Keeping Journals For My Daughters

I have a box full of journals that I’ve written over the years. Each of them is a treasure of emotions and a testimony of how far God has carried me. I started writing at about 8 years old. Then, I didn’t think it would be something that I’d carry with me for the rest of the life, but writing was my outlet.

There are seasons where I have been very consistent with writing, and others where I have taken so long to complete a journal. But deep within, I’ve known that writing is good for me. I process life through writing. Sometimes I look back and I’m amazed at the depth in the journal entries.

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When I was pregnant, I had an idea to keep a journal for my girls. After Ky was born, I bought them journals that I felt reflected their personalities and started writing late last year.

This has turned out to be one of my favorite pastimes, I actually look forward to spend time writing when they are asleep. It warms my heart.

This verse is what nudged me to keep journals for my girls.

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I realized that it is very easy to forget to share the good things that God has done. But there is something powerful about sharing testimonies. They ignite a flame in the faith of the hearer. They point them back to God.

It has been such an amazing experience. I have enjoyed writing little prayers, testimonies of the Lord’s doing, our memories, words of wisdom, and funny moments. I want to incorporate little drawings.

My prayer is that they will glean wisdom, laugh at the precious memories, but over all, stand in awe of God. He is faithful. I want them to know it for themselves, and see His footsteps through their lives and His finger prints on their hearts.

Would you like to start keeping a journal for your children? All you need is a journal, pen and a heart to write. The stories will flow, the testimonies will be shared and their faith will be strengthened in the Lord.

Blessings,

Bibi2Be

I Don’t Want To Be An Ostrich Mama

As a child, I was fascinated by Ostriches. I thought they were intriguingly beautiful. There was something about the way they spread their wings that enthralled me.

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I hadn’t thought about an Ostrich for a long time, well, that was up until a couple of weeks ago when I read Job 39.

Job 39:13-18New Living Translation (NLT)

13 “The ostrich flaps her wings grandly,
    but they are no match for the feathers of the stork.
14 She lays her eggs on top of the earth,
    letting them be warmed in the dust.
15 She doesn’t worry that a foot might crush them
    or a wild animal might destroy them.
16 She is harsh toward her young,
    as if they were not her own.
    She doesn’t care if they die.
17 For God has deprived her of wisdom.
    He has given her no understanding.
18 But whenever she jumps up to run,
    she passes the swiftest horse with its rider.

 

As I read this scripture, my heart was convicted. Verse 16 and 17 tugged at my heart strings and caused me to ask the Lord to search my heart. To reveal to me the ways that I have been harsh, insensitive, deprived of wisdom and lacking understanding.

This passage refused to leave my mind. It replayed in my heart for days on end. Then I begun to see how Ostrich like I have been in my motherhood journey and my heart, oh, how it broke. It became crystal clear (again) that I cannot rely on my own wisdom (or lack thereof). 

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My prayer is that in my newborn hazing state I will not be impatient and harsh towards the K girls. That I will be sensitive to the status of their hearts and dreams. That I will be a woman and an understanding mother. Oh, how I pray for wisdom to raise these girls. That I will be loving towards them, that I will always speak lovingly and that my heart will be keen to notice if they are dying in any part of their lives. That my tongue will speak life and not death. That I will encourage them to pursue their dreams and create an environment where they can encounter the Lord.

Now when I think about an Ostrich, I remember that though she is swift and grande, she lacks understanding and has been deprived of wisdom.

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Dear Lord,

Please do not deprive us of wisdom. We ask that you will send your angel to give us instructions on how to raise these children like you did to Manoah and his wife in Judges 13.

In Jesus name we pray,

Amen

Blessings,

Bibi2be

 

 

Prayer Corner: Being Known By God

“To be loved but not known is comforting but superficial. To be known and not loved is our greatest fear. But to be fully known and truly loved is, well, a lot like being loved by God. It is what we need more than anything. It liberates us from pretense, humbles us out of our self-righteousness, and fortifies us for any difficulty life can throw at us.” – Timothy Keller

I have been so humbled the last couple of days reading about and experiencing God’s love for me.

