Where The Skies Are Grey

Today is a good day.

The last couple have been hard; difficult; a blur. The post baby blues have felt closer to navy blue, scratch that black. Pitch black. A big black hole, that I just couldn’t get out of. I’m not new to these dark shades, but what they encompassed these last couple of days, I was not ready for. They have shown me just how dark, dark can be. I was breaking, drowning on dry land. In a sea of sadness and loneliness. The saddest part, is drowning when you so badly want to and need to stay afloat. Struggling not to cry, battling anger, watching your appetite and milk supply diminish. Physically fine but running on Empty.

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It’s hard not having a support system. God has blessed me with a great friend in my husband, he is a star! But there is only so much that He can do and be for me. I have grieved not having the support I would like, and then found comfort in the Lord. Because what else is there to do, but accept that this is a season, as you pray that it gets easier.

Psalm 119 has been such a comfort for me the last couple of days. And this song, is the anthem of my heart.

Out of the mist I have seen His hand.

Today is a better day. I’ve smiled from the depths of my heart, I have made it to the gym. I have done something for myself. I am writing; this is huge, I’ve struggled to write three lines in my journal, the dashboard of this blog has gathered some dust.

Miss Ky is 3 months, I’m all set to celebrate this far that the Lord has brought us. She is watching me write this, encouraging me with her smiles. I am grateful for the journey that is motherhood. Even on the days that I struggle, I know that these girls are blessings from above. They are not to blame for the complexities of my emotions. After all is said and done, It is well; and when it’s not, we hold on to the hope that it shall be.

Blessings,

Bibi2be

Nothing Takes God By Surprise

Hello 🙂

It’s so great to be back to writing after such a long time. I had really missed it.

Life had gotten intense and I needed to stop. There were attacks all around and my emotions and peace were all up in the air.

Even in the midst of back to back sickness, things falling through, unexpected miracles, disappointment and discouragement; I have learned to keep my eyes on He who is the author and perfecter of my faith.

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I must admit that I’ve not been a champ all through, no, at some point my attitude was stinking rotten. Then it hit me, (again) God doesn’t owe me anything. All that I have and all that I am is by His Grace. He is God in it all.

So here I am, comforted and encouraged by the fact that nothing takes Him by surprise.

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In the grande and mundane disappointments in life, I have learned that nothing takes Him by surprise and I am safe in His hands.

A recurrent prayer is that He will renew my mind that I may know His good, pleasing and perfect will. I refuse to move by my strength or wisdom. It is He who directs my steps.

I’d like to pray with you; if you have a specific request that you’d like me to trust God with you for, please send me an email via ess@bibi2be.com.

May the Lord bless you and keep you. May He cause His face to shine upon you and give you peace.

Blessings upon blessings,

Bibi2be

 

Cheerleader

Once in a while, we all get discouraged. Though, it is important to know how to cheer yourself on, there are times that one needs a cheerleader to cheer them on and let them know that they are doing great. Even though they are currently losing the fight; remind them that the battle is not lost.

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A couple of months ago, I had this grand idea to write a book and I did. Writing it was one of the most fulfilling things I have ever done. It made me realize I want to write for life. By the time I was done with book one, I had book two and three racing through my mind. I was a living, breathing, mobile inspiration.

Three months down the line, I am still walking with the ideas in my head, not as excited though. Reason being: I wanted book one to be published before I start on the next ones.

Yesterday I was a bit discouraged as I discussed this with my hubby. He told me that the most important thing is, to do what God has asked me to do. So what if finding a publisher locally is difficult? So what if the technology needed to print the type of book I want is locally unavailable? I shouldn’t get derailed by the details but do what God has asked me to do.

He went on to tell me a little story about a man named Omi who is behind this song.

Here is his story borrowed from Mitchell Wigg’s  Facebook page.

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This story!!!!

I was left dumbfounded. So many lessons can be drawn from it, it is like a little sermon.

1)The truth is, sometimes God asks us to do things that are ahead of our time. And, just because some people around us do not see the value in what we are doing does not negate it’s greatness.

2)Everybody needs a cheerleader! This lady deserves a round of applause. She truly believed in his dream and treated it like her own. When he had given up she still believed in Him and his dream. She didn’t ditch him because his great plan didn’t work.

I thank God for my cheerleader and pray that I too will be a ride or die cheerleader, believe in the dream and pursue it as my own.

3) There is a God. This should be number 1. He works in miraculous ways (His wonders to perform). He makes divine connections happen.

There is no situation too difficult or dead for Him. You may have given up but never give up on Him. He is able.

So here I am, thanking God for my cheerleader 🙂 , inspired that God still works in the background. Ready to write for the glory of His name.

When the books are published I’ll be sure to reference this day.

What has God asked you to do? Who can you cheer on today?

Blessings,

Bibi2be