filled with joy and awe.

Looking back at the past six months I am amazed by how God has carried us. My mum is visiting, when she witnessed one evening of rush hour, she asked me, “How do you do it?”. I laughed because I know how hard and intense some days are, but they are rewarding. I still look at my girls and think, “Thank you Lord.”


One of the episodes of Pocoyo that I relate with is when Pocoyo, Pato and Ellie find musical instruments and try to play them. The result is a clamor. When they eventually learn to play the same melody, it is nice to listen to.

Motherhood is a lot like having rookies playing different instruments at the highest volume possible. Sometimes, you can’t wait to turn off the music, except, one instrument may not sleep through the night. Yes, imagine an enthusiastic budding drummer, drumming right next to your ear in the middle of the night. Sometimes I want to scream, other times I want to hug them tight. But, somehow in the midst of the chaos there is a beautiful song playing in the background, reminding me that the rattle, will one day make a beautiful symphony.

Six months later, I’m still sane!! God is faithful. At some point, it was a struggle. But we made it. This is why I am celebrating a half birthday, because I know the behind the scenes reel. And, our standing here is nothing short of a miracle. Mother’s of multiples, you my friends, are clothed in strength! I don’t know how you do it. But there is a God.

I honestly don’t know when is the ‘right time’ to have another baby, everyone has a subjective opinion on this. What I do know though, is when the little one comes, the season changes. But God’s grace never runs out.


I doubt myself so many times. But I trust the one who called me and longs to equip me. I’m taking it one day at a time. Drinking from His fount of grace and loving on these girls. 

Here’s to winning at weaning. Fully relying on God for grace, wisdom and strength. Leading these girls back to Christ. And leaving a legacy worthy of the calling that I have received.

This song is my prayer!!!

There is no other God!





Motherhood Has Taught Me, Once Again, That God Answers Prayers

I’m so blown away by God’s goodness.

A few weeks ago, I was a very stressed and weary mama. Ksena wasn’t sleeping very well which meant I wasn’t sleeping very well either. I was also wondering how I would wean her off breastfeeding without the option of shipping her off to her grandmother’s house for two weeks.

A little background, she used to sleep beautifully until we hit a sleep regression in her first year then things went haywire. We tried all methods of sleep training but they weren’t quite successful due to other compounding factors beyond our control. So sleep was a real prayer request in our home.

I never had a problem with breastfeeding or milk supply but weaning was so stressful. I shudder when I think back. That she eats now and even asks for food by saying ” I’m hungry” or ”tummy is hungry” is a miracle in itself. I have cried tears because she wouldn’t eat, but God; He showed up and her appetite is a testimony of His Grace.

So back to the current situation, as we were away from home for several weeks, I knew things needed to change once we got back home; but God needed to come through I’m order for the changes to happen.

I needed to sleep train her and wean her off breastfeeding. The first day, I kept repeating God’s truth to her,  ”Ksena can do all things through Christ who strengthens her”. I told her that though self soothing was difficult she could do it because God was with her.  Every time she heard the verse, she calmed down. God’s word has power!!!


In four days she was sleep trained and weaned off breast feeding completely. It’s been a while since I’ve slept so well. I can change the world. When she wants to sleep she walks up to me and says ”Mummy , I’m tired”.

A few days ago, I told Peter that many times we don’t live in abundance because we have forfeited our power in Christ. As I’ve been reading ‘The Power Of A Praying Parent’ by Stormie Omartian, I’ve realized that when I spend time in His presence, His power is released. I desire for this power to be released in every aspect of my life.

This week, I’m working on my master prayer list. Asking the Holy Spirit to write with me, that I may be intentional about praying for the big and small things that worry and wear down my heart.

If your heart is weary, I pray that you will find rest in Christ. Nothing is too difficult for Him, you can trust Him with all the desires of your heart. In Jesus name we pray and believe, Amen.




Best Foot Forward Always

Hello (:

How was your weekend?

Good news from my end, my little one is back to eating. Her appetite is back, PRAISE JESUS!! I’m sure that there are some angels resting in heaven. They know that Mama Ksena {or whatever they call me up there} has stopped praying about appetite and Ksena’s eating every waking moment. Now they just dance before the Father as I give Him all the praise and glory.


This morning a friend, asked me for weaning tips. I chuckled to myself, because weaning has been on of my biggest challenges as a mother. I have tried very many things, read a lot of articles; attempted many recipes, had to smile through frustration but, now, NOW I’m WINNING. With Jesus I’m winning. I will not complain about the post-meals clean up, they are like a project. Ksena won’t let you feed her. She is Miss independent, learning to feed herself. Just the other day we brought her from hospital and now she mostly wants when she feeds herself. Sigh. They grow up so fast. Her attempts are getting better, sometimes the vegetables miss and land everywhere else apart from her mouth, but I happily pick them up when she is done.

A friend of mine told me that I do quite a lot, this was my response:

In my eyes I view myself as just another SAHM, drowning in the in-between. Now i’m getting comfortable in my odd normal. Some days are productive as per the world’s definition, others are spent trying to decipher toddler and meet her needs.