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This verse stopped me in my tracks. It gave me a new confidence in my faith. I know God, but more importantly, He knows me. I have purposed to remind myself this everyday.

I know God and He knows me.

God knows you.

May you realize that you are cared for, personally known and deeply loved by God.

This is my prayer for you this week:

When I think of the wisdom and scope of God’s plan, I fall to my knees and pray to the Father, the Creator of everything in heaven and on earth. I pray that from his glorious, unlimited resources he will give you mighty inner strength through his Holy Spirit. And I pray that Christ will be more and more at home in your hearts as you trust in him. May your roots go down deep into the soil of God’s marvelous love. And May you have the power to understand, as all God’s people should, how wide, how long, how high, show deep his love really is. May you experience the love of Christ, though it is great that you will never fully understand it. Then you will be filled with the fullness of life and power that comes from God.

Now glory be to God! By his mighty power at work within us, He is able to accomplish infinitely more than we would ever dare to ask or hope. May he be given glory in the church and in Christ Jesus forever and ever through endless ages. Amen (Ephesians 3:14 -21 NLT)

Blessings,

Bibi2be

P.S if you would like me to stand with you in prayer, please send me an email via ess@bibi2be.com

What Drives You : Day 3

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What is at the center of your life?

What does your life revolve around?

It is easy to answer Jesus off the top of your head but when you carefully analyze the driving force behind your decisions you realize there could be ulterior motives.

After examining my prayer life a couple of weeks ago, I realized that it was driven by ulterior motives. The not so subtle love of other things had taken centre stage. In my readings of 1st Kings 3, I was challenged by Solomon’s request of God. He had been made the King by his father David. When the Lord asked him what he wanted, he responded

“Give me an understanding heart so that I can govern your people well and know the difference between right and wrong. For who by himself is able to govern this great people of yours?” The Lord was pleased that Solomon had asked for wisdom. So God replied, “Because you have asked for wisdom in governing my people with justice and have not asked for a long life or wealth or the death of your enemies— I will give you what you asked for! I will give you a wise and understanding heart such as no one else has had or ever will have! And I will also give you what you did not ask for—riches and fame! No other king in all the world will be compared to you for the rest of your life! (verse 9-14 NLT)

I was blown away and reprimanded at the same time. We all know that the position of King comes with riches and fame. Many people seek positions of power for the perks. But, Solomon understood that he needed God to direct him and equip him to keep governing His people main thing.

This scripture is what birthed 30 days of depth. I chose to ask the Lord to give me the wisdom on what to write for the audience that He has given me; for who by himself is able to write for these great people of His? I AM IN AWE of Him. It is only day 3, but each day I can’t help but stand in awe of Him as I see His footsteps and let Him satisfy me.

Is what you do about Him or about you?

What are you seeking Him out for? His heart or His hand?

Do you trust that He will still take care of you if you give Him the reigns?

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The prayer of the day:

Dear Lord Jesus,

I stand in awe of you and declare that there is none like you. You are God, and that is just the way it is. Thank you for being patient with me. You have entrusted me with much, and many times, I have sauntered along without asking for your wisdom in my day to day decisions. I have neglected your kingdom and instead I have focused on my selfish and ulterior motives. Please forgive me.

I want to know Your heart’s desire for me. I need Your wisdom on the way I should go. I desire for You to be seen through me. Work in and through me; I am available. I trust that You are for me and that You will never let me go. I am in safe hands. All these other things that I desire will be given to me as well, in Your time, Your good and perfect time.

In Jesus name I pray and believe,

Amen

The song of the day is:

Blessings,

Bibi2Be

P.s If you would like me to stand with you in prayer, feel free to send me an email on ess@bibi2be.com