Her response was perfect!

What is just another “SAHM”? Odd normal is good. Best foot forward everyday whether its wiping food off hands and faces or writing something that will encourage or inspire someone.


We all need friends who cheer us on even when all we have done is chased a toddler around the whole morning. These are the real cheerleaders.

Here is my best foot forward this hour. I pray that it blesses you. When you notice the silence up in here, know that I’m busy letting my light shine in other aspects of my life. Sometimes multi-tasking is too much work for me.

Speaking of lights shining, this is one of Ksena’s favorite songs right now. May it remind you to let your light shine.




Motherhood Taught Me To Pray At All Times.

Pray at all times.



I didn’t how possible this was, until I had a baby.

After I delivered Ksena, I realized that even the mundane things that I had taken for granted in my life, needed to be prayed about.

I highly doubt that I had pleaded the heavens for a burp or bowel movement in a baby’s body like I did in those first few months. Then came sleep deficit, Oh! My life is a testimony that there is a God. If anyone had asked me if I could survive without a full night of sleep, I’d have said NO! But, God and my body proved me wrong. I survive, some days I thrive, others I glide through on autopilot and it’s okay.

I have petitioned the heavens for a full night of sleep, some seasons have been better than others. In a particular one, I realized that her sleep interruption was to wake me up to pray. Now, who would have thought? After I moved away from being slightly irritated that she still won’t sleep through the night, I begun to hear the Lord at the silent hour of the night.

This veteran sleeper, really fought this lesson. But I’ve reached the place where I allow the Lord to give me deeper insight in the midst of the inconvenience of life’s circumstances. Some days I wake up in a rotten mood, that I quickly take to the cross for exchange.


I’ve been anxious and scared the last couple of months but I’ve also experienced indescribable peace the past few months.

Life has its challenges, even as I write this, we are in a season where eating has not been our favourite activity. But it’s just that, a season, it will end (Dear Lord, I pray the end is nigh.) Some days I have balancing tears, others I thank God for the cup of yoghurt that she finished.

I’ve prayed, I’ve tasted and seen that the Lord is good. Nothing is too difficult for Him and He cares about all of my needs. What a mighty, gentle and awesome God we serve.


In the ups and the downs of life, I pray that you will find the Lord’s presence as inviting. He longs to love on you and encourage you. When you are weak, He is strong.  He has all that you need.



Lessons From My Daughter (Pt 4)

Happy new week 🙂

Miss K turned 6 months at the beginning of the month. It was an extra happy week in the K household. We had a little cake cutting session to celebrate God’s faithfulness and sustenance. Did I mention ebf? By God’s grace we exclusively breast fed. Prayers, liquids, dill seeds and rest worked wonders for my milk supply.

It is so amazing to see how babies grow. She rocked up into our lives just the other day, I still remember the day she was born quite vividly. She came as a little helpless (read: dependent) person and now she has developed her own personality and some independence, I mean she can even play by herself albeit briefly

We started weaning *happy dance* 🙂 .So far so good. It has been quite the adventure with a food allergy et al, but we are taking it a day at a time and enjoying the different tastes and textures.

Weaning has been fun, it’s taught me a couple of lessons about spiritual diet and life.

1. There is a time for everything

Exclusive breast feeding was crucial for the first six months. I enjoyed it as I had a lot of milk and the preparation time was minimal. It helped her grow, hit her milestones and she was able to double her birth weight. In the same way, there is a time and season for spiritual milk.

1 Peter 2:2 (NIV)

Like newborn babies, crave pure spiritual milk, so that by it you may grow up in your salvation,

2. Just because you want something, doesn’t mean you are ready for it

A few weeks before we weaned she would want to eat whatever she saw on our plates and drink what she saw us drinking. Truth be told, even if her saliva formed a puddle at my feet due to her eager salivary glands, the rest of her body was still not ready for solid food. Also there are guidelines for when a baby is ready to eat solid food. You can find them here.

1 Corinthians 3:2 (NIV)

I gave you milk, not solid food, for you were not yet ready for it. Indeed, you are still not ready.

There are some foods that she is still not ready for but slowly and surely we will get there.

3. Don’ be selfish, Share the knowledge

Soon she will be eating solid foods very well. When the time comes, she will be able to model to her siblings how to eat ; as well as show them how to behave at the dinner table.

Hebrews 5:12 (NIV)

In fact, though by this time you ought to be teachers, you need someone to teach you the elementary truths of God’s word all over again. You need milk, not solid food!

When you have learned something, find someone to teach.

Always have a teachable spirit. One that says:-

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“Once you stop learning, you start dying” – Albert Einstein

May you allow Jesus to teach you His truths and grow you at His pace. Do not measure yourself with the progress of others; let Him be your yardstick.

Christ is the living word (John 1:1). He is the bread of life, whoever goes to Him will not go hungry and if you believe in Him you will never thirst again. Only He can truly satisfy.

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Happy eating, drinking and learning